Hi ......

I caved in and tested - at only 9dpo - what the heck was I thinking???? Of course it was BFN ... but it was like I was possessed and HAD to do it -- and I Knew it was going to be BFN ... bu8t of course now I am depressed!!!!

Sometimes this is a cruel cruel world!!!!!!

Thanks for letting me vent, Dana.

I'm not much of an HPT'er myself. I hate the things, I think they are evil. But I can understand why you do it. You are hoping to see a positive. Who can blame you? I understand you're upset, negatives suck. But you know it is way too early for it to be a true negative, so try your best not to let it keep you down. If this cycle does work, your baby will need you to be positive. Try to put it out of your mind. And no more testing for a few days ;) ((BIG HUGS)) comin your way...I hope you cheer up soon.

Holly

Dana it is to early dont get down on urself.I stay away form those HPTs I refuse to waste my money on them.If we put aside the money we have spent on those things we would be able to get a nice outfit or a new pair of shoes or both.I go in for beta so I dont like to rely on those things they just always tell u what u dont want to hear.Plus most of them only give u a positive if HCG is over 100.So at 9 dpo hcg most likely wont be 100 even is u are pregnant.So please dont take it so badly.I wish for BFP for u.

Mapia

Dana my girl! I know how you feel it is very tempting and I have certaintly had my months that I broke down and tested and got depressed. But it is way too early!!! I know the HPT say you can test 5 days before and this is probably why you did test but remember that if you are on any fertility medication the cycles are different and may not show up at the same time of a normal cycle w/ meds or injections on HPT. That is why we do BETA. Tommorrow will be DPO 14 for me and I have BETA. I will probably do HPT in the morning to give myself a heads up and ofcourse to torture myself. But you still have time ok so hang in there!!!!! Forget about that BFN testing day was not the right day so hang on to hope ok!!! GOOD LUCK!!!! You have a few more days to go!!!!

Oh Dana - I thought I was the only one possessed by the HPT demon!!!! I think I've done HPT at 10dpo for the last 12 cycles and I always get upset with myself cause 10dpo is way too early. That said, I can say with certainty that 9dpo is extremely early. So hang in there, hun.

And BTW, Mapia, I think I could by a house with all the money I have spent on HPT's and OPK's!!!!

ive been there done that, got mad at myself later.. and i dont know why i do such things to myself, it really ruins the rest of my 2ww because i just wante to have a drink stop al mkeds because im convinced it didnt work and i get moody and upset, so why do i do it?? WHO knows.. i guess im looking for an early miracle. hopeing for that amazing feeling of seeing 2 lines.. you alerady know it is too early, so try try try to snap outta it and realize that your period isnt even do for another 5 days... wait this time please.. :) i will keep you in my thoguths and prayers

Dana, don't get down on yourself. I've been there, done that too. Most of us have months that we cave. Just try to remember it is WAY too early and try to keep positive. This still could be your month. Sending you lots of BFP vibes!

Lori

I agree with many posters. 9DPO is too early. And I've had many disappointment with HPT. My motto is - never rely on the evil stick. It can't ward off AF from coming. Just sit and wait for her to visit.

Hi ladies, I am so sorry I didnt respond... I was on the road for 2 days and tried to respond via cell phone but it didnt work.


Holly - I PROMISE I will not test until 14dpo ... i told DH to hide the HPT's until tuesday ... so I think I am ok on that front ... thank you for the encouragement and the HUGS.... (right back at you)

Mapia - I have read in your other posts that you are a very patient person -- NOT ME -- I truly envy you ... but I think about it 24/7 and have always been impatient --- how do you do it?

Kathy - thank you so much for the support, I know you got your BFN today and so sorry about that ... but I think you should give IUI another try before you jump into the mad world of IVF .... GOOD LUCK!

Kari - I am definitely possessed by the evil demon... I start planning my week around the testing. (Internal dialogue: "If I test on sunday and its BFP then I can go to dinner at Mom and Dad's and tell them", etc etc) When are you testing?

ASPROUSEY05 - thanks for the support as well.... you nailed it when you said that you are looking for an early miracle .. i KNOW its too early but I think "well its happend before to get BFP so early so why not"... uchhhh frustrating!

Lori - thanks for the BFP vibes and the nice thoughts... I really appreciate you taking the time to make me feel better!

blueyedsmarty - you guys are right, it is way too early and hearing what your RE told you defintely brings that home. I will do MY BEST to refrain from now on!!!

Babywish - thanks so much for writing back to me ... Did you do a HPT or was it BETA ... I'm sorry I dont remember... :)

LADIES -- thank you for ALL of your support and wishes ... you are all so wonderful and this board is amazing. As I was reading some of your replies yesterday from my cell phone, I got sooooooo lifted and my depression wore off - so you really helped me get through yesterday!!

I hope I can do the same for you all when you are in need of it! BIG HUGS!!!!

-Dana.