ShonenYo
01-10-2007, 05:30 PM
I'm conflicted on whether i have autism or don't. I don't find the online tests adequate and would like an opinion from those who are more familiar with the disorder.
Here are some of the important details:
- When I was born the docs said I wasn't autistic (according to my mother)
- My brother is severely autistic
- My body-language is devoid of any expression usually
- I often rock, stretch and play with objects when I'm bored (I'm rocking my leg and have a pen in my mouth now)
- I perform very poorly socially and have terrible anxiety issues. People see me as "weird".
- My mother told me that I was very obsessive when I was little. I still am to some degree; i have to read lines of books over a lot, I sometimes imagine movie scenes or just scenes where I have to review until it is played out perfectly. My previous behavior included washing my hands constantly, biting my hands, flapping my hands; actually, I still do the latter.
- Often pace around pretending I'm involved in some sort of exciting activity (war, fighting, etc).
- I prefer being alone.
- I was positive on most Asperger's questionnaires, but was negative on most emotion recognition tests.
- In my opinion, I'm very good at predicting other people's emotions, but I suspect that this is just from experience with bullying and abuse.
- I've been in French classes since kindergarten and I barely know any French at all.
- Certain textures bug the hell out of me: carpet surfaces, brushes, etc. I love the smell of fresh paper though.
- I have speech problems.
Well, that's all I can think of for now. I'd like some opinions on what you guys think: this is really frustrating me. I hope I represented both sides well, I keep feeling that I might be biased in my own opinion of myself.
Here are some of the important details:
- When I was born the docs said I wasn't autistic (according to my mother)
- My brother is severely autistic
- My body-language is devoid of any expression usually
- I often rock, stretch and play with objects when I'm bored (I'm rocking my leg and have a pen in my mouth now)
- I perform very poorly socially and have terrible anxiety issues. People see me as "weird".
- My mother told me that I was very obsessive when I was little. I still am to some degree; i have to read lines of books over a lot, I sometimes imagine movie scenes or just scenes where I have to review until it is played out perfectly. My previous behavior included washing my hands constantly, biting my hands, flapping my hands; actually, I still do the latter.
- Often pace around pretending I'm involved in some sort of exciting activity (war, fighting, etc).
- I prefer being alone.
- I was positive on most Asperger's questionnaires, but was negative on most emotion recognition tests.
- In my opinion, I'm very good at predicting other people's emotions, but I suspect that this is just from experience with bullying and abuse.
- I've been in French classes since kindergarten and I barely know any French at all.
- Certain textures bug the hell out of me: carpet surfaces, brushes, etc. I love the smell of fresh paper though.
- I have speech problems.
Well, that's all I can think of for now. I'd like some opinions on what you guys think: this is really frustrating me. I hope I represented both sides well, I keep feeling that I might be biased in my own opinion of myself.
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firenice
01-10-2007, 07:45 PM
Many of the symptoms you describe would fit within the range of Autism Spectrum Disorder. Keep in mind that it is a spectrum - there is a wide range from very low functioning to very high functioning. You appear to be high functioning. A more important question than are you or are you not autistic or asperger's is how can you best deal with some of the symptoms you have presented so that your life is more comfortable and productive. Again, you seem to have a good grasp on things and probably have learned many ways to interact with the world that work for you, which is good.
ShonenYo
01-10-2007, 07:50 PM
Many of the symptoms you describe would fit within the range of Autism Spectrum Disorder. Keep in mind that it is a spectrum - there is a wide range from very low functioning to very high functioning. You appear to be high functioning. A more important question than are you or are you not autistic or asperger's is how can you best deal with some of the symptoms you have presented so that your life is more comfortable and productive. Again, you seem to have a good grasp on things and probably have learned many ways to interact with the world that work for you, which is good.
I just want to find out why I act the way I do sometimes. Why people constantly treat me the way they do.
I just want to find out why I act the way I do sometimes. Why people constantly treat me the way they do.
9CatMom
01-10-2007, 10:10 PM
Many of the things you describe sound as they fall into the Austism/Asperger's spectrum. Some of the traits also fit OCD, such as repetitive hand washing.
ShonenYo
01-11-2007, 01:05 PM
Many of the things you describe sound as they fall into the Austism/Asperger's spectrum. Some of the traits also fit OCD, such as repetitive hand washing.
Doesn't OCD itself fit in the spectrum of autistic disorders?
Doesn't OCD itself fit in the spectrum of autistic disorders?
firenice
01-11-2007, 02:32 PM
Why you act the way you do is a difficult question to answer. There are many factors involved and even the experts don't know the answers. Why people treat you the way they do? Because they are ignorant, scared, unsophisticated, mean, stupid, unkind and silly.
ShonenYo
01-11-2007, 03:44 PM
Why you act the way you do is a difficult question to answer. There are many factors involved and even the experts don't know the answers. Why people treat you the way they do? Because they are ignorant, scared, unsophisticated, mean, stupid, unkind and silly.
Unfortunately, I always have to be around these sort of class-less people.
Unfortunately, I always have to be around these sort of class-less people.
firenice
01-11-2007, 04:07 PM
No, you don't "always" have to be around them. You may be around them a lot, but always is forever and ever, every second of every day and I doubt that's the case. Nevertheless, I understand that being around these class-less people much of the time is not pleasant. There may not be much you can do about being around them, but you can adopt any number of attitudes and ways of dealing with them. I suggest becoming very comfortable within yourself about your own unique, individual, one-of-a-kind, unduplicated, umatched, unparalleled, impossible to copy self and let others come to appreciate your special features in their own time and in their own way. You can even magnify your innovative and creative place in the world by....wearing a funny hat, wierd sunglasses or anything else that's simple and noticeable. :jester:
Have fun
Have fun
GatsbyLuvr1920
01-11-2007, 10:00 PM
OCD is the most severe of the anxiety disorders. It is not a Pervasive Developmental Disorder, like Kanner's autism, Asperger's, and the other ASD's. The obsessive-compulsive symptoms exhibited in the ASD's are markedly different from those in true OCD. It is possible to have both an ASD and OCD. I'm one example: I'm an OCD-er and an Aspie.
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ShonenYo
01-12-2007, 06:37 AM
OCD is the most severe of the anxiety disorders. It is not a Pervasive Developmental Disorder, like Kanner's autism, Asperger's, and the other ASD's. The obsessive-compulsive symptoms exhibited in the ASD's are markedly different from those in true OCD. It is possible to have both an ASD and OCD. I'm one example: I'm an OCD-er and an Aspie.
-GatsbyLuvr1920-
My family has a history of anxiety disorders, but mine was sparked my lack of social skills and social ostracization.
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My family has a history of anxiety disorders, but mine was sparked my lack of social skills and social ostracization.