ICC
01-26-2007, 11:54 AM
Sid I will be start by saying that i think of you morning, afternoon and night. We bonded long ago for a reason and I will always honor that. Your last post cut to the core of my being. The anger and sadness I felt there are no words for. My reaction was not for myself but for my friend. I wanted to touch you and hold you and couldn't so I had to break away. I want you if you can to picture the little girl under the tree,there is a little girl appraoching her to play. she has long dark braids, is dressed in an eyelid dress with ruffled ankle socks and mary janes on. black patent ones. She's holding your hand and asking why you are scared. You tell her and both of you hug and cry together. she is the friend you can share with if no other. she will never leave you or pass judgement. you are no longer alone under the tree. Hold the little friend you are sharing under the tree with and cry together. and cry until it's gone. the memory, the pain. cry until there are no more tears. she will stay with you until you are happy again. and then some.
I love you,
"Miss Cranky Pants" xo
I love you,
"Miss Cranky Pants" xo
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Phoenix
01-26-2007, 04:12 PM
Dear ICY,
sid had expressed in one of the threads that regressing at this point was not healthy for her and that her therapist suggested against it.
I know that it is impossible to keep up with every page.
Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM
sid had expressed in one of the threads that regressing at this point was not healthy for her and that her therapist suggested against it.
I know that it is impossible to keep up with every page.
Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM
ICC
01-26-2007, 05:20 PM
My Dear FTM----I acually know of the thread you are talking about but feel our Sid has already gone there whether or not it was a healthy thing to do or by choice. Just wanted her to know that the demons that haunt that little girl under the tree are not haunting her alone anymore. I didn't know until I read her last post all that she had suffered and bonding the way we have was consumed by a need to touch her and couldn't.
"never second guess your gut" something i learned recently and that's where my post came from.
Be well,
ICY:)
"never second guess your gut" something i learned recently and that's where my post came from.
Be well,
ICY:)
Phoenix
01-26-2007, 07:47 PM
My Dear FTM----I acually know of the thread you are talking about but feel our Sid has already gone there whether or not it was a healthy thing to do or by choice. Just wanted her to know that the demons that haunt that little girl under the tree are not haunting her alone anymore. I didn't know until I read her last post all that she had suffered and bonding the way we have was consumed by a need to touch her and couldn't.
"never second guess your gut" something i learned recently and that's where my post came from.
Be well,
ICY:)
My dear ICY,
I meant no harm.
I believe that Sid has processed and is going deeper.
The thing with regression is that once the door is open, many things of a wanted (and sometimes unwanted) nature come through, at varying degrees of speed.
It can manifest itself in the conscious and subconscious; while awake or asleep in the form of dreams..........
I too feel that Sid should not go through this alone and I hope, rather pray, at the very least, she has spoken to a therapist.
It may or may not be that she is in an unfamiliar place;p it's hard to say.
One thing to know is that she should not be doing this alone...........
It is now clicking; what you mean.
Dear Sid,
You have us worried and "girlfriend," you cannot go through this alone,
Tell us what you are feeling and how you are doing..................
If we do not here from you, I am going to make a special request to the moderators; asking that they place a 911 call to see if you are alright (I'm serious).
For some reason, I do not feel you are with friends (I may be mistaken).
Come out Sid; you owe it to yourself.
Please don't leave me the choice of contacting the moderators; this is too serious to be overlooked.
FTM
"never second guess your gut" something i learned recently and that's where my post came from.
Be well,
ICY:)
My dear ICY,
I meant no harm.
I believe that Sid has processed and is going deeper.
The thing with regression is that once the door is open, many things of a wanted (and sometimes unwanted) nature come through, at varying degrees of speed.
It can manifest itself in the conscious and subconscious; while awake or asleep in the form of dreams..........
I too feel that Sid should not go through this alone and I hope, rather pray, at the very least, she has spoken to a therapist.
It may or may not be that she is in an unfamiliar place;p it's hard to say.
One thing to know is that she should not be doing this alone...........
It is now clicking; what you mean.
Dear Sid,
You have us worried and "girlfriend," you cannot go through this alone,
Tell us what you are feeling and how you are doing..................
If we do not here from you, I am going to make a special request to the moderators; asking that they place a 911 call to see if you are alright (I'm serious).
For some reason, I do not feel you are with friends (I may be mistaken).
Come out Sid; you owe it to yourself.
Please don't leave me the choice of contacting the moderators; this is too serious to be overlooked.
FTM
ICC
01-27-2007, 07:00 AM
FTM-----Please do what you feel you must and is best. I will stand beside you in your decision.
Love you,
ICY
Sid:angel: if you can please send us a one liner. "I'm not alone" "i'm getting through it" I am seeing my therapist" "I can't stop crying" "I am in a bad place" wherever you are in your mind please don't be alone with it. come here, go to a trusted friend, your therapist but please don't suffer alone. the advise a great lady (stick 2013) gave me. you tell us not to suffer in silence or alone please take that advise , it is good advise. however you choose to deal with this I am right beside you every inch of the way.
Love you,
ICY
Love you,
ICY
Sid:angel: if you can please send us a one liner. "I'm not alone" "i'm getting through it" I am seeing my therapist" "I can't stop crying" "I am in a bad place" wherever you are in your mind please don't be alone with it. come here, go to a trusted friend, your therapist but please don't suffer alone. the advise a great lady (stick 2013) gave me. you tell us not to suffer in silence or alone please take that advise , it is good advise. however you choose to deal with this I am right beside you every inch of the way.
Love you,
ICY
Phoenix
01-27-2007, 07:23 AM
Dear ICY,
The problem is her statistics, which if she is reading, I rather not get into.
The determining factor for me is that there is a lot that she has not shared and after going through her entire list of posts and threads started, was painfully reminded that her therapist felt that she would not survive any type of regression.
If she believes it at this point or, if this is the case......God forbid
My prayers are with you Sid; wherever you are.
Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM
The problem is her statistics, which if she is reading, I rather not get into.
The determining factor for me is that there is a lot that she has not shared and after going through her entire list of posts and threads started, was painfully reminded that her therapist felt that she would not survive any type of regression.
If she believes it at this point or, if this is the case......God forbid
My prayers are with you Sid; wherever you are.
Take care
God Bless:angel:
FTM
ICC
01-27-2007, 07:41 AM
FTM---I agree. Sid has always been the strong one and very rarely shared her own traumas . that is what has me worried also. I believe she will survive this IF she keeps her head on. She is a strong competant woman who has come far. regression has put me to bed for days on end and all i've done is cry. no food. nothing but being alone in my thoughts and tears. Right now I hope she is busy telling everyone in her life who has ever hurt her off and telling them off with her "bat". we will continue to worry and pray until we here from her.
Hugs FTM,
ICY
Hugs FTM,
ICY