I thought once the holidays were over things just might be a little better but tomorrow I sure will miss her cooking them good ole black eye peas, cabbage and cornbread. I know it won't test as good as Mama's did, but I will do the best that I can because thats something that my Mama relly believed in on New Years Day! But I know she will be right there in that kitchen with me showing me what to do. Mama I miss you so much and love you too!

Your Daughter,
Jan Ward

Dear Jan,

I fimd myself thinking about my Mom just as much now that the holidays are over. I dreampt about her last night and always miss her terribly when I wake up, it's nine days until the first year anniversary of her death and I'm not sure how that's going to go but it's one day at a time I guess. I hope your doing better.

Take Care and God Bless.

Bill J, Toronto

Dear CoyoteBound,

You miss your mother and your mother does not miss you; why, because she is with you ALL THE TIME.

When you go to the store, she is there, when you are in the kitchen, she is there, when you are sleeping, she is there.

When you are in the bathroom, she gives you your privacy:) and is right outside the door.

Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM

I so do understand how you feel jan, I lost my dear mum on febuary the 2nd last year.

I am 41 years old and cry like a bady most day, I miss her so so much, I dont think we will ever feel the same again.

when my mum died so did part of me, Lets hope that 2007 does get a little easier for us!!


God Bless to you ...Mandy

Mandy I know how you feel. I have days when I cry and cry and then I might have a good day. I just had surgery done on January4th and I woke up while they were doing the surgery because I had blockage in both legs and when my eyes opened up, there was a vision of my Mama right there in front of me and she looked so pretty and before I could say anything to her, she fadded away. She was just letting me know that she was there with me thru my surgery. You don't know how good that made me feel.

God Bless You!
Jan

She was just letting me know that she was there with me thru my surgery.

Dear CoyoteBound,

Know that she is always with you, in spirit.

Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM

Thank you FTM!:) It helps having someone to talk to and I really appreciate you and everyone else that responds and helps me out. I don't know know what I would of done without this message board. It's great!:)

Dear CoyoteBound,

I call it destiny. Forces greater than ourselves have brought us all here for a reason; not to mention that we all need a shoulder to lean on from time to time:) .

Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM

FTM,

I agree with you there! It is nice to have a shoulder to lean on and just to be able to talk to good people on this board has helped me so much.

How are you doing?

God Bless You!:angel:
Jan:)

FTM,

I agree with you there! It is nice to have a shoulder to lean on and just to be able to talk to good people on this board has helped me so much.

How are you doing?

God Bless You!

Dear Jan,

To borrow a quote from a famous book "God bless us all; everyone."

I am rolling with the punches, so to speak. I look at it like this: life has dealt me cards to play but forgot to tell me what game is being played.

This board only works with open and honest communication. It is a means of one helping the other, which in turn helps that person.

We are strong; we will persevere.

How are you coping these days?

Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM

FTM,

I am doing better! After the Holidays was over, I could just feel the stress leave me and I knew it was gonna be hard but I will just take it one day at the time and thats all we can do.

Hope your feeling better also!
Jan:)

I will just take it one day at the time and thats all we can do.


Dear Jan,

Always reserve posting as an option:) . We will always be around.

Take care
God Bless :angel:
FTM

I love you Mama and Daddy, but I know we will meet again! I miss ya'll so much and tell Judy(my sister I said to behave her self).

Love Ya'll and miss you so, so much!:angel:
Yoyr Daughter,
Jan

I love you Mama and Daddy, but I know we will meet again! I miss ya'll so much and tell Judy(my sister I said to behave her self).

Love Ya'll and miss you so, so much!:angel:
Your Daughter,
Jan

I love you Mama and Daddy, but I know we will meet again! I miss ya'll so much and tell Judy(my sister I said to behave her self).

Love Ya'll and miss you so, so much!:angel:
Yoyr Daughter,
Jan

Dear Jan,

I feel what you are saying but please realize that they have never left you.

That warm feeling that you feel inside when you think of them is proof positive.

They are still protecting you but from another realm.

Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM

I lost my mother 3 weeks ago, on December 26th. Needless to say... the holidays were a bust this year. Things really took a bad turn around Thanksgiving and went downhill from there. I do feel like a part of me has died with her but I know she wouldn't want me to feel this way. She left behind a very devoted husband and father of 43 years. It's so hard to see my dad struggling with all of this.

When does it get better? I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. I'm awake, I just don't want to get up. I know, it's only been three weeks, but I can hardly believe how bad it hurts.

I lost my mother 3 weeks ago, on December 26th.

When does it get better? I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. I'm awake, I just don't want to get up. I know, it's only been three weeks, but I can hardly believe how bad it hurts.

Dear sunshine,

May The Lord shine His rays on you and show you that your mother is deep inside you,spiritually. He wants you to know that the same place that you feel pain is the same place you get that warm feeling when you think of the good times.

The deeper a person's impact in our lives, the more we will feel the pain associated with the loss................but it will not always be so bad.

You know that old saying "time heals all wounds" well some wounds need to stay open to heal appropriately.

Know that we are here for you and feel your pain. Share any time that you want.

We dare to care because we share our fears and tears;some for many years.

Please keep posting.

Take care all
God Bless all
FTM

FTM,

I really didn't mean to double post and I know that the Moderator will get around to removing it. When I hit the buton to send it, it sat there like it had froze up on me and what it was I didn't give it enough time to go through. Now your giving me a hard time like Susan Kay did on another post!:D I was talking to another poster and I didn't put the posters name and Susan Kay came back and told me, Jan it was my Mom that died, not my Dad. I thought oh no, these people are gonna think I have lost it for sure now. But it's all good huh?:) I want to Thank you for your very kind and caring words that you write to me. Just like you telling me that they never left me! When you told me that I just sit here and grinned and said you know, he is right. Everything you have said to me has been so helpful and you don't know how much I do appreciate it. I will be glad when I get to the day that I can see as clearly as you can. I can tell that your a very intellegent Man by just your way of words and again, I thank you for everything you have said and told me because you have been right with it all.

God Bless You FTM:angel:
Jan:)

sunshine,

I am so sorry for the loss of your Mom! I know how you feel when you said you didn't even want to get out of bed of the morning. Everybody grieves in their own way but it hasn' been that long for you. Right now you might feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, but it will get easier as the time goes by. I lost my Dad, Sister, Brother-in-law and then my Mom in just little bit over a years time. Now thats hard for one person to stand, but you can do it. We are all here for you if you ever want to talk. I don't know what I would of done if I hadn't of found this message board. It's great!

God Bless You!
Jan

I want to Thank you for your very kind and caring words that you write to me.Everything you have said to me has been so helpful and you don't know how much I do appreciate it. I will be glad when I get to the day that I can see as clearly as you can. I can tell that your a very intellegent Man by just your way of words and again, I thank you for everything you have said and told me because you have been right with it all.


Dear Jan,

No thanks are necessary but I really do appreciate it. We are here to help each other and the mere fact that I have been helpful is enough; in and of itself.

Intelligence, to me, is using the amount of knowledge that you have in many ways, shapes and forms.

The reason that I hold my positions with respect to the passing of loved ones is because I spent a lot of time by myself to get into myself. I went so deep and when I hit rock bottom, took out the power drill and went even deeper. Believe me when I tell you that it wasn't easy but necessary for me.

Destiny brought you to this site, as it did me; may we never be the same again, in a positive way:) .

Take care all
God Bless all
FTM

FTM,

Thanks! That is really sweet of you, but I really do enjoy reading your replies. It is very interesting to me how you can talk to a person and make sense like you do and you can actually make a person feel better and thats what I wanted to thank you for because you have really helped me.

Jan:)

Dear Jan,

I appreciate you kind words but I must give God the glory, for without Him there would be no me. I am simply his conduit, as He provides the words.

Take care all
God Bless all:angel:
FTM

FTM,

You are so right!:)

Dear Jan,

How have you been holding up these days?

Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM