cray324
02-01-2007, 12:03 AM
I posted here a few months ago asking for some reassurance about the thoughts that id been having..and i got some really great advice.
The thoughts before had to do with harm and my 1 1/2 yr old daughter. Now its not only that its something else which really freaks me out and ive never really heard anyone else talk about it and im scared somethings really wrong with me.
I was in the grociery store the other day and a man came up to me and told me that my daughter didnt look anything like me. Which i had heard that before.Now i cant stop thinking well "what if shes really not mine" What if she was switched at the hospital" all of these crazy thoughts and im scared to death that im going to believe the thoughts if that makes any kind of sense at all.
The other problem that i have been having is...
Im currently taking buspar and effexor CR..and i believe that they help with the anxiety but now when i have the thoughts of harm or these ridiculous thoughts of her not being my biological daughter i dont get the anxiety like i used to and the wierd thing is i start thinking well..."what if this means that you like the thoughts" Or "what if subconsciously or somewhere deep down inside you really dont lover her" which i know i do and i would give anything in the world not to be like this.. i know the medicine took the anxiety away..(dont get me wrong its still there but not AS bad)and i really disliked feeling the way that i did but sometimes i want it back so that not only do i "know"that i dont agree with the thoughts..but so that i feel it physically as well...its just feels like nothing is EVER good enough.
it is so wierd how deep down you know something but there is always that doubt there.i feel like im always searching for this answer that is never there and no matter how hard i try to find it..nothing is ever good enough.EXAMPLE OCD i know thats my problem but i continually think its always some other mental disorder....
im frustrated and now im starting to ramble....
Good advice needed please help
The thoughts before had to do with harm and my 1 1/2 yr old daughter. Now its not only that its something else which really freaks me out and ive never really heard anyone else talk about it and im scared somethings really wrong with me.
I was in the grociery store the other day and a man came up to me and told me that my daughter didnt look anything like me. Which i had heard that before.Now i cant stop thinking well "what if shes really not mine" What if she was switched at the hospital" all of these crazy thoughts and im scared to death that im going to believe the thoughts if that makes any kind of sense at all.
The other problem that i have been having is...
Im currently taking buspar and effexor CR..and i believe that they help with the anxiety but now when i have the thoughts of harm or these ridiculous thoughts of her not being my biological daughter i dont get the anxiety like i used to and the wierd thing is i start thinking well..."what if this means that you like the thoughts" Or "what if subconsciously or somewhere deep down inside you really dont lover her" which i know i do and i would give anything in the world not to be like this.. i know the medicine took the anxiety away..(dont get me wrong its still there but not AS bad)and i really disliked feeling the way that i did but sometimes i want it back so that not only do i "know"that i dont agree with the thoughts..but so that i feel it physically as well...its just feels like nothing is EVER good enough.
it is so wierd how deep down you know something but there is always that doubt there.i feel like im always searching for this answer that is never there and no matter how hard i try to find it..nothing is ever good enough.EXAMPLE OCD i know thats my problem but i continually think its always some other mental disorder....
im frustrated and now im starting to ramble....
Good advice needed please help
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ocdengineer
02-01-2007, 12:39 AM
Cray,
I really think you need to consider CBT or Meditation! These two things which, in all honesty, are exactly the same thing in different wrappers, are the only things that will help you with the thoughts. I take Xanax and it almost completely eliminates the anxiety, but no matter what the thoughts always were there. The only think that worked for me was meditation. I meditate every morning. Practicing the Buddhist Mindfulness Meditation is not against any other religious denomination you may have. Consider it your yoga! It will help you to learn to relax and accept the thoughts as negative thoughts and nothing more. You learn to let them come and let them go just as quickly. It does take a little practice, but you should notice some immeditate changes in the first week. Please do some reasearch on meditation and always feel free to ask questions. I have exactly the same dissorder as you. Pure O. It is horrible, but there is hope, so don't give up and open up your mind to meditation. It really will help.
I wish you luck!
OE
I really think you need to consider CBT or Meditation! These two things which, in all honesty, are exactly the same thing in different wrappers, are the only things that will help you with the thoughts. I take Xanax and it almost completely eliminates the anxiety, but no matter what the thoughts always were there. The only think that worked for me was meditation. I meditate every morning. Practicing the Buddhist Mindfulness Meditation is not against any other religious denomination you may have. Consider it your yoga! It will help you to learn to relax and accept the thoughts as negative thoughts and nothing more. You learn to let them come and let them go just as quickly. It does take a little practice, but you should notice some immeditate changes in the first week. Please do some reasearch on meditation and always feel free to ask questions. I have exactly the same dissorder as you. Pure O. It is horrible, but there is hope, so don't give up and open up your mind to meditation. It really will help.
I wish you luck!
OE
cray324
02-01-2007, 09:25 AM
thank you for the reply i currently do yoga which i noticed helps i will do some research on the meditation, im willing to do anything that will help thanks for the advice!
divalou
02-02-2007, 06:09 AM
google Pure O. i had similar thoughts. Pure O is part of OCd check it out.
irishmom1
02-02-2007, 06:04 PM
Hi Cray,
I have thoughts towards my child and I responded to your other post a few months ago. I just wanted to give you my support on these days you are having a hard time. How do you react to the thoughts, do you talk to yourself and try to calm yourself down? The bad thing about the thoughts is that they will never go away 100%. You have to learn how to react and move forward when it happens.
Do you go to therapy? You can learn techniques from your therapist.
Hoping you are feeling better.
Take care
I have thoughts towards my child and I responded to your other post a few months ago. I just wanted to give you my support on these days you are having a hard time. How do you react to the thoughts, do you talk to yourself and try to calm yourself down? The bad thing about the thoughts is that they will never go away 100%. You have to learn how to react and move forward when it happens.
Do you go to therapy? You can learn techniques from your therapist.
Hoping you are feeling better.
Take care
ocdengineer
02-02-2007, 09:43 PM
I disagree. I think the thoughts can go away through meditation. Check my post on the thread on meditation. It really does help a LOT.
Take care,
OE
Take care,
OE
cray324
02-02-2007, 10:04 PM
irishmom i try to calm myself down but it doesnt seem to work that well..i tell myself o its just a thought your not capable of doing such a thing..but then thats when i start thinking well maybe its something else thats wrong I have this aweful fear of psychosis and for a while i would catch myself trying to see if i was hearing things like if i heard a voice from the condo next door id be like OMG im psychotic and then i would realize it was the neighbor!! are u doing better and if so do you have any advice??..
OCDENG~i do yoga which i think is amazing and i actually started meditating yesterday when u left me that post obviously i dont get the full effect of it yet bc i just started doing it a day ago..but...i noticed today that it calmed me down alot...but my fiance is never home..and im alone with the baby all the time so i really dont get time to do things like that everytime the thoughts start to come...but i appreciate your advice and when i do get the time ill take good advantage of it..ill keep ya posted!!!!
OCDENG~i do yoga which i think is amazing and i actually started meditating yesterday when u left me that post obviously i dont get the full effect of it yet bc i just started doing it a day ago..but...i noticed today that it calmed me down alot...but my fiance is never home..and im alone with the baby all the time so i really dont get time to do things like that everytime the thoughts start to come...but i appreciate your advice and when i do get the time ill take good advantage of it..ill keep ya posted!!!!
cjk07
02-05-2007, 04:22 PM
I just wanted to be another person letting you know that you're not alone. My meds have also calmed the anxiety a bit. And, yes, the thoughts are still disturbing, but not the way they used to be. The horrible reaction I got before was what I always counted on to remind myself that it was the ocd. I also wonder if it is something else besides ocd. And, like someone else posted, I have also tried to make sure I wasn't hearing voices, ect. Just checking myself all the time on what I was thinking and how I reacted. My hardest time now is in the morning when I'm up before the rest of the family, but not sure why that is. I also have small children and truely understand what you have been going through. You are a good person. You just suffer from ocd, that all....
Take care,
Carla
Take care,
Carla
Dantheinsane
02-05-2007, 07:01 PM
Your first mistake was listening to a guy for a girl question. I have never ever been able to tell the similarities between children and their parents, but my wife can see it right away. She tries to teach me this great secret art but I just shake my head and haven't a clue.
I adopted my kid so when some idiot came to me and said that, and they did, I always pointed out that my child does look like the mailman though.
:dizzy:
I adopted my kid so when some idiot came to me and said that, and they did, I always pointed out that my child does look like the mailman though.
:dizzy:
ocdengineer
02-05-2007, 08:42 PM
Cray,
Good! Definitely let me know how it works. It really does take some time. Is there a possiblity that you could wake up before everyone else and meditate? All you need is 15-30 minutes. I have a 14 month and a pregnant wife who is about to give me another beautiful daughter, so I can relate to the time aspect. I just set my alarm for before everyone else gets up and by the time they are rolling out of bed I am done. I hope all goes well.
Take care,
OE
Good! Definitely let me know how it works. It really does take some time. Is there a possiblity that you could wake up before everyone else and meditate? All you need is 15-30 minutes. I have a 14 month and a pregnant wife who is about to give me another beautiful daughter, so I can relate to the time aspect. I just set my alarm for before everyone else gets up and by the time they are rolling out of bed I am done. I hope all goes well.
Take care,
OE