all i have done from the moment i woke up is think about what i'm going to eat and when, i am so sick of thinking about food even when i'm not hungry. i want to be normal, eat healthy stuff when i'm hungry and not worry about it, the calories i mean, this is not living, it is h**L, i try to break free, please some advice, also i am gaining weight off of like 1600 cals a dayWHY?? i could maybe accept a few pounds if i knew why this is happening, i can't gain any more or i'm going back to not eating!!

I sooo feel ya! I'm sick and tired and annoyed of writing down what I'm going to eat for an entire day the night before. And I do that so I already know my calorie count and I don't have to THINK about what to eat. And when I work, it's easy to not think about when I have to eat, cuz it's automatically on my break every 2 hours. But then I work around food all day, it's hard for me to resist the urge to snack on anything that's not on my list. And if I DO, I hafta immediately write down the calorie count and fat grams in it. I just wanna grab a cookie and say YUMMMMMMM and enjoy it. Instead, I eat that cookie and think, "Oh God, this is 270 and 9 grams of fat...I hope I didn't go over.." as I'm munching, and those thoughts prevent me from TRULY enjoying it. GRR... I'm gonna hate my birthday coming up in January.... I'll be 22. :dizzy:

hey case
youre going to have to trust me when i say that you have to give your body a chance to adjust to the food its getting...your metabolism will start up again and the help you receive in december will provide you with more support...as for now - ok....dont take this personally but you do need to gain weight - you do no this as you have missed your period and thats an unhealthy sign...also, you deserve a more happier life.
emlitt - ummm...maybe stay away from writing things down if its becoming too frustrating for you..
take care all
chookie

If I don't write it down, I'll end up picking at everything until I have another binging spree. It's annoying but it does help...like taking my iron and folic acid for anemia. lol