Hello Everyone,
Just feeling a little blue today. Its been a while since I have posted. It's been 2years since my possible exposure. Well its starting a new year and I finally made my dr's apt. it is on Fri.... I have been suffering from fatigue, headaches, body aches in neck, back, arms, leggs and sometimes numbness in my feet and leggs. I can't help but to wonder if these are hiv symptoms that have surfaced because of my unhealthy habits that I have picked back up. But soon I will know for sure....and put an end to all of this worrying.

It has become a ritual of mine every day to feel behind my daughters ears and neck checking for swollen nodes and to have her open her mouth so I can look at her tongue and gums. This is crazy!!!!

I just wanted to get some things of my chest. Thanks.

mstucker thanks for your reply. I'll recap a little on my story. About 2 1/2 years ago I slept with this guy who I found out is HIV+ (afterwards of course). We used protection. But the condoms that we used were very thin and cheap condoms from our local health dept. He had a whole bag of these in closet. I remember the night so well I tried kissing him but he held his mouth tight and I remember even feeling his toungue briefly. It felt really rough. It lasted only a couple of minutes but at the end it felt weird I don't know if the condom broke or not but he pulled out. The end. Well about 2 weeks later I got sick. It started with a headache that just kept getting worse, then fever and chills, fatigue, that lasted about 4 days. Shortly after that I had dierreha and a very painfull swollen node in my groin. It was then when I had a horrible nightmare that I had HIV.

The reason why I am so concerned about my daughter is that about 1mo. after the exposure, my daughter was 5 months at the time. I was caught up in the middle of a tussle between 2 friends and my fingernail tore off completely. I had it covered with a band-aid but it was bloody and filled with puss that seeped through the band-aid, one day while holding my daughter she had put her mouth on the finger before I realized what was going on she had sucked on my finger for a while. shortly after that (2weeks) she became sick, witch through my over the top. I did have a test done at aprox. 3months it was neg. I am anemic so I don't know if that would affect the test results or not. But I am not the same person I was 2 years ago. I don't go out much anymore or talk to many of my friends. For 2 years I said I was neg. but in the back of my mind always wondered could I really be pos. It is hard for my to beleive that I was so close and that I escaped it.

Just recently I have had uprotected sex with 2 guys they both became sick afterwards with cold/flu symptoms. This triggered my alarm again. maybe just a coincidence. I hope so. Maybe this is all an evil trick the enemy is playing on me. But I will be taking another test soon and this time I will for sure put all of this to rest. Really that flu that I had was unlike anything that I had ever experienced before that is why it is hard for me to forget.

anyway wish me luck and your blessings....thanks so much for listening.

[QUOTE=mstucker20]Hey I absolutely understand your concern. It just seems to me you and her would be more sick, than you say. I just think your mind is playing tricks on you.

And what if its not?
I'm sorry but do you have to be really sick to be hiv+? :rolleyes:

yeah I see what you are saying. She is about to be 3 now. Only thing is that she complains about her stomach hurting almost everyday, she has frequent bowel movements and diareaha, and always keeps a runny nose.

I myself have had a couple of issues including the ones in my original post. But I will be seen Fri not only for an HIV test but because I have been having frequent yeast infections and now I think that I have a UTI because it burns when I pee and there is blood when I wipe.

I just want to be healthy and feel healthy. I've been having a lot of complications right now and this HIV scare does not make it any better. Once I get my results back and if they are neg. I will be satisfied that at least I don't have to worry about that anymore.

I was just thinking.... If you contracted the herpes virus would you also come down with flu like symptoms as well?

Tmomma 80, you took three months test it dosn't matter what kinda condoms it was you tested neg after 3 months. You did't give it to your baby. It's the last two guys unpertected that the CDC would call a risk. You can get rapid test come back in 20 mins. God Bless You. Keep us posting i'm praying for you.:angel:

I know what youre going through is tough, but you'll get through it..BELIEVE ME, i know its the scariest thing ever...you know, and we all know, what stress can do to us, and its obviously taking its toll on you...just for one night, if anything, taje a deep breath, light some candles, and let it go for just a few hours so you can feel a little bit better....until then, I will be praying for you

Tom 80, you should be o'kay i'm praying for you. I hope you and the baby are doing o'kay, just hang in there it's almost over. GodBlessYou.Peace.:angel: :angel: :angel:

Thank you motherlove, I took my bloodtest this past friday. I actually felt better once they drew my blood. Im not scared or anxious. I just want to know the truth. So I can get on with my life. I was having other problems such as blood in my urine. I started drinking like 32oz of water a day and the doctor said that there was no signs of a bladder infection he even checked me for other std's and didn't see any signs of anything. Not even yeast. I am so excited. If these results are neg. I will feel so confident to know that I am clean. I won't want to let any man get near me without me knowing him really well and not without a condom (of course) in fear of becoming contaminated. lol Thanks!

Well I just got a phone call today. Everything came back normal!!!!!!!!!!:) Thank God!!!!!!!!!!! Thank all of you for your prayers.:wave: :wave: I can't believe that I have been going on for 2 whole years like this. I have learned a valuable lesson though. I will be everso careful from this day forward.
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And for all of you that are hiv+ thank-you for you prayers, support, and advise. I wish you all a happy, healthy life. We have to make the most of what we've got. I will be praying for you always.:angel: :angel: :angel:

good for you tmomma!,be careful and take care,
a piece of mind can go along way to making you feel good
good luck :wave:

I'm so happy for you, today is a wonderful day. Good Luck.:blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire

Many people get the symptoms mixed up with the very last syptoms you will get before dieing. Frequent bowel movements and white tongue and gums are normally the very last stages.