I read the newbie forum, but none of the symptoms seem to fit what I experience on occasion. At times I feel the burden of the worlds problems. I feel so weighted down with concern all I can do is lie on my back and stare at the ceiling. I'm not concerned about my own problems, I'm concerned with things on a huge scale. I think about how terrible the world is and how terrible life has been for people in the past. I feel utter despair and rage at the same time. But feel so empty and powerless that I can't muster a reaction to either emotion. Usually it lasts only a few hours so I'm not sure if that counts as an episode. But it does tend to occur with one episode a day for a few days in a row. I know its not mania or hypomania because I don't feel euphoric at all. I would describe it as intense dysphoria associated with unprompted frustrations for things on a grand scale.