mommajessibelle
10-24-2003, 10:32 PM
and i thought i would share it with all you guys cause i thought it was really neat it was written by another lady from a different epilepsy board
I miss the old life
That I had before.
It's just not the same
As it was anymore.
I feel like a child,
Although I am grown.
The life I would be living,
A few years ago would not have been known.
No longer working
Has made me feel useless.
No longer driving
Has left me clueless.
I have few visitors,
I think they are scared.
For what could happen at anytime,
No one could be prepared.
My family worries about me
All of the time.
They consider leaving me alone
More like a crime.
The pain and the worry
Has caused great grief.
Right now I don't see
Any form of relief.
The medicines and restrictions
Are taking their toll.
I now have begun to wonder
Who I am and what is my role?
All independence
Has been taken away.
In all this confusion,
I'm trying to find my way.
I had such plans
For a much different life.
A worker, a student,
A mother, a wife.
Now I'm uncertain
What will happen next.
I began some of these plans,
But am now very perplexed.
How can I be all of these things
When my health won't let me?
These are my worries
That others can't see.
I want to live again,
I want to be free,
But suffer from a condition
That won't let me be.
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mother of 3
ages 4,3,and 1
my pride and joy
diagnosed with epilepsy jan. of 97
live life to its fullest you never know when it may be to late to do all the things you would have done tomorrow
I miss the old life
That I had before.
It's just not the same
As it was anymore.
I feel like a child,
Although I am grown.
The life I would be living,
A few years ago would not have been known.
No longer working
Has made me feel useless.
No longer driving
Has left me clueless.
I have few visitors,
I think they are scared.
For what could happen at anytime,
No one could be prepared.
My family worries about me
All of the time.
They consider leaving me alone
More like a crime.
The pain and the worry
Has caused great grief.
Right now I don't see
Any form of relief.
The medicines and restrictions
Are taking their toll.
I now have begun to wonder
Who I am and what is my role?
All independence
Has been taken away.
In all this confusion,
I'm trying to find my way.
I had such plans
For a much different life.
A worker, a student,
A mother, a wife.
Now I'm uncertain
What will happen next.
I began some of these plans,
But am now very perplexed.
How can I be all of these things
When my health won't let me?
These are my worries
That others can't see.
I want to live again,
I want to be free,
But suffer from a condition
That won't let me be.
------------------
mother of 3
ages 4,3,and 1
my pride and joy
diagnosed with epilepsy jan. of 97
live life to its fullest you never know when it may be to late to do all the things you would have done tomorrow