Well Ladies.... I guess Santa forgot about me too. I just checked and not only did AF come but it is two days early. I really feel numb. I wish I can be as positive as some of you guys are but I really can not believe this is happening. It's like I am living a recurrent bad dream.

Anyway I will be calling to set up an appt. with RE to schedule laparscopy. If they find nothing well I guess I will see what we will do next. I am also going to get a second opinion from another RE, I already have that set up.

For those of you still hanging on I hope you have more positive news. It would be nice to hear more BFP so BABY DUST TO YOU GUYS!!

All my best to everyone...I got to try to make it through the work day w/o breaking down so I may not hang around the board too much today.

Kathy

Kathy,

I don't know what to say...but I am so sorry this time wasn't it. You seem like such a stong woman that I know you will get through this rough patch. I think going ahead with the lap is a great step. Don't worry too much about it, I had one done last month and it is a breeze.

You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Des

P.S. You have been great support for me so don't stay away too long ;)

Oh Kathy, I am so sorry that AF showed up...damn her:mad: It is so hard to stay positive, I totally know what you mean! Sometimes we just need to be sad, mad, resentful and all those other feelings we feel...it is alright, we earned the right to those feelings! So you just deal how you need to and you will know when you need to put on your "happy face" and be positive;)

I wish you lots of luck with your lap and I hope you find the answers you need to bring you closer to your angel! I will have you in my thoughts babe!
Big Hugs,
cmarie

Kathy,

I'm really sorry. Those awful BFNs really are like recurrent "Groundhog Day" bad dreams -- I just HATE them!

Sounds like you've got your plan of attack all mapped out, though, and I'm happy to hear that. You truly have a fighting spirit -- and I just know that there's a BFP coming to you. And I pray that it will be soon!

Hugs going out to you ...

Kathy,

I'm really sorry. Those awful BFNs really are like recurrent "Groundhog Day" bad dreams -- I just HATE them!

Sounds like you've got your plan of attack all mapped out, though, and I'm happy to hear that. You truly have a fighting spirit -- and I just know that there's a BFP coming to you. And I pray that it will be soon!

Hugs going out to you ...

Kathy,
I know how awful this must be and sometimes no amount of words could console that broken heart, but you have to hang in there and be strong. Unfortunately that's the only way you could get by and move on to the next step. Be positive and strong! I know you can do that! You will be in my thoughts and prayers.:angel:

Kathy,
I am really sorry to hear about the news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and it will happen. I know I have said this in the past not only to myself but to others on the boards but "easier said than done", I know but we just got to keep trying. But just try to stay positive.
Keep in touch.

Lots of love,
-Jenn

Kathy,
I am so sorry, sweetie. You are such a kind, caring person, and I really feel for you. I know you are going to get through this, and it's perfectly okay to have a down moment. I have been really strong, too, but today I broke down at work. That is the first time I cried at work since I m/c in May. But, sometimes it helps to have our moments, and then we are stronger the next time around. Just don't lost hope, and keep your head up. We will all succeed. I know that doesn't help your broken heart right now, but just know this-we are all fighting for the same things, and we really understand how you feel. We are all pulling for you to keep moving forward. I, too, have had the lap, and you will be just fine. I have had much worse surgeries, and would definitely do another lap without a second thought if I had to. Who knows? Maybe the RE will figure out a reason why this has been working out the way it has, and can fix the problem. But, for right now, it's okay to be upset. Just think of it as another step taken, and keep taking more steps. Hang in there, sweetie.
Hugs and more hugs,
Julie:angel: :angel: :angel:

Oh Kathy, I am so so sorry about the BFN. AF stinks :mad: I was really hoping for some good news from you this week. You have been so strong and supportive to all of us on the board so know we are all here for you as you go through this. I know there is nothing I can say to take the pain away but keep your head up and do the best you can, we'll all get there someday. Sending you lots of peace and strength to get through this time.:angel:

BIG ((((Hugs)))),

Lori

Kathy,

So sorry about your bfn. I know how it feels like being slapped with yet another failure. I've had 4 and 1 success didn't last long enough for me to enjoy the fruit.

Wish you all the best.

Thanks everyone for all your support. I don't think I could get through this without you guys. Yesterday was a bad day...my DH took me out to lunch to try and break up the work day but I just ended up breaking down in the restaurant which is very unlike me. I guess b/c it was a third and probably our last IUI attempt I took it really bad. Anyway today is a new day and I am going to try and focus on what is ahead.

Julie- I hope you feel better today too. Sometimes we just have to have a good cry. Thanks for being so sweet.

Thanks to everyone being so great!!!

kathy/deluka

Kathy, I'm really sorry about your negative result too. I was off the boards for a few days, and I hope I'm not dredging this back up on you. I just wanted to offer support as you have been so supportive of me and the rest of us on this board. I will pray your dr finds something he can take care of during the lap and you can start again with renewed hope. Best of luck to you hon and keep that great attitude!!!

Holly

Thanks Holly!!!

You are so sweet!!!! Don't worry about dredging up those feelings they are still there but have subsided some. We all have to keep on moving and that is what I am going to do :) I hope all is well with you.

((hugs)))

kathy