I HAVE BEEN DRINKING SINCE I WAS 13 YEARS OLD, I AM NOW 19 YEARS OLD. SO IT'S BEEN 6 YEARS STRAIGHT. I WAS NO SMALL DRINKER, U CAN SAY I DRANK AND HANDLED LIKE A MID-30 YEAR OLD HEAVYWEIGHT BIKERMAN WHISKEY BAR DRINKER. MY DAILY DRINKS WERE A BOTTLE OF CISCO(2liters) FOLLOWED BY 2-3 211 STEEL RESERVED TALL CANS (24oz). OR I WOULD MIX IT AROUND WITH A BOTTLE OF CAPTAIN MORGAN OR JACK DANIELS DAILY. I NOW FEEL THE EFFECTS IN MY BODY THAT I CAN'T DRINK AS I DID. MY BODY HAS CHANGED AS WELL, I HAVE A VERY HORRIBLE STABLE DISORDER, I CAN'T STOP SHAKING OR CANT KEEP STILL WHICH CAUSES MY BONES TO START HURTING AND ACHING. I REALLY WANT TO STOP, BUT IT FEELS LIKE IT'S A PART OF ME, I HATE GOING TO MEETINGS, I FEEL MORE SECURE TALKING ABOUT THIS IN PRIVATE. THOUGH I'VE TRIED TO CALM DOWN IN MY DRINKING, BY CONSUMING A 40oz BEER EVERY OTHER DAY. ITS WEIRD BECAUSE IF I DONT DRINK I START SWEATING PRETTY BAD UNTIL I GET IT. I JUST NEED SOME SORT OF SUGGESTIONS IN HOW TO CALM MORE DOWN IN MY DRINKING OR STOP COMPLETELY.

HELP!:blob_fire

Yes my dear you do need help....and now!! You need to go see a doctor and lay it all out. He can give you something to help. If you don't have insurance then go to a teaching hospital where they accept people with no insurance. You can't keep this up. You will not last until you're 25 if you do. You also need to have your doctor do a physical examination. check your liver....and then just take it day by day........you can do it......I know you can..........:angel:

I have noticed that the help you want is very conditional. You want either help in calming down while you drink or to stop completely? It looks like you haven't made up your mind yet, to which you want.

You also hate those dang meetings. Once I asked my sponsor, "How long do I have to go to those dang meetings?"

He told me, "Untill you want to go."

Today, I want to go. And have been sober for many years.

You have to want to stay sober to stay sober. You have to want it more than anything else in your life. It can't be a passing fancy or you won't make it. You have to hit bottom, and it doesn't sound like you have yet. You have to want it like you wanted your next drink when you had none left and were not passed out.

I am sure you can find many people to love, coddle, and stroke your alcoholic brain. People who will say what you want and not what you need.

I am not one of these people. You may live or die, you are the only one who can decide on this.

Remember love won't get you sober, or your mothers love toward you would have gotten you sober before you even started.

I understand how your withdrawls are uncomfortable and you know that a drink will make them go away. If you want to stop you just have to suffer it out. Getting clean and coming off of the booze isnt easy and it isnt meant to be easy. If getting clean was easy this board wouldnt exist. You really have to put all you got into getting clean. If you are trying how to find out how to "control" your drinking or how to drink moderatly I can tell you that isnt possible. You can give it a shot though. Addict/alcoholics cant just have one drink or one pill and be satisfied its just not possible for us. We want all or nothing and we have no control over our addictions. Coming to terms with that is hard. You know you have a problem. Did you used to post here b4? Just wondering your story sounds familiar. All I can tell you is you really got to put as much into getting sober as you do to get drunk. You will be uncomfortable for a few days and yes you will suffer from w/d's and you will want to drink to make it all go away. Its up to you not to take that first drink and just wait it out. If you cant do it alone I would suggest getting some help. Alot of us need help to get clean. There is no reason to be ashamed to get the help for your problem. Your not the first one who has had to reach out for help and you wont be the last. Search the web and maybe you can find online meetings if your uncomfortable with face 2 face meetings. Just know your not alone in this. Getting sober can be done just depends on how bad you want it. Maybe your not at that stage yet of wanting to get sober and stay sober. Maybe you think you can get to the stage of moderatly drinking or going without a drink for a couple of days. When you want to stop drinking you will do it. Just suffer the w/d's and you will start to feel better after a few days. I wish you luck with this and I know how hard it is. In a year or 10yrs from now it wont be any easier and may be to late. Good luck with this and just give it a try being sober you might find you really like it. Kim

"calming down" is not what ur drinking needs...you will only stop once you truly believe u need to stop

To drink like a gentleman again, our hats are off to you.

There’s only one solution that will last for you as a true Alcoholic and that's not to take the 1st drink. It's simple, but not easy.

I found help with this process in AA (and many nice friends, some your age!) In AA they welcome anyone wanting to stop drinking with open arms and the help they offer is amazing; for anyone who wants it that is; there's no signing up to join a club and having to attend meeting, you do as you please. Take as much as you want or as little as you want!

For me we I was ready, I wanted it all, the cake, the icing and the cherry on top! AA has shown me how to live a life beyond my wildest dreams, really, and it keeps getting better. When I 1st went ,of course, I was ill, but now I have recently picked up my 5 year sobriety award; it felt great, but we have this saying that we only live sobriety one day at a time and so we never need swear off from the drink etc, it's just dealing with life issues for that deal.

There are AA numbers in any book, if you fancy giving them a chance. Try at least 3 -5 different meeting as they are not all exactly the same. Hey, before you know it you could be really enjoying sobriety.

Love and Prayers

Mike