My mix of meds was tampered with by my pdoc and it isn't stabilising my moods at all. I am the me that I was before my suicidal depressive cycle - the 'high' me.

I don't want to be like this. I'm shouting at everyone for no reason, have extreme road rage - following people and getting out of my car to them, feel completely invincible, just want to talk and talk to people (about nothing), amd am getting behind in both my studies and my job.


Now that I am getting higher and higher I am starting to get angry with myself for not 'controlling' myself. But, I really can't - these mix of meds are rubbish.

I see my pdoc again Saturday - going to demand that I go back on my old mix of meds, even with side effects.

Hate BP, hate the world, hate me. Don't even know why I wrote this - guess its becuase I needed to talk but I've already talked to everyone I know today.

Nut.

Hey Nut, :wave:

You came to vent...and that's a good thing. I know you will tell your pdoc about the change in meds and how they aren't working for you. There are so many options out there now, that the pdoc will be able to find something else for you. Try to just hang in there a couple more days!

Take care,
Tsohl