Just thought I'd give an update. I am starting to feel human again. I still have depression and anxiety but have been able to get through the last 5 days without self-medicating with alcohol which is huge. I think the alcohol was definitely making the anxiety worse. I wasn't drinking a lot, just enough to take the edge off, but with my history and depression issues, even that much was like poison. I am still going to yoga which helps a lot. Still taking sleep aids, but been able to cut back on the xanax a bit.
Each new day brings a little more hope.
Minn

Awesome Minn!!! Sounds like you are having better days. It will get better and better. You should be so proud of what you have done. Anything fun planned for the weekend?

Fun? What's that? lol...not sure yet. I'm just playing it by ear. I'll do some exercise, yoga, hang w/the dogs. How about you? Watching some guys run around a field chasing an oval ball perhaps;-)
Minn

Great to hear you are doing a bit better each day, MsMinn. I think we all want that big "WOW, I am better", but every day is more like a "hmmm, I haven't thought about the (DOC) in (x) hours, and I feel OK". Then you may feel your endorphins kick in when you realize you've actually made progress. Try to stay even..not too excited..not too down. It's those swings that make you wonder and then think about your cravings, when if you try to keep it even, you'll get back to normal realistically. You may get cravings but, when that happens to me, I think about the past WD's and the drug sickness and pill counting. The cravings pass once you get occupied with something else. Each day is just farther from the drug and/or alcohol, and each day we find the appeal of the drug less and less. You're getting there and it's good to hear. Keep acknowledging your progress...it's awesome:)

Lisa