:rolleyes: hi everyone now I'm gonna be serious when i get new clothes or a new hair style and i feel like i look nice it causes problems for me even now that i feel stable if i get a new outfit and i feel sassy it causes trouble before i would go out get wasted but now that I'm medicated that's all over thank goodness but now i get all manic ill stay up all night and you know the rest anyone else deal with this? let me know:) :angel: phoenix

I understand.....You are probably a young "cutie" and when you clean up, you're confidence level:D sky-rockets. Good for you! Just try and cool your jets a little. I used to be young:cool: and cleaned up real nice too. I would at times get a little big for my britches :blob_fire and almost always offend someone or say the manic thing. After a while I came to realize there is alot more to life and take inventory on other areas:dizzy: . Once I realized the more I learned, the more I needed to learn, my self image wasn't top priority over other areas, and was able to cool my jets and calm down alot;) .
It's ironic, now that I am much older, sometimes I need to clean up and look in the mirror Just to try and pull myself up from a bad place. Take good care of yourself, and later in life you will be paid big dividends! :angel: Take a deep breath and smell the roses!

thanks so much for your reply sometimes i think my messages aren't even posted because no one answers them:(im so happy to hear you know where im coming from i do offend people because in that manic state im one hot ma ma lol then i crash and im the ugliest fat girl ever thanks for the wisdom im always looking for that you can not even have enough have a Merry Christmas:angel: phoenix

Phoenix,

Is your name because you rise from the flames? I totally get IT.

When I get sassy feeling, I take myself out on a date, and am just the foxy, cheerfully smiling stranger who breezes in and breezes out.

Would internet flirting be safe when one is feeling sassy? Because in theory you'd never met and couldn't take the "relationship" to any dangerous extremes? Just wondering. :D

Blue Monday, Linda who-loved-that-song-by-the-Cure!

i love the cure love punk rock but don't get to listen to much music and yes you got it right that's why my name is my name:) you totally get how i feel that good to know but do you think every girl feels this way?i wonder how much is the bp :eek: and sure girlie flirt on with your bad self lol Merry Christmas:angel: phoenix

You may not believe me, ;) but I am actually quite shy when it comes to flirting and all. In the time since my husband and I separated, I have felt agonizing loneliness at times, and have gotten into heated debates with myself about the wisdom of trying to meet anybody new. I just want to make some friends again, replace the holes of missed friends from long ago.

:wave: bluermonday, i can believe you about being shy the computer can change alot of things like you said here your not at risk to have a face to face relationship so yeah no worries i am so sorry to hear of your separation Ive been married for 9 years and it is tough real tough at times hang in there god knows what is in store for you and i hope it is great things you seem like you have alot of life in you and a fun personality and as for me im not shy at all but im also not rude sometimes being bold also means rude i wish the best for you :angel: phoenix