Hi everyone,

OK so AF finally came and I am headed towards what should be me last attempt at IUI. Seeing RE Wed for b/w and u/s and being put on 225 of Follistim and 225 of Menupar on CD3 then CD6 taking Antigone and estrace w/ f/u, u/s and b/w I suppose that following Monday. This cycle is going to be rough as it will determine if I will got to IVF or even be a canidate for it. So if you guys don't mind to spare some prayers for me and anything else you can throw I would appreciate it.

Thanks so much!! I wish you all lot's of luck for a BFP!!!!

Kathy

Hey Kathy, I'm so glad to hear AF finally showed up for you! I know how exciting it is to start a new cycle. You already know I will be keeping a close watch over how everything progresses, and I will definitely send lots of prayers and BFP vibes your way. :angel: I especially hope you don't have to move onto IVF because this will do the trick for you. I know you don't have much hope left with IUI, and after 4 failed attempts, I completely understand that. Just remember this is only your current RE's 2nd attempt, so there is always a chance it will work. :blob_fire :blob_fire GOOD LUCK Kathy!!! I'll be pulling for you!

Holly :wave:

Kathy,

I'm so happy AF finally showed up and you can start a new cycle. I am sending all the BFP vibes and prayers I can your way. I really hope this is the one for you. I know this will be a hard cycle since you have so much extra to think about. I will be here to cheer you on all the way!

Lori

Hey Kathy.

I am thankful that AF showed up for you so you can get started on another cycle. I will definately be praying for you that this final IUI will work. I am sorry that you don't have much more faith in them and I don't blame you. But, maybe the last one will be the charm!! Like Holly said, this is only your new RE's second attempt at one!! I have high hopes for you!!:)

I will be praying for you as you go on stronger meds. You are a strong woman and I know you can handle it! You have more guts than I do. I don't think I could have undergone everything you have already been through.

Good luck!! Keep us posted on how this cycle progresses.:)

Anna Leigh

Thanks so much Holly, Lori and Anna Leigh!!! It has been a rough journey and I would have never believed it would have taken me so far into the depths of IF. But I am here and as much as I did not think I would ever have the strength to get here some how the strength get's there before you have time to think about it. We are all so strong to go through this. I want a medal darnet!! LOL!!! Anyway thanks for always be so supportive cyber buddies are better friends then a lot of "real" friends I have :)

I will keep you all posted and remember I will expect the same from all of you!!! :)

Deluka my girl u know u are in our prayers u dont even have to ask for them.I do wish u all the luck in the world and this time I will be praying for u as well every night when I pray for myself.This month might be rough considering they raised ur dose but we will be right here for u.Now I dont know Dh might want to ck into a hotel for the next few weeks......lol.Cause I am sure poor guy will get the best of the mood swings.Anyway just kidding with u.I feel bad for all of our DH's cause they not only have to put up with this craziness but when they see us like that they just dont know what to do and anything they do is not right.I know when I get real down and DH tries to cheer me up I am almost throwing things at him to leave me alone.He is like damn women u crazy.I said u havent seen anything yet.I try to keep it to myself so I close up thats my problem and I want to be left alone its for his sake to though so he wont get the yelling.He feels even worse cause he cant give me the child we so desperatly want.So thats why I try and keep my emotions to myself cause he is real sensitive and gets one of his migraines from his worrying about me.

In any case we are all going through rough times.Thats why I am so glad I found these boards cause I come here and get things off my chest I know I can yell and cry here and u guys wont take it personally.Cause u all know exactly what I am going through.Well I am praying for all of us to get BFP this cycle.And my bday is in March hopefully will get my present early.

Mapia

Hi Mapia,

Thanks so much. Hopefully the increase in dosage will not drive my DH to go to a hotel but as I crazy as I get at those times I might just yell at him one day and tell him to go to one!! LOL!! Only kidding! I would NEVER say that to him. My DH is very sensitive too. It is moslty a good thing but the problem is when I'm down he get's down too so there's no-one to lift the other one up. So I have learned when that happens we both have to get out of the house and get our minds off everything. Some days it does not work but a lot of the time if I am up to facing the world it does end up helping. :)

kathy

Wow Kathy that is the same way DH is he gets down I said u have to cheer me up whats wrong with u.He said I cant when I see u hurting I hurt more.So cute.So I have to try and stay strong.Its a tough job we women have but we are strong enough to do it.WellI am off to work talk to u all soon.

Mapia

Kathy - I want you to know that I have said a prayer for you - I very much hope this is your month. I appreciate all your support, you will be a great Mom one day.

Kathy,
I'm so sorry to hear about your last BFN.
Be strong and stay positive! I will pray that you will get the BFP that you've been waiting for this time around.
Just remember that no matter how difficult and trying these cycles are, there's always a silver lining to it. You will be a MOM one way or another!!!
Take care and stay positive.

Tini

Thanks Justdance and Tini!! I appreciate all your support. I have started praying to Saint Anne and Saint Gerard everyday and I include all you guys in my prayers!! Thanks again!

I will pray that this IUI is the one that will make your dreams come true Deluka!!!!!:)

Kathy-

Looks like you beat me in the race for AF. I am happy you get to start on your next (and we all pray last) cycle. What protocol are you on this round? From posts I have tried to read and catch up on, I think we may be on similar protocols!! In any case, I pray this is it for you!!

*Baby dust* *baby dust* *lemons-to keep bad things away* *baby dust*

Laurie

Deluka,
I just wanted to wish you the best of luck that this cycle works! I've read your posts and you have such a wonderful "personality". I'll be "rooting" and praying for you as well.
Best wishes and lot's of pos. baby vibes +++++ :)
S :)

Hi guys!!

Jsquared-thanks so much for the prayers I am hoping this last IUI will really do the trick!! Keeping fingers crossed. :)

laurie-I will be taking follistim 225 IU's and Menupor 225 IU's estrace for lining and Antagon. So I will basically become a hormonal science project for this next cycle. You can make me part of your class experiments. Let see how much more hormones can we inject in her before she is completely insane. I bet your class would like to see that!! LOL!! But all kidding aside what is up with your AF darnet!!! I thought you tried the formented (sp?) grapes?? Did they not work. That's it!! We need something more for you something like I don't know I have to think about it and my brain stops working after 8pm. I will think of something though!!!

S&J- that was so nice of you to say. thank you!!! Your very sweet. it has been a long road but I hope somethng good will come out of it and I think it will eventually :) thanks again!!

ok Adios girls DH is a-calling!!

Hi Kathy
Just wanted to let you know my heart goes out to you and I wish you the VERY best. After being a part of this group for less than a day I can already see what a vital and upbeat part of it you are. So lots of prayers coming your way and hoping for a BFP for you!

Ruby

Kathy, hun, I am so happy that AF finally arrived and you're gearing up to give it another go. I really, really hope this cycle does it for you and you don't have to try the IVF. But if (and I mean big IF) it comes down to it, I know that there is so much hope that comes along with moving on to that next step. The medical profession has come along way in the last decade with IVF and I know there is great promise there for those of us who decide to go that route. I'm probably looking at about 3 more months of trying before turning to IVF myself. I'd like you and me both to get our BFP's before that happens. In fact, I wish everyone on this board will get BFP's with this next cycle! I wonder what the record is for how many BFP's were achieved by hopefuls on this site in one month... wouldn't it be cool if we could outdo that record? And I have no idea what the average is... seems like there are usually only b/t 2-4 BFP announcements each month, maybe if that. It would rock if like 8-10 of us got BFP's within a few weeks of each other so we could all move on the preg board together!!! That'd be awesome. :angel:

I pray that the increase in hormones creates the perfect potion for you. If it turns out to be an emotional roller coaster the next couple weeks, you know where to turn :)

Hi Guys!

Ruby- thanks so much for the support and prayers. You are really going to like it here. These girls..and boys Paulie...are the best!! When I am down the really help bring me back up.

Kari- Your a sweet heart. Thanks! :) I am hoping for that too but I am ok to go to IVF. Just hoping I will be a canidate and that it will work. I was thinking of asking boss to work a 32 hour work week if start IVF. Not sure but I will think about it. Anyway thanks again. You know that I am cheering you on for a BFP!! I wouldn't want anyone to have to endure this for one more cycle. But I guess we don't get to choose. I hope god is moving us up on his list for BFP's I have been praying hard for all of us!!!

Thanks again guys!!!!

kathy

Hi everyone. I am back on the boards - I used to be Blueyed, remember me?
Just wanted to make sure you all knew who I was and didn't think I was a stranger.

Kathy! I have been thinking about you - I know you are gearing up for IUI #5. How exciting! I definitely feel you on the human science project idea. on my last cycle i was up to 4 injections per day. it was tough. but i would (and will) do it again in a heartbeat if it brings me a baby.

hope everyone is doing well. I am going to do some reading now to try to catch up on what has been happening over the last few days.

OOPS, sorry :)

Welcome back! Glad to hear from you!

Thanks Holly!
It feels good to be back in the circle. i missed everyone terribly!

Hi ***,

Hope all is ok... I am a bit confused though....but glad your back!!! I hope off due to your own will not somethig else. Your going to njoy our posts b/c some of the are quiet comical!! :) So what about you??? The last I remember you we went to the IVF meeting...but then I can't remember what after that.

I will be at 2-3 injectons not sure actually. I guess I will know more tomorrow at my b/w and u/s appt. Hope all is well!!

kathy

Hi Kathy.

Thanks for welcoming me back and asking about my tx. I am going to meet my new gyno tomorrow for a pap smear. my new clinic wanted an updated one before they will proceed. DH had his SA yesterday, they said we'll have the results in about a week. after meeting the new gyno - which i am hoping i like him since he'll be delivering my baby someday - i have to wait for AF to show. I plan on her arrival on or about 2/26. I am going to send her an engraved invitation so she hurries up and gets here so i can move on. after she arrives, both DH and me have to go for b/w on cd2 or cd3, mine of course is fasting for cortisol & insulin resistance and also for hepatitis, HIV, other diseases, etc. DH's is only for the diseases part. lucky him not having to fast. after the b/w comes back, I get to make my appt with the new RE and then we'll figure out how my next cycle will go, make a plan for meds, do a mock transfer, sonohysterogram, etc. that will be when it gets exciting. that will be when i will feel like i know what i am doing. i can't wait. but it makes me nervous. so right now just preliminary testing and i will just hang around and follow everyone else's treatments. i want to be here to support everyone even though i won't have much excitement to report for a while.

Hi Guys,

Joey- Thanks so much!! Keep us posted on your AI procedure so we can send you the baby dust essentials and extra prayers and +++vibes :)

***- Thanks for the update! Sound like your moving along I still wish I was joining you. But have to get a better ovarian response 1st. Hopefully if and when I get to IVF you will have a BFP to be thrilled about!! I hope the time flies by for you!!! Can you tell me what is a Mock transfer??? Is it a true transfer or is it just practice?? Keep us posted!!

kathy

Kathy u have u/s and b/w tomorrow I just read is it day 3?Well let us know how it goes I will be praying for u.

Mapia

Hi Kathy!
a mock transfer (some call it a trial transfer) is done before you ovulate in the cycle before you do an IVF cycle. they go in to measure your uterus, to see what shape it is, so that they can figure out the best place to place embryos on transfer day. they kind of want to have you mapped out in advance. my RE told me at first appt, they can do the mock transfer, the sonohysterogram, and all the cervical cultures they need to do all in the same appt. that will be good to get it all done at the same time. told me to take advil ahead of time for cramping from the procedures. yippee!

Thanks Mapia. I will start my injections tomorrow as well so I am hoping by next week I will have an idea of what my egg production will be with new meds. I will need all the prayers I can get. I found a really nice one from St. Gerard about praying that god blesses our marriage with a child. I wish I can send it to you but you know we're not allowed so you can do a google search :)

kathy

Hi Kathy!
a mock transfer (some call it a trial transfer) is done before you ovulate in the cycle before you do an IVF cycle. they go in to measure your uterus, to see what shape it is, so that they can figure out the best place to place embryos on transfer day. they kind of want to have you mapped out in advance. my RE told me at first appt, they can do the mock transfer, the sonohysterogram, and all the cervical cultures they need to do all in the same appt. that will be good to get it all done at the same time. told me to take advil ahead of time for cramping from the procedures. yippee!

Thanks!!! *** ( I don't know why but your names doesn't show**??) Just curious... I did not know they do that!! Very interesting. The cramping part UGH!! Why can't they just knock you out. If it's anything like the HSG I would HATE IT!!! I thought I was going to kick RE in the face I was hurting so bad I thought my leg would just react and break his nose!!! But some how I made it through. I hope it's less painful than that. Keep me posted. Remember you promised to share every detail of your IVF experience so when you have transfer please post to us how it went and how you felt and all that :)

Kathy thanks for the info I will do a search.I always pray for my girls here.

hey kathy! that is strange. my name doesn't show? like on the side of the board where everyone else's name is? when i spoke with the moderator they told me to come back on and tell everyone what the old name was so you would know who i was. i thought you could see it. I am using *** now for a name. all this technology confuses me!

did i ever post on here and tell about my old RE who told me about St. Gerard? i bought the prayer card and used to recite it every morning. couldn't find a statue at the religious store to put by my bed.

the transfer and sonohysterogram(they fill the uterus with saline solution and use u/s to look for surface lesions) are not like an HSG. no radiology involved, no needles, not as complex. it isn't supposed to be real painful. the cramps are from them opening your cervix to get inside. so i am not too nervous about it. more nervous because it is going to be my first naked visit with new RE. i am always a little weird about that. i have to get used to someone poking around in there.

Hi again,

That is weird... I just want you to be able to know when I am talking to you so I will try CB so you know. :) Ok so that does not sound as bad as HSG. GOOD!!! Yes b/c of YOU!! I looked into Saint Gerard!!!! I use to pray to Saint Anne but now I pray to her and him. He has a very nice prayer to say and I am saying it every day. So thank you for that!!! :)

you are welcome. glad i could help!

Sorry I'm late.

So, here you are my girl. My final IUI and second attempt with a new RE worked for me and I hope the same number work for you too. I've been reading about your progress but couldn't post you any message as the board keep refusing my login from my home internet. Now, I'm back to work after a long holiday (Chinese New Year) and will be around here to chat.

Your RE is doing fine by adjusting your protocol based on your past result. I have full confidence in you! Lots of luck and sticky baby dust to you.

Hi Kathy~

Hormonal science projects are nothing new for my class...they are SO used to me. :) Actually, you would fit in nicely. It's really sad...if I am raging in my first period class, my next period classes come by and check on me and offer me goodies just to apease me. I think its bribery, but who knows. BRING ME CHOCOLATE~ and lots of it!

If and WHEN AF shows for me (I am on day 35~ and I normally have 24 day cycles...I can plan a vacation around it) I will be on a similar protocol as you: 225 iu gonal f (like follistim- different name) & 225 menopur each day. YIPPEE!!! I can't wait to be a human pin cushion again. I have SO missed my bruises! RE wants to sit out on the Lupron this time...thank goodness! I think that made me almost homicidal! Poor, understanding DH. :) Unfortunatly, since I am now over 11 days late, I have done the whole POAS *just in case*, but alas, BFN all 7 times. Does EPT sell stock?

Keep us updated Kathy, I am praying this is your month! We need some good BFP's on this board!! Mapia, I think it's your turn too!!! :)


Laurie

Laurie thank you so much for ur prayers.I really pray for all of u every night.You really crack me up the way u say things u just have me rolling.I really look forward to reading ur posts.I know u will make me laugh.

Mapia

Kathy, So tomorrow's the big day, huh, with starting the meds.... I hope all goes well with it and I really wish you luck with the appt. Keep us posted!