Yup, AF showed up 7 days early today...how nice of her.:mad:

This was just my first cycle of Clomid/iui and I went into it with low expectations (or so I told myself) but it still sucks! I can't imagine how some of you have dealt with the BFN's after trying so hard.

I was ok until I called DH to tell him and then I lost it. He of course, was so positive and sweet! I wanted so badly to suprise him with the best Christmas gift of all.

Ok, I cried, I vented and now I move on. I will do just one more cycle of Clomd/iui and then we will go right to IVF. I am turning 35 in a couple of weeks and time isn't so much on my side anymore.

Thank you all for being so supportive and wonderful! Having this board has helped me through my first cycle so much! Looks like I will be sticking around for a little bit longer.

Des

Hi Dee,
I'm sorry to hear that af showed up..does she usually come early? Could it be implantation bleeding? I hope you're feeling ok and take care.

Hi Des,

I am so so sorry you got AF today :( 7 days early that little brat!!! :mad: It is hard when yo have so much hope and want to so badly to tell DH the good news and it doesn't happen. One positive thing is that it's almost better to have her come early so that you don't have to deal the torture of waiting for another 7 days just to find out BFN. It still SUCKS though!!!! I got AF yesterday so my aunt flow must have decided to rear her ugly head at your house too, she has no manners!!!

But all joking aside I know that b-days can bring us a bit down but don't loose hope. Just b/c your turning 35 does not mean you have less options just yet. ( I have 2 friends 35 and 37 -pregnant as we speak) I know mentioned starting IVF if 2nd IUI fails and that you are on clomid with IUI, have you considered IUI with injectibles??? It's not really as bad as you may think and it may really improve your chances w/o having to pay the big $$$$ for IVF. Just a thought. I am sorry that you too did not get your x-mas miracle this year. I hope that 2007 allows you to become the mommy you desearve to be.

(((BIG HUGS))))

kathy/deluka

Oh pooh! AF is really a buzzkill -- I'm sorry.

I'm hoping that you'll enjoy your holidays with your totally sweet and supportive DH (he sounds like a doll), and that you see some very quick success in the new year with IVF. I hear you on the age thing, sister. I just turned 38, and it's not fun feeling that pressure on top of everything else. The good thing is that you are at an age that has really fantastic rates of success -- So I anticipate some excellent news from you in 2007. Hang in there -- your miracle is right around the corner, I just know it!

Hi Dee,

I'm sorry your IUI didn't work out this month. It is such a disappointment. Sounds like you have a great DH - you guys are going to make fabulous parents one day! I hope soon. It stinks that you can't move onto the pregnancy boards just yet, but I am glad that you will be continuing your journey with us. Take care. It will happen.

Holly

S&J - I am pretty positive it isn't implantation bleeding. It just feels too much like my normal AF not to be. I am ok, thank you for asking. Just a bit disapointed...

Kathy - You amaze me! Just one day after your own news you are right here being a pillar of support for everyone else. THANK YOU!
I am relieved that she showed up now so that I wasn't holding out hope until Christmas. It does soften the blow a bit!

As for jumping to IVF, I don't like to put it out there too much, but I live in MA where it is covered by state mandate. It will cost us just our small co-pay and that's it. Otherwise, it would be my last option instead of my second. I feel bad that there are so many women who can't do IVF due to the cost and I guess I don't want to rub it in that for me it isn't an issue. There are many downsides to living in the state with the highest and most taxes ever...but this is just one small benefit.

Thanks for you kind words once again! I am ok, I have to be. This is just the begining for me!

Des

thanks cubed, holly & blue...

It means so much to me to have such an amazing support group here. You guys got me crying again! I guess things happen for a reason and there is yet one more reason for me to learn in the future. It will happen for me....someday!

Thanks again ladies, you are all wonderful!

Des

Wow Des! I'm moving to MA! Let's all move to MA! Who's with me? Do they have a minimum stay required before leveraging the IVF benefit? ...you know like In-State vs. Out-of-State tuition for universities where you have to live there a year first?

I am kidding, of course, but that is wonderful for you and good to know. Always nice to keep something in my back pocket.

Des,

I'm so sorry about AF :( BFNs suck no matter what your expectations were. Sounds like you are being really strong though. I wish you much success on your next cyle.

Baby dust!

Lori

Hi Dee,

7 days earlier???? I'm so sorry that the ***** show up. It's indeed a tough month for everyone undergoing IF treatment.

You take good care.