Hi All

I have Questions regarding seizures, I suffer from Partial/Petimal type of seziures and currently work for a hotel.

Lately I have been asked to take a tray of knives and forks to the study to allow banquetters to polish them
To get to the study I got to go through a load of people standing at the bar. This problem is when I am in front of people with this tray, my heart beats faster/harder.

Is this a sign of worry of having fits in front of people. I do find it embarrassing to have fits in front of other people especially stangers.

People who I know have told me my fits includes me waving my hands/arms, unresponsive and sometimes walk about and they go quickly but however I do drop things during a fit. I also been known to flood the kitchen at work because I was running the tap to fill the sink - and had the fit and a chef told me to go for a break, I forgot about the tap and went out for a break and when I came back the sink overflowed leaving a big puddle on the floor.

If you have read my other post about job loss due to fit. I lost the laundry/linen job I thought this job 1.
Use as therapy to help me to work in front of other
people by carrying laundry 2.. More money.
I did have fits in front of strangers at the hotel but a couple just stared and talked so I took no notice.

As I lost my linen job I am now back to square 1 by getting banquetting staff to take it away instead, If they don't like it, then it is tough as they are lazy when it came to sorting table linen and taking rubbish away

Vincent

Originally posted by vincentmay:
Hi All

I have Questions regarding seizures, I suffer from Partial/Petimal type of seziures and currently work for a hotel.

Lately I have been asked to take a tray of knives and forks to the study to allow banquetters to polish them
To get to the study I got to go through a load of people standing at the bar. This problem is when I am in front of people with this tray, my heart beats faster/harder.

Is this a sign of worry of having fits in front of people. I do find it embarrassing to have fits in front of other people especially stangers.

People who I know have told me my fits includes me waving my hands/arms, unresponsive and sometimes walk about and they go quickly but however I do drop things during a fit. I also been known to flood the kitchen at work because I was running the tap to fill the sink - and had the fit and a chef told me to go for a break, I forgot about the tap and went out for a break and when I came back the sink overflowed leaving a big puddle on the floor.

If you have read my other post about job loss due to fit. I lost the laundry/linen job I thought this job 1.
Use as therapy to help me to work in front of other
people by carrying laundry 2.. More money.
I did have fits in front of strangers at the hotel but a couple just stared and talked so I took no notice.

As I lost my linen job I am now back to square 1 by getting banquetting staff to take it away instead, If they don't like it, then it is tough as they are lazy when it came to sorting table linen and taking rubbish away

Vincent

Pardon me, but I don't understand everything that you had said. I am unclear on a few things, please help me.

Had you said that you had been in a study in which you were to take (a tray of) knives and forks to a group of people at a bar, so that banquetters
(I assume that the banquetters are attending some sort of party) can polish knives and forks? (I assume that polishing knives and forks is part of, or is the festivity in a study).

Sir, I am totally confused.
However, confusion not withstanding, from what you had also said, you are embarrased because you are having seizures. Let me first point out that as along your employer and as long as the people around you (those whom you feel embarrased about) are not uncomfortable with you having seizures in front of them, then there should be no reason for you to feel embarrased about having. Relax, sir. You have done nothing to have caused embarrasement. You didn't cause
your seizures, and you cannot prevent them. If someone else has a problem seeing someone have a seizure, it is their problem, and not yours.
Sir, the only consideration in this matter is not something to be embarrased about. I would not wish for you that you, while carrying knifes and forks would not injure either yourself or someone else.
It is not a matter of embarrasment, only an accommadation. Because you are having seizures does not mean that you place either yourself or anyone else at risk. Don't sir, box yourself in to a mental corner of worry that you need avoid people. You should not travel down that path, because worry and fear play tricks on people and make them fear something, (for which out of unfounded fear might case you to limit yourself your social contacts, or any activities), which does not exit. The mind plays tricks - people often believe that their fears are valid fears. You cannot be an impartial judge. There is one way to determine this. Given any believe, the 'bright line' standard is to test that belief in reality. For example, if no one else is embarrased by seeing someeone have a seizure, than the real world test for embarrasement proves that there is no reason to be embarrased. As I had said, the mind plays tricks on you, and you cannot be your own impartial judge.

Hi Vincent
I have Grand Mal type seizures, and have certainly felt that embarrasement of having them in public a few times, but I have generally found people to be sympathetic, helpful, and concerned. You're "racing heart" sound like you're just very nervous. I suppose I would be too if Ij just lost a job (or part of a job) because of seizures. It sounds like you really liked your linen job better - could you approach your boss and talk to them about reinstating you in that position? If they took that part of your job away because they thought it was triggering your seizures someway, try reassuring them it was not the job. I hope you can get that back... sounds like you miss it.
In the mean time, just try to remember that most of the people you encounter really won't look down on you just because you have seizures, and those that do I think have big problems of their own!
Maggie

Thanks for your reply

Banquetters are waitress/waiters for parties. As for the study room, I need to get through people standing at the bar to get to the other side from the kitchen.

I did write this after work last night and worked 9 hours because I had to manually clean the kitchen and finish at midnight.

Vincent