MyPlague
02-12-2007, 11:33 AM
Okay, so I've overcome alot of my issues.
But my social anxiety seems to be just getting worse and worse. It wasn't so bad 4-5 years ago, when I was in high school and most of my friends from that time were still around.
But because I didn't go to college (still plan on going back at some point though) I went down a totally different path straight to the "adult" working world.
For the first year it was all partying and lots of friends...I was happy. But the next year that all went away very suddenly, and I moved to a one bedroom apartment....this is when I became isolated from the world and I started to downspiral. I was also this way in my early high school days, until my junior year...locked away in my bedroom all the time.
I basically only had myself for 3 years or so. Finally moved to a college town, and met a few people at work that were in college and things became alot better again. But, a girl I fell for and all the people I had become friends with basically abandoned me like everyone else I've ever managed to stumble upon in my life.
Now, for the last year or so I've been isolated again. All I do again is work, or stay locked up in my room.
I'm afraid to even try with another woman because every time before has been a traumatically horrible experience. I don't want to risk being destroyed that way again.
I'm afraid to talk to anybody. I'm even afraid of my roommates, if you can believe that. It's ridiculous. My mental health is becoming worse by the day.
I don't really know what to do. I'm phobic of being social, especially with strangers. And, at 22 and looking to go back to college, I can't really afford the treatment other people can. I dunno what to do. I'm miserable, and alone.
But my social anxiety seems to be just getting worse and worse. It wasn't so bad 4-5 years ago, when I was in high school and most of my friends from that time were still around.
But because I didn't go to college (still plan on going back at some point though) I went down a totally different path straight to the "adult" working world.
For the first year it was all partying and lots of friends...I was happy. But the next year that all went away very suddenly, and I moved to a one bedroom apartment....this is when I became isolated from the world and I started to downspiral. I was also this way in my early high school days, until my junior year...locked away in my bedroom all the time.
I basically only had myself for 3 years or so. Finally moved to a college town, and met a few people at work that were in college and things became alot better again. But, a girl I fell for and all the people I had become friends with basically abandoned me like everyone else I've ever managed to stumble upon in my life.
Now, for the last year or so I've been isolated again. All I do again is work, or stay locked up in my room.
I'm afraid to even try with another woman because every time before has been a traumatically horrible experience. I don't want to risk being destroyed that way again.
I'm afraid to talk to anybody. I'm even afraid of my roommates, if you can believe that. It's ridiculous. My mental health is becoming worse by the day.
I don't really know what to do. I'm phobic of being social, especially with strangers. And, at 22 and looking to go back to college, I can't really afford the treatment other people can. I dunno what to do. I'm miserable, and alone.

