I'm doing better with my depression. It is wierd, I go in slumps, as I have rapid cycling Bipolar II. That means, I cycle with hypomania/depression sometimes during a month or every few months. It stinks. And usually around the holidays it hits. I took some anxiety meds and they helped a lot.

Also, I had my first Thanksgiving meal. It went okay. I took small portions of everything, and didn't finish my meal. That made me feel good. I felt fine afterwards while everyone else was miserable. ;) For once I wasn't afraid of the food- or I felt more in control of my surroundings with it.

Hope all is well with all of you gals and guys as you are all in my thoughts. I know how hard this week is. It can be detrimental to most with this illness and pure torture to the mind. Remember, food is fuel for the body. That is what one just has to keep in mind. It is not the enemy. It is there for a reason. And, the ED is there because of other reasons- mostly, not due to food issues. It goes way deeper than what appears on the surface.

Take care-

Hugs to all

Coffeegirl

I didn't know you were bipolar! Oh that's terrible, all these issues to deal with. :( How do you end up having a Thanksgiving dinner so early in the week? lol I'm so GLAD that you were able to keep it under control! Especially when everyone is moaning how their tummy is SOOOO full... and then they go ahead and still have their pies for dessert. I hate that overly full feeling. I feel disgusting afterwards. When I was like 12 years old, my family and I went to a restaurant for Easter, with an all-u-can-eat buffet. Oh my gosh.. I musta tried EVERY dessert they had, and afterwards I felt soo sick we had to leave cuz I felt like it was all gonna come back up. It didn't, but I swore to never eat like that again. (pfft... until like 10 years later LOL)

I'm not sure how I plan to do Thanksgiving. My initial plan was to eat normally tomorrow, except NO fattening foods at all during the day, and then on Thursday have breakfast and then basically fast until dinner time so I can eat like the rest of the pigs. (lol) But then I'm deciding to eat like usual and have ONE (small) serving of everything. That sounds better.. but I can't resist my rolls...oh that french bread will never see what's coming.. lol ;)

coffeegirl, i'm so glad you seem to be feeling much better, i think maybe when i go to therapy in dec. they will put me on some anxiety meds too, hopefully that will help! i've heard kind of ify things about those drugs though, like you become a walking zombie kind of, is this true? i hope not.i'm glad you were able to enjoy your thanksgiving meal, it sounds like you did right by eating sensibly, trying things but keeping portions under control! good job. you seem to offer such good advice, so i will ask you, how does one handle that day? eat a normal breakfast and lunch, or eat very little until dinner? i don't know what to do because i'm afraid of overeating and gaining a ton, advice please i'm happy that you are happy!! take care case

coffeegirl, good on you - sounds as though you dealth with the thanks giving dinner really well. no, i didnt realise that you had bipolar but i really hope that you have someone you can talk to and trust - my aunt has bipolar and i kinda no what it can do to people, but coffeegirl - youre a champ!! i always look forward to reading your posts!
take care
chookie

Good morning gals!

Unfortunately, I don't have anyone to talk to except my hubby. He is my main sqeeze. :) My support system is zelch. It is best I don't even start about my family and how they all are about my illness. Some are accepting of it, and others would rather look the other way. Those who accept it still don't really acknowledge it though. It hurts. How does your aunt do with her illness, Chookie? It is not always easy to manage. We have finally gotten mine under control. It took a while but a few years ago I was very sick. :( I hope to never get like that again.

As for the anxiety meds Case1, you know, they really don't zonk you out as much as they relax a person. If you were to take one and it zonked you out, then the dosage is too much and you would need to tell the pdoc that it caused you to become too drowsy. They could a) adjust the med or b) change it to a different medication where you wouldn't be so tired or zombie like. Most of them are not 'that way'. Most make you feel very 'calm' and able to 'chill out'- and that is what they are for.

I ate a bowl of cereal on Sunday, the day of our holiday meal. It really helped. I also drank two cups of coffee too. It helped me feel full. Then I wasn't apt to over eat, or want to eat a ton, etc. It made me just think of the meal as a 'normal' meal and that is how I approached the meal with that mind set. Except for the rolls- I couldn't help it; those are my weakness. I had two of them. LOL

We are tailgaiting at the KC Chiefs game and having another Turkey dinner at the game tomorrow. I am excited but there will be so much food that it is sickening. That is all everyone does is 'eat' or 'drink'. it will be a challenge.

Tomorrow will be hard on us all I think. It is just how we percieve the meal- just treat it as a normal meal, and remember to take small proportions, and it will be okay. And, eat breakfast! If you skip, you are always going to be famished and wanting to binge on the dinner. Trust me- I did that a few years ago, and then over ate, felt guilty, and cried the rest of the day. It is a bad scenario. Plus, you can easily wind up with a big stomach ache as well if you over eat and your stomach isn't used to it.

Hang in there :angel:

Coffeegirl

hi coffeegirl
my aunt - well, it has taken over 10 years but she is finally on the right meds...thank goodness. it was really hard to see what she used to do to herself during an eposide, and she also had bumilia...but im really happy to say that she hasnt tried to take her own life for a few years now, she also has help through her local hospital and as i said, the meds have been adjusted so she isnt "zombie" like, and for the first time in a long time i think shes happy.
im so glad that you have a hubby you can turn to.
take care coffeegirl
chookie