coffeegirl2
02-07-2007, 06:32 PM
In ratio from the side effects caused by the medications verses the symptoms caused by the illness, which do you feel have caused more havoc in your life during the times of weakness?
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coffeegirl2
02-07-2007, 06:41 PM
In my situation I will have to say definitely the meds.
The meds have caused more problems for me than anything. They have caused embarrassment, humiliation, clumsiness, stupidity, forgetfulness, short term memory loss, physical weakness, and a horrible rash of which, has left scars on my body now. Oh, I could go on about more things but I'd rather not bore all of you and waste your time nor mine either.
The mania and depression I can handle with coping mechanisms which I've learned from the tdoc and pdoc, and other sources and various individuals of whom are knowledgable in this illness.
This illness basically SUCKS! It effects everyone in a family situation, school, it effects co-workers and ones job performance at times, and it even effects external relationships outside of the family life.
Anyway, that was my 2 cents. It is McDonald Happy Hour where we live. So, I need to go to Happy Hour or the munchkins will not be happy no more! ;)
Have a dandy one!
Coffeegirl
The meds have caused more problems for me than anything. They have caused embarrassment, humiliation, clumsiness, stupidity, forgetfulness, short term memory loss, physical weakness, and a horrible rash of which, has left scars on my body now. Oh, I could go on about more things but I'd rather not bore all of you and waste your time nor mine either.
The mania and depression I can handle with coping mechanisms which I've learned from the tdoc and pdoc, and other sources and various individuals of whom are knowledgable in this illness.
This illness basically SUCKS! It effects everyone in a family situation, school, it effects co-workers and ones job performance at times, and it even effects external relationships outside of the family life.
Anyway, that was my 2 cents. It is McDonald Happy Hour where we live. So, I need to go to Happy Hour or the munchkins will not be happy no more! ;)
Have a dandy one!
Coffeegirl
jgr01
02-07-2007, 07:01 PM
firstly what do you mean by 'times of weakness?'.
I have nearly committed suicide on more than one occasion and ruined my marriage through alcoholic and street drug peppered manias. Sectioned for delusions of walking with demons. I have children and my BP is too rapid cycling for me to keep a track on it. Sometimes i am aware of the mood changing but not always. The drugs on the other hand have rendered me incapacitated as much as the condition - my brain still won't join the dots some days (i won't re-list all the side affects Coffeegirl mentioned but certainly i have had them except the rash) - when I used to be so creative and in a high stress, high paid job. Mind you, how long does it take you to get over each major break down? But, overall, the meds are the side effect of the condition for me. I have to have them to ensure my 'relative' stability and the health and happiness of my family.
I have nearly committed suicide on more than one occasion and ruined my marriage through alcoholic and street drug peppered manias. Sectioned for delusions of walking with demons. I have children and my BP is too rapid cycling for me to keep a track on it. Sometimes i am aware of the mood changing but not always. The drugs on the other hand have rendered me incapacitated as much as the condition - my brain still won't join the dots some days (i won't re-list all the side affects Coffeegirl mentioned but certainly i have had them except the rash) - when I used to be so creative and in a high stress, high paid job. Mind you, how long does it take you to get over each major break down? But, overall, the meds are the side effect of the condition for me. I have to have them to ensure my 'relative' stability and the health and happiness of my family.
coffeegirl2
02-07-2007, 07:37 PM
Weakness simply refers to depression, hypomania, or mania. It did not occur to me that I stated it in such a manner where it would offend another.
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coffeegirl2
02-07-2007, 07:47 PM
I have Rapid Cyling BP II with other dx's. I cycle throughout the year, depending on external triggers, seasons, holidays, vacations, or illness. The pdoc keeps very close tabs of the symptoms, has me call in when I begin to get over the edge, then schedules an appointment for an adjustment to tweek the meds along with rescheduling the appointment with the tdoc so it will be not every four weeks but then every two.
That is how I work at stability with being a rapid cycler. Don't get me wrong, cycling is not a walk in the park. It is a struggle, and something that is hard for others to understand as the highs and lows can even be daily, weekly, not just monthly.
I've been very suicidal my entire life. Close to it numerous times. My family has tried to admit me into the hospital but in my state unless one has actually done an act towards themself, then they are not at risk. So, I just stay in the 'low zone' and call the pdoc, tdoc, and my DH a lot. Oh, and journal. My journal wreaks poems of that topic. It is very depressing and sad.
To answer your question how long it takes me to get over my breakdowns? Ever breakdown varies for me. The largest one I had took about six months to a year. Very scary huh? To make a long story short, I was housebound for three months, and the first month no usage of the phone or outside contact with anyone.
Hang in there with the cycling jgr. I hope your days are flowing more smoothly than bouncing down the hills roughly.
Coffeegirl
That is how I work at stability with being a rapid cycler. Don't get me wrong, cycling is not a walk in the park. It is a struggle, and something that is hard for others to understand as the highs and lows can even be daily, weekly, not just monthly.
I've been very suicidal my entire life. Close to it numerous times. My family has tried to admit me into the hospital but in my state unless one has actually done an act towards themself, then they are not at risk. So, I just stay in the 'low zone' and call the pdoc, tdoc, and my DH a lot. Oh, and journal. My journal wreaks poems of that topic. It is very depressing and sad.
To answer your question how long it takes me to get over my breakdowns? Ever breakdown varies for me. The largest one I had took about six months to a year. Very scary huh? To make a long story short, I was housebound for three months, and the first month no usage of the phone or outside contact with anyone.
Hang in there with the cycling jgr. I hope your days are flowing more smoothly than bouncing down the hills roughly.
Coffeegirl