i had like the worst new years, i mad the mistake of going to a party

it was the firsttime poeple my age had invited me to a party that wasnt a birthday thing for a close freind, and i knew tehre wouldnt be drinking and generalized stupidity of normal teenagers, so i went even though i know hwo much i ahte groups and parties

i was under the impression it would be me, ray who is one of my best friends, luci is a girl he has a crush on, and jennifer's house, i have not known her long but we get along great.


but when we got there, it was also lucis boyfreind andrew, he is an aspie liek me No question, but i dont know if he even knows he is, and two people i didnt know, and they did not invite my brother, and then were whispering about how they were glad he didnt come. i cant belive they will invite me and not my brother, that is so rude, hes a nice guy really they dont even get to know him.

and then they played starwars trivia, three of them, and eveyroen else sat around doing nothing, which wasnt So bad, i still felt alientated in a group liek i always do, it was 8 people, i can handle 4 people but Not 8, it stresses me out to be imn a small group, must either be select group, or big crowd.

i had a little fun ebcuase the sparklers were so hard to light, it took like 10 minutes and was a laughing riot, and my burned out last.

but then we went back in and i was on the phone with my pet, and then jennifer put on what everyone called the years worst song, fergalicious, and the girls were dancing to it, so me and ray went over and danced together, and then he said "hey go dance with luci" so i tried to but she pushed my hands off hers and stormed out looking so pissed

luci has a big habbit of walking away unhappy, at first i thought she just had some problems, but she does it Atleast once every tiem she hangs out with anyone, shes just So dramatic, and i already thought luci was giving me a cold shouldar but this was the first time i was Sure she walked off Because of me

talk about a blow to my self esteme. i thought i was bineg paranoid to think she didnt like me.
no one even told me what happened, but ray was worried about her so i just waited miserably for liek an hour for luci to Finally come back, and then Ray was upset, he said luci did something but i didnt see what and said he didnt wana talk about it.

so : i Hate people and i Hate parties, and i never want to see luci again, if she hates me so much she should have just said so instaid of always just avoiding me. this is why my friends are in their 20s, teenagers are so yuck.



also, why do dyslexic people my age want to be on my case every time they see me?
they scold me for not spell and grammer checking every single thing i put online
for THEM thats the hardest part about communication, spelling. for ME the hard part is making words line up right. it takes me twice as long as them Atleast, already, and they get mad i dont spend even More time to spell check?
they should just mind their own buisness, they have no right to insult me so ignorantly.