i knew i shouldn't have stepped on that scale this morning, i thought about waiting another week, and that would be 2 weeks between weigh ins, but i just couldn't. ed won again, because i've gained 2.5 lbs since last week and there is no way i've eaten that many more calories, and now my whole day is ruined. this whole ed thing is about control because when my weight goes up like that i feel like i'm losing control over everything and that the scale is just going to keep reading higher and higher, and i will hate myself!!! because i do right now. it is saturday, a day my kids have off of school, and there is no way i could even think of doing anything fun, i'm miserable, and i've been yelling all day. why can't i just be normal??

Hey Case. Well, I really wish I knew what to say. Unfortunately, I am feeling the exact same way as you right now. I am getting increasingly more disgusted with myself with every pound I gain. Sometimes I wish I could go back to the way I was, even though I know it was not healthy. I feel completely out of control. Sorry I am not able to offer any advice--just know that I am right there with you. Hang in there!

This morning I weighed 91. (lost a pound) This afternoon I weigh 92.5 lbs. I really need to throw my scale out. lol But I'm at the point right now where I'm like, "screw this..." and I'm about to go to Church in a minute and afterwards I plan on getting Wendy's. :dizzy:

A person always gains weight during the daytime, plus if you have drank water the previous night, it will cause a pound or two of weight gain. Water weighs heavy- a pound or two per glass. However, water also is great for the body because if helps flush out the system, and helps metabolise fat in the body.

Drink plenty of water- and just do not drink after 7:00 pm the night before weighing. ;)

You will be okay Case. You are normal, the illness is just a reflection of your self-image; not you as a whole person. You have traits as a whole person- a character- 'characterisitics', that define you, 'Case'. So, try to not beat yourself up. The illness reflects how one feels about themselves at times, and that is what stinks about it. That is why I hate Anorexia and Bulimia both.

Well, I had better go.

Take care..

Coffeegirl

A person always gains weight during the daytime, plus if you have drank water the previous night, it will cause a pound or two of weight gain. Water weighs heavy- a pound or two per glass. However, water also is great for the body because if helps flush out the system, and helps metabolise fat in the body.

Drink plenty of water- and just do not drink after 7:00 pm the night before weighing. ;)

It's amazing how much you can weigh from just one glass. Yet there are some days I will weigh myself in the morning, and do my normal eating/drinking and such, weigh myself again in the afternoon and still be the same number. I guess it all depends on both WHAT you eat and drink and how MUCH. Perhaps if I put my scale in the basement, I won't be tempted to weigh myself all the time, cuz I hate going down there.

Now I feel REALLYY REALLY full after my cheeseburger, fries, chicken nuggets, and frosty. :( Then after that I ate a reeses and a 3 musketeers bar. And my side aches as if I've been running a marathon, I'm suspecting the food has something to do with that.... The last 2 days my calories have been under 1,000. :(

Update: LMAO I just weighed myself again, and before my dinner binge I was 92.5, and NOW I weigh a frickin' 94 lbs. AYEE YAHHH!!!

emlitrell, how tall are you? you have got to be way on the thin side, please fight this ed and get help. are you in therapy? i get to go in 2 weeks and i can't wait. you must put the scale in the basement if you are weighing yourself so much, i used to do it everyday, but now only once a week, and i still feel imprisoned by it, the numbers can make or break my whole week, as i'm sure you feel if you do it so much, keep on fighting case

emlitrell, how tall are you? you have got to be way on the thin side, please fight this ed and get help. are you in therapy? i get to go in 2 weeks and i can't wait. you must put the scale in the basement if you are weighing yourself so much, i used to do it everyday, but now only once a week, and i still feel imprisoned by it, the numbers can make or break my whole week, as i'm sure you feel if you do it so much, keep on fighting case

YES. I feel so moody if the numbers aren't what I wanna see. The lowest I've seen the scale go was 86.5, and I want so badly to get back to that..but being 94 at the moment..it looks SOOOO far away. :( LOL I went from 91 this morning, to 92.5 this afternoon, to 94 freakin' pounds and I want to throw my scale out the window. (not a bad idea... :rolleyes: ) I also did a tape measure check this morning too, and my waist and abs are the same as last week (waist being 24.5"), yet my hips went down 1/2 inch. :confused:

I'm not in therapy, I can't afford it, and I can't ask daddy to help me out cuz he wouldn't, he'd say "Oh, that's something you gotta pay for yourself!" cuz he's tight on his money like that. Plus, the biggest reason, nobody in my family even KNOWS I have food issues, and I don't wanna tell them, i'm only trying to deal with it on my own figgering I can be strong enough. :dizzy: Oh, and I'm 5'1 1/2". A short lil' thing. I'm small framed, the best I can describe it is I can still wear juniors clothing (if it's like size XL), and I can connect my thumb and pinky around my wrist. But that's nothing new, I have ALWAYS been like that, I get it from my grandma.