I was just wondering exactly how did everyone's disorders come into existence? Did it start by someone's comment, or you just thought you were too fat, etc?

Hey. Mine started out as a diet, as I think many peoples do! I weighed 270 and wanted to be thin, so I stopped eating for a whole year. I lost 150lbs, but I lost a whole lot more than that. I am currently bulimic, but trying desperatly to get better. The problem is that I am so off track. Anyways that is how it started for me.

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Katie

Mine also started as a diet...I wanted to lose weight quickly so I was only eating about 500 calories a day. Once I lost the weight, I was afraid that increasing my calories would make me fat. After a while, I thought ANYTHING I ate would make me gain weight so I pretty much stopped eating. It's weird how irrational your thoughts can be when you have an eating disorder.

mine did not start from adiet, it started when I was leaving a really bad relationship, it was how I reacted to alot of pain

ahhh! i almost can't remember, it was so long ago! i really was obese when i first started purging. i'd always been fat, since i was 5. then , when i was about 15, i felt like "will i ever be thin" and had to do something. i ate to the point of feeling digustingly full, which i hated too, so i just thought, why not get rid of it? then after i reached my goal weight, a nice normal 140, i wanted to lose an extra 5 lbs to give me a buffer in case i gained some accidentally. anyone else think like this? so i lost some more weight, liked my new weight but thougt i should probably lose an extra 5 just in case. and so on down to 100 lbs. i was so thin even i, with my messed-up self-image, thought i was too thin, i was just afraid if i gained any little ounce i would wind up fat again. yikes! i started throwing up 12 years ago, stopped almost one year ago.

I can relate sooo much to your post - I too went on a "diet" to lose a few pounds, even though at my highest weight I was right in the middle of what's considered my healthy range. Once I got down to my goal weight I wanted to lose just 5 more pounds as an extra cushion in case somehow I gained weight unexpectedly. Those five pounds eventually added up to 30, putting me way below a healthy weight. Also, I've always struggled with compulsive exercise which began when I was in junior high.
It's interesting how so many people think that anorexics/bulimics are trying to look like the models on the cover of Vogue...I've never aspired to look like them (I don't even read Vogue), I just wanted to lose a few pounds...and then lost control of my diet....

I've always been a small eater, but at the same time I have always been a very active person. I grew up with a very low opinion of myself, have always had very little confidence and have put up with so much emotional abuse that I just believed everything about me was terrible. I've always pushed myself to the limit, being a high acheiver and a perfectionist, and my parent have always pushed us into being as successful as possible. I've always thought I should be "perfect"

When I was little I worried about my weight a lot, goodness knows why! When I was fourteen was when I really became anorexic, then bulimia at seventeen. I'm eighteen now and struggling again. Having suffered from depression since I was only eight, I go through stages where I just completely lose my appitite altogether because of my depression. I guess that's how it all started...

mine did not start with a diet either. It started w/ a comment... well sort of... i sorta had this urge to "not eat" or wutever to b better. i guess... well... muh lil buddy... a guy friend whom i trusted fully luved and had a crush on... said its kewl how u look anorexic but you arent... well... that spiriled and... i thought if i became anorexic he'd find me more attractive then b4 and go out w/ me but that didnt happen he told me i was dumb...4 doin that... but newayz... we sorta lost touch shortly after that... well we regained touch and we's bff's again he's muh everything but no1 else likes him lol... he still dont like me like a gf and i screwd up muh life o well lol

For me, I started just wanting to eat healthier and cut out all the junkfood that I ate. I figured that if I did that, I would loose a bit of weight, like five pounds was all I wanted. But when I lost that five pounds I thought, "what's five more?". And to loose more I just kept on cutting out more and more foods until I barely ate anything. Everytime I reached the weight that I thought I'd be fine with, I wanted to loose more. I'm still not happy with my weight or the way I look. But my parents and doctors are all on my back now trying to make me gain the weight back... it's horrible and I don't want to let it happen!!!

Mine started as a way to lose weight..... but it was before "eating disorders" were really recognized being as I am 38 years old now and I first was anorexic at the age of 13. The doctor told my mom I was going through a phase - funny it was a phase that would last 14 years.... I was anorexic for 4 years and then all of a sudden, and I dont know why I started to become a binge eater and to compensate for that I developed bulimia. By that time eating disorders were more recognized. But, saying I developed bulimia to deal with the binging probably isn't accurate as eating disorders, for me, was way to deal with things in my life, symptomatic of other issues. I spent 10 years of my life being bulimic. Recently after being ED free for 11 years, my bulimia has come back. I am scared, discouraged, and very down on myself right now. I have gone 10 days in a row without throwing up, but i feel as if I am right back where I was 11 years ago. I dont know what made me start throwing up again 2 weeks ago.

I dont know how it started. I never thought I was fat, never had a bad comment or tried to lose weight. I was always in great shape, until the eating disorder. I cheered, competed with gymnastics, danced, played soccer, etc. I did not even know what was happening, or even that anything was... But I want out, and I want to be healthy!