I just met with a therapist for the first time this morning and she confirmed that I do have an eating disorder. This is something I've suspected about myself for awhile now but never really had the guts to admit to myself and/or anyone else. I never thought a fat person like me could have an eating disorder til I started obessing about food and hiding it from my husband and kids. I binge a couple of times a day and I constantly struggle to try to stay on a diet or at least eat healthy food. I'm totally addicted to junk food and have no idea how I'm going to get out of this situation and get on the road to recovery but the therapist I saw today says it can be done. She mentioned OA (overeaters anonymous). I feel like such a loser. I want to lose weight and I want to be healthy but the more I try to eat healthy foods the more I want and crave the junk.

Anyway, I just wanted to post here to find out if anyone else here is in my boat- fat and binging every day.

Hi~

I just want to say that I understand what you are going through. It is hard when one is not able to cope with an ED, especially if they are trying to combat losing weight. It makes it a double-edge sword.

I've been in remission til today. Then it all went to pot. I binged completely and it has taken a toll on me. Oh well- I'll survive! ;) Like you, I need to lose weight as well. I'm in the same boat. I don't exactly know your situation very well, but I can relate to the weight loss battle. I've been anorexic for some time- most of my life, and bulimic- and now remission, until recently- and today.... and then I gained weight due to psych meds and menopause. That's beside the point....

Binging is a destructive behavior. It requires lots of therapy to cope with to get to the culprit of why one is doing it. There are lots of reasons why a person binges. It is good to seek out emotional help from a therapist- highly recommend if you do have insurance and have therapists that are covered; as it does make a difference. They help explain why, what to do, give you projects of self-esteem building/discovery, etc. and help you figure out what the root of your binging is caused by- the triggers. Then they have you figure out what you can do to stop when they start; and how to cope with them and the emotions- which is the main reason a person binges; it is purely an emotional issue. Not all a hunger aspect. One is feeding the hunger of emotional turmoil inside.

I need to get going. My sons need me to help with their homework. I hope that you are okay. Take care of yourself. Come to this forum. There are some wonderful gals here who are great supporters and indivduals.

Hugs

Coffeegirl