hi everyone
ive been reading all of these posts lately and it seems as though everyone is having a tough time with weight gain / weighing themselves / measuring themselves....oh arent eating disorders nasty life controlling pains in the butt.
ok, well, i was just writing to say to everyone that:
1) keep off the scales..or, at least - like case and a few others have done - cut the weighing down a bit as you will (and as i have read) absolutely freak out about the number which represents you on a daily or moment by moment basis
2) is there a BMI which we are all aiming for?
have your doctors or nutritionists given you one to work towards?
id be really interested to no as i havent been given one, and i think im almost there but would love some feedback from everyone else.
Also, how is everyone feeling? are there still people reading this who are fighting against the ed??
im just getting a little concerned with some posts ive ben reading...so take care all and remember we are all here if you need us...
love chookie:wave:

I guess I'll be the first to reply, since it's like.. 1:45am and I'm wide awake and still on a full tummy from earlier. I swear I won't be hungry again 'til Thanksgiving. lol

BUT... on the note of scales, it owns me. lol And so does the tape measure, but I'm actually starting to learn to forget the number on the scale and go by measurements. Those are more accurate... I think. Although those can really upset me too... with bloating and all that it fluctuates almost just as much! :dizzy:

I don't have a BMI I'm aiming for. I suppose I should.. I guess I will look into that. I also don't have a nutritionist...I'm a one-person team. lol

As far as feeling.... realllyyy guilty for the amount I ate tonight. But I'll survive, I always do, the big thing will be to not punish myself for it tomorrow. I go in and out of phases.... first I wanna quit this ED thing, and then I look in the mirror and think how fat my gut is and then I wanna go back to 1,100 or less calories a day, or take my diet pills again. In a nutshell, I'm still one big yo-yo!

And thank you for the check in thread! I'm sure a lot of others will appreciate it as well, knowing that someone cares enough to ask how everyone is doing, keeping tabs. :) I hope you are doing well with yours!

hey emlitt
GO TO BED!!!!!
oh man...i dont no where to start - but honestly, you are a tiny one and no matter what you head says - your body would be sooo thankful to have a healthier attitude.
i guess i can sense from your posts that youre still in the phase that the scales really do rule your life - and a tape measure giving more precise measurements.....umm....no offense...but youre really underweight and measuring your stomach sounds more like an ed behaviour....
im not trying to be nasty - but i just hate to hear your struggles
ok...emlitt - go to bed and everyone else..take care
love chookie

hey emlitt
GO TO BED!!!!!
oh man...i dont no where to start - but honestly, you are a tiny one and no matter what you head says - your body would be sooo thankful to have a healthier attitude.
i guess i can sense from your posts that youre still in the phase that the scales really do rule your life - and a tape measure giving more precise measurements.....umm....no offense...but youre really underweight and measuring your stomach sounds more like an ed behaviour....
im not trying to be nasty - but i just hate to hear your struggles
ok...emlitt - go to bed and everyone else..take care
love chookie

I can't go to beddddddd. My best friend is whining about her own problems with her other friends that I hafta assist her with. And yet, I never tell her any of my own.. :rolleyes: lol

I guess ever since I went out and bought a scale it's been worse! It's painfully accurate and since it's always in my bedroom it's always a temptation. I don't think I could live without it! I did go like two days without weighing, then I stepped on it and low and behold weight gain galore...

I guess ever since I went out and bought a scale it's been worse! It's painfully accurate and since it's always in my bedroom it's always a temptation. I don't think I could live without it! I did go like two days without weighing, then I stepped on it and low and behold weight gain galore...

YES, mine resides in my closet. We need to hide it, put it somewhere hard to reach, somewhere where we don't wanna go! Although I loved mine this morning. Shamefully I planned on fasting today after my overdose of Wendy's that brought me to 94 lbs. last night. lol But I stepped on the scale this morning, and it said 89. I was like :eek: . Therefore I ate a sandwich, and 2 snacksize snickers for breakfast. lol

Em you are seriously underweight and your weighing/measuring is akin to not only turning the key in the lock, but rusting it over too.

you have GOT to stop the weighing and measuring. i say this in love as i was a weekly weigher and measurer until i had to say "ENOUGH" to myself. i now only weigh myself once every couple of months, and am hoping to stop even that little.


re the original qs?
a bmi to aim for?? nobody has given me one. they bandy around the 18.5+is healthy, but nobody has ever given me a goal BMI OR a goal weight for that matter. i kind of dont want a specific goal as that too can bite me in the form of encouraging rigid thinking. for me i will know i am recovered when i am NOT so mindful of weight/size etc. it is my immense wish to be able to exist on another realm ie free of diet/weight/size/food awareness or at least minimised. all i do know is currently my BMI is about 15.6 (up from barely 14 in january). amazingly even at a BMI of 13.9 i was never told to get treatment. infact when i asked my doc to monitor my bloods etc he basically said i expected too much :eek: i now have a new doc ;) . but my T and N have NEVER expressed much concern about my weight even now which does feed the "you cant be that thin after all" thoughts!

i know to so many of us the scales are pure evil. it is ed's way of keeping us in his grasp, i live for my weekly weigh ins, on monday i can't wait for sat. to weigh in, how moronic is that? live life to be weighed? but i do because the only time i'm truly happy is if the scale says a lower number than the week before, and i need more weight on me. i lost my period last month i think duue to all of this. this week the scale said 2.5 lbs heavier and now my week is ruined. i try so hard not to step on it but i fail all the time. as far as a bmi goes i know mine is like 17.5, but then i stopped my period, so i think more in the range of 19-20 is more healthy. good luck to all of you, it sounds like so many of us are really struggling right now. let me know if i can help god bless case

Although I know I should trash the scale, I cannot help it. I feel extremely anxious if I do not weigh myself every morning. I have been trying to cut back to only once a week, but that darn Ed keeps telling me to check my weight. As far as BMI, my nutritionist gave me a target weight to aim for, but not BMI. I am supposed to be a minimum of 108 (not quite there). As far as how I feel: a little distracted and preoccupied by food and numbers!