being told by your boyfriend that he doesn't love you anymore, and that he's gradually been losing interest, has left me scrambling around for ways of coping, and there's no surprise that it's ed who's been calling my name, making sure that i take comfort in my bulimia that always comes back with a vengance when anything goes wrong...
my boyfriend was the one thing in my life that gave me a sense of continuity and security, and all of this has been taken away from me. i feel ugly, useless, disgusting, and i'm so afraid that i'll never find anyone else to love, once i get over him. he knew about my ed and was supportive, but i'm sure it had something to do with him losing interest.
i'm so upset:( feel numb and helpless. i'm seeing my therapist this week, so i spose that's a good thing, but nothing's going to bring the man i love back. i feel so foolish hanging on to him and becoming dependent on him cos now i don't no where to turn.
my housemates ahve been amazing, and they tell me time and time again that this'll make me stronger, but i'm just so confused at the moment. i'm worried that ed will get worse, leaving me in a worse state than i am, and alone, too.
:(
xxxx

I'm so sorry! :( Your main support system was pulled out from under you. It's like when you're working on a MAJOR project and your computer crashes! :eek: It'll take awhile I'm SURE, you still got your friends, you got yoru family, heck.. you even have US who will be there to support you! YOu can do this.. DON'T give in. Picture yourself getting married to an ugly beast named ED.. who is an abusive person and never gives you a break. Divorce him and run away! :)

awwww thankyou, *hug* looking at ed that way is one i hadn't thought of! i love this board, people turn things around to give you a positive outlook :) that's what i think we all need sometimes, someone to put it all in perspective. i've been wallowing in self pity for days now since i was dumped (after nearly a year with bf) and i've just GOT to get my life moving, otherwise i will end up alone, with bulimia. maybe this will give me the strength to find the NEED to recover as i no longer have my safety blanket......
don't really know where this wave of positivity has come from (maybe dancing round my room like a loon to get rid of energy / calories...), but i hope it rubs off on everyone :)
thanks emlittrel, it's great to know someone out there is listening
xxx lilly xxx

Hi ya,

I hope your feeling a bit better, my partner of 2 years broke up with me on Tuesday last week, so a week ago today. I've had bulimia for 6 years but i haven't purged now for 6 months.

Loosing a partner is always hard but you have to accept that you are not together and you have to pick yourself up and move on. Easier said then done i know but you have to do it hun.

Each day will get easier. Keep yourself busy, do for a facial, make yourself feel good without food. Eat a nice healthy evening meal then put on your favourite film, feel good about yourself. At the end of the day we are all going to have our hearts broken, probably more then once but we can't let our ED control us when we have these low points. but you are number one, it's you, you need to look after.

I want to help you as i know what you are going through.

Keep your chin up honey, plenty more fish in the sea.

Lill xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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:wave: hi, i went out the other night and got very drunk.. got all dressed up and made myself look nice, and you're right, lill it did make me feel better... the problem is, i ended up getting with a guy, and ended up at his. the thing is, i don't know what to do now, because bulimia is still got a control over me, but i really liked the guy.....then i think back to my ex, and miss him, and feel like i'm being really mean, getting with someone so soon after he dumped me.. i shouldn't feel like this cos it was him who ended it, but ed is making me doubt everything, and the usual worries about how the new guy won't fancy me in daylight or if i'm not drunk...
too many thoughts...can somoeone help me work through this
love to all
xXx lilly xXx