I am new to this dealing with this. I was originally give medication in 02 to try and harness my behavior and since then I have been on a few different meds and have even seen a specialist. Here is my situation and I would appreciate any meaningful feedback.

Although I can remember instances as a youth where I would freak the hell out over nothing, as I have gotten older it has become a different animal. I have a very demanding job in finance and emotional stability is everything, while I am considered by most very intelligent(by IQ standards) my emotional issues are endless. I get into these black holes of where I dont want to participate in anything and I am a drag to be around, I will focus all my energy and totally make one little thing or issue a huge problem and just let my whole life unravel until i hit the bottom and then I finally man up and dig through the mess and take this as my new challenge to get out of. I also do this with co workers, friends, girlfriends, parents etc. For lack of terms, I just freak out. Now it has gotten to the point where It destroys my living and finances, I have a grat job and this problem has been holding me back for yrs and I just dont know what I can do, or how it can be solved. there are too many instances to list, and i know something is wrong with me and I need to find some good help, not just a script. I really dont know what else to do...so I writing to people on the internet, if you have any places I could turn or know of symptyms like this and have found ways of dealing please let me know, it's like another person takes over and I go nuts...im just sick of the cycle...in any case thanks for reading..

hi rocky,

are you still taking any medications? specifically anti-anxiety meds?

it definitely sounds like the job you have is highly stressful and it only compounds your anxiety issues? also, are you seeing a therapist these days? i think it would be extremely beneficial to you to do so, especially at this time. they can teach you new(er) coping skills, for when you feel this terrible.

dakota

No I am not on the meds or seeing a therapist. I have takin in the past, pxil, lexapro, strattyera...and one recent one I cant remember off hand. The thereapist was not quite up to the challnge, think of the movie "good willl Hunting" and that is basically how I can act. So i stopped going I felt like he was treating me like I was 5yrs old, and had no concept of what he I was really like only lasted about 4 visits. I am now looking at alternated methods, I still have the lex if I want to start taking it again...i'll figure out something...thx

Finding the right doctor is really trial and error and probably would take you a while to find a good one. In the meantime, don't be afraid to take something for the anxiety (i.e. Benzo's similar to Ativan is not a bad start under doc. supervision). SSRI such as paxil and lexabro would probably make your case worse initially but eventually you're going to find something that should work for you. Exercising daily or every other day for 30 min. or more is good for you physically and mentally. Be patient and eventually you will be fine.

I guess I could go trial and error...I have a lot of complex issues, its tough I would have to find someone sort of from a tougher upbringing to really understand, and all therapists seemed to be booked so far out when I try to call, and there is nothing like the phone call to a receptionistt to explain why you are going nuts...always makes me feel good.

My previous doctor was nervous about me, as far as regular doctors well I have changed them quite a bit in recent years from moving around the country. I do however exercise like a mad man, only time my mind is really focused. What is ssri and what are alternatives?..I am pretty ignorant about these things...thx

all therapists seemed to be booked so far out when I try to callI agree. I've had an appt for Jan 26th for weeks now but last week I called and asked that if there were any cancellations, PLEASE call me. They called today and I am going to my first appt tomorrow. Of course I'm anxious about this. :eek: :D

Try calling and asking to be put on a waitlist. Good luck!