Hello I'm only 19 year old guy and made stupid mistakes i received oral sex from 4 males whom i knew nothing about. i think i got herpes from the first one which would mean i received unprotected oral sex about 3 times with a sore penis which i got herpes on my face through.
I have a few herpes sores on my face dammit i hate myself.
im getting Night sweats i feel very weak with no energy. im too scared to get tested i have no money and no friends to take me.
everyone is going to call me F*G and all that stuff now.
i cant afford meds does anyone know how long i can live?

Well, first of all, the very best thing you can do for yourself is to slow down, take a breath, and focus. There are several things you should know about this disease and, for right now, the most important one is that 'receptive oral sex' is considered, for the most part, a no-risk encounter. That means, that there are no documented cases of a person who received oral sex of contracting this disease.

A second thing to consider is that your self-diagnosing of herpes seems a little premature as I would wonder how, if you received oral sex, you have hepes on your face. You do need to understant that there are many forms of herpes and most of them have nother to do with sexual contact. So, stop diagnosing yourself.

As to the other symptoms you have described, you need to know that you cannot diagnose HIV based based on symptoms. What you have listed as your symptoms, and by the fear and anxiety you seem to exhibit, I would certainly suggest that stress is the leading cause of those things you are feeling.

And finally, and most importantly for me, is that you understand that those of us who are HIV positive really hate the word ***. You need to understand that the growing population of persons with HIV (who are HIV+) are heterosexual women; that the teen-age population is the second leading population, and that babies is the lower-economic and under-developed countries are the third leading population. Gay people, who you so stridently and discriminatorily referred to as 'fags' are a growing population but not as great as those already mentioned. It is evident that you have some real questions about your sexuality along with disclosing that to others, even though the encounters you described appear to be male on male sex, and I would, once you have put aside the questions of your HIV status, begin to deal honestly with those issues. chris

Thanks for the reply. sorry if I offended you or anyone else that wasn't my intentions at all. I wasn't real clear about my situation. this was all over about a 4 month period. After the first time I had realized I had received some kind of STD. and stupidly didnt get it treated and did the same thing with 3 other people. I read theoretically it is possible to receive HIV through oral sex and I also read other STDs make those chances even greater. since im still not feeling very good at all im still worried. I have no problem with gay people and do not think only gay guys can get HIV i was just upset because those are the types of words my family would call me.

scraced I feel for you, but you should be able to get a free hiv test i'm sure where ever you live. Your probaly overing listen to Chris.

well after the first incident i could tell something wasnt right then a few days after that i got what looks like herpes sores on my face which im still getting. i didnt kiss anyone and ive never had them before so i dont really know how that happened.
I know its not cool at all to spread something but at the time i really didnt care about myself so I guess other people was the last thing I was thinking about.
theres a real good chance at least one of the persons had HIV just for the fact that none of them asked me if I was clean or had anything like that.
Im still feeling quite sick but im just too embarrassed to tell a family member that I need to get checked up.
do they ask really personal questions when you get tested or do they just ask what you want to get tested for?
thanks a lot btw really helping calm my nerves