You are so tired, when you've been 600 days on medication, one that weighs you down and pulls you so low
when you know you are suddenly
going nowhere after all the preparation all the years
of learning and reading and playing and speaking -
all the years of competing and judging and laughing and trying and trusting --
suddenly it all becomes a long, slow chew, the numb mind of medicine and its cottony womb
you have no one, really, no one except
your family and their poor ears ache
with the trials, the slow torture
the corroding of you, you can't move,
you can't even stand this afternoon,
lay on your bed, face to your open window,
there is nothing left and
all your limbs are far to heavy to lift,
your head too...
what do you do?

Give me some feedback on the thoughts above, please.
Thanks,
C

I really liked it, sometimes i feel that way too. but you put it in better words than I ever could. I find that its so true, I have lost friends since Oct because as they said"I didnt know that you would be sick for so long" I try not to burden my family with how I feel all the time. great pom, I want to hear more. its in you. you havent lost it.

oh and what to do about it????? u just hope tomorrow is a better day (((()))))

CBB,

You are in my prayers! This helped me understand my son that much more. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I can only imagine what all of you are facing each day.

(((hugs)))

Lisa and Jake

Hi - sometimes it helps just to write it all down.......I journal daily and it has been a huge release..........positive thoughts are with you........Paula

I also keep a journal. I use it to record what happens to me...seizure, period, bad aura day, etc. I think it helps but it helps my doctor more. I guess if it helps the doctor then it helps me in the long run. I hope you are thinking about writing more, that was very thought inspiring. I love things like that.

God Bless You,
KittyMom

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Mother of 3 beautiful kids and wife to a Great husband! I love helping others...it helps me grow!