leasarenya
02-05-2007, 10:17 PM
Because we seem to be so messed up in the head so much (at least that is how I feel) does anyone else ever wonder if they are ever right? I just had enough of someone constantly yelling at me and angry with me so I snapped today. I started taking depakote about 4 weeks ago and I feel like I am not flying off the deep end as much (a major problem of mine) and today I lost it. I can't even decide if it is the bp talking or I just can't take this bs any more. A certain person just keeps on me and I just need to get better before I deal with any ****! I need some healing time and they seem to be helping me stay sick. Do you guys think there are people in our lives who just hinder our healing and even contribute to our bp even if they mean well and love us? I love this person dearly but they will not forgive me (for the things I do when I really can't help it) and I need alot of that and I just told them that some people just cannot live with bp people. And I really understand that, it is a real hard thing for others to deal with. I have been worse this last year than ever and I think arguing and friction makes me so much worse. I need peace and understanding. I used to think of this person as a support system, but now I am really in doubt of that. Thanks guys!
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tsohl
02-05-2007, 10:41 PM
I don't think you have to be bipolar to resent having someone yelling at you and being angry with you. It just makes it more difficult for you to handle. The last thing you need is more stress in your life. Stressful situations should be avoided as much as possible. This person does not sound like any part of a support system. Their negative energy isn't going to help you get better. Is it possible to avoid this person?
going_far_away
02-06-2007, 02:43 AM
I know I am always doubting myself. I go to people I trust and hope that I am able to make the right choice. In the past I have had a few people mis guide me but that is life and I learned from it.. Try to trust yourself to make the right choice. I am sorry I cant offer you more.
jricci
02-06-2007, 06:48 AM
Hi Leasa,
I do completely understand where it is that you're coming from and know exactly how you feel to a "T". Hang in there, take some time for yourself. Then try and find a way to approach the person with how you feel, think etc. I know that it's not an easy task by any means. It's much easier said or thought about than done! But it will open a door for some communication. The person may not even realize they are doing this, or how badly they're making you feel.
As early BP treatment people it's in our nature or charecteristic to "fly" off the deep end. With time, proper medications and cognitive and behavioral therapy you'll find that it does get better. It's a tough journey but if you commit yourself You can do it. I am ever so slowly working my way to that place down that path. Sometimes it's harder I think than anything else I've ever done or had to face.
There's a terrific post around here somewhere called "You are what you expect". I'll see if I can find the link for you. It's wonderful and maybe will give some comfort.
Also this person may be hurting just as badly as you are.
Hugs, We are here for you.
Jeanne ;)
I do completely understand where it is that you're coming from and know exactly how you feel to a "T". Hang in there, take some time for yourself. Then try and find a way to approach the person with how you feel, think etc. I know that it's not an easy task by any means. It's much easier said or thought about than done! But it will open a door for some communication. The person may not even realize they are doing this, or how badly they're making you feel.
As early BP treatment people it's in our nature or charecteristic to "fly" off the deep end. With time, proper medications and cognitive and behavioral therapy you'll find that it does get better. It's a tough journey but if you commit yourself You can do it. I am ever so slowly working my way to that place down that path. Sometimes it's harder I think than anything else I've ever done or had to face.
There's a terrific post around here somewhere called "You are what you expect". I'll see if I can find the link for you. It's wonderful and maybe will give some comfort.
Also this person may be hurting just as badly as you are.
Hugs, We are here for you.
Jeanne ;)
marshmallow
02-07-2007, 09:18 AM
There is a book I think it is titled Toxic relationships and I think it mentions how some ppl are just toxic together and not anyones fault.
I actually have not read the book but heard about it.
I actually have not read the book but heard about it.