well, today is 12 DPO. DW poas this AM. even with the HCG trigger, it was still negative. ( i know, i know... it is still early) We are going out of town this weekend to my brother in law's for a birthday party, and were hoping to have some potential good news. Not looking good so far.

I really dont know how to handle this. this will be 5 full cycles of IUI - 3 with stims. this past round was the best so far, in terms of lining, follies, and donor, the yin and yang aligning.

I have a feeling that this is going to be a very very long weekend. I know that the cycle isnt a bust until the AF witch shows up, but...

I am not feeling the vibe. last cycle we were so psyched that it was gonna work, we were crushed when it didn't. I feel like I am mentally preparing myself this round to just go through the motions. That is what it really feels like. I am becoming numb to anything that could happen.

She has had LOTS of symptoms, but all of them can be attributed to the Prometrium. She just wants to get off it. bloating, emotional roller coaster, nasua, light headedness, a case of the dropsies( but that is normal for her).

DW will be crushed (if) it doesnt work. All I can do is hold her head up when she cries. I dont know how I will react.

As always, I appreciate the good vibes. This board is like going to psychiatrist, without the office fees. ;)

paulieb

Paulie, I'm so sorry you and DW have to go through this. I can only imagine how heartbreaking it must be month after month of procedures with no success. I know it is hard enough for me to see AF come every month when we have only tried naturally. This month we will be doing our first IUI, and I am just terrified that we will be yet another couple trying again and again with no success. I'm hopeful, but afraid to be too hopeful. My BF thinks it is all a waste of time and wants to go straight to IVF, but there is no coverage for that and we simply can't afford it. So he definitely is numb about it...but still going through with it because it is our best option at this point. Anyway, I didn't mean to make this about me, I just know that it helps to see that people can kind of relate to what you are going through. I am sending HUGE cyber hugs out to you and DW. I will say many prayers for you guys that you do have that good news to share with your family.

Holly

Paulie, I am so sorry you are feeling like this cycle is a bust All this IF stuff just sends us on an emotional roller coaster. I've heard many people in your shoes end up with a BFP so I am hoping that you get a very pleasant surprise at the end of the weekend. Until then, sending you lots of +++++++++vibes.

Lori

i am so sorry you and dw are going through this.. and i know you know there is still a chance, but i can def relate to taking a test just a few days early and then "getting down" but you still have some hope to hold onto.. either way i will be praying hard for you and dw and i hope it was just too early too tell, and that her hcg will double in the next 48 hrs and you will get a positive HPT!!!!!! :angel: aimee

Hey Paulie. I am so sorry that you and DW are dealing with this right now. I want to echo the other ladies and say that there is still a chance that it is just too early. Are you guys at 12dpiui? I think you said you did do an IUI this month. Maybe you just need to wait until 14dpiui. My RE said to come in for beta at 14dpiui so, you see, it could just be too early to tell. I pray that is what is going on.

Good luck!!

Anna Leigh

hi paulie!

I was so sad to see your post. although there is still hope with this cycle so i am not going to let you give up yet!
i know what you mean about going through the motions. when we did our 4th IUI and it was towards the end of the 2ww i felt the same way. i just thought if 3 didn't work, how was 4 supposed to work? i know that was the wrong attitude but i am a realist and had to prepare myself for a failure. it is easier for me that way. and after that i just had had enough of the numbness. i had lost hope on IUI for us. and that's when i picked up the phone, called a new clinic and scheduled my IVF consult. i just needed to know i was going to try something new that might work for me.
but enough about me. this post is about you and i will hope and pray that soon you'll be posting about a bfp. and the only tears you'll see are tears of joy. someone has to get a bfp soon so why not you?

Hi Paulie, I know it's hard right now, and I've been right where you and DW are sitting many times before. You seem like such a wonderful, strong person and such a great support for DW... I can tell you both are so deserving of a baby. I hope so much for you guys that your test was just a bit too early and you end up with a miracle BFP. Will be praying for you.

wow.. another indy person! =) We were refered to Dr Gentry by DW's OB/GYN, and he is with Methodist. An office on the south side is always a good thing. Have to go to the north office for all iuis though. the u/s and b/w we can do on the south side office.

DW POAS again this morning.. still negative. still have a small *glimmer* of hope, but fading quickly. I am guessing she will start within 36 hours, probably today.

Paulie, I'm so sorry it was negative again. MAN, how I hate those evil HPT sticks! :mad: I'm still keeping everything crossed and praying for you guys BIG TIME. Keep that glimmer of hope! Is a BETA scheduled?

Holly

no beta scheduled, but since this is round 6 (3 iui, 3 iui with clomid/hcg trigger) we have another consult next friday. i am going to pull for an hsg. I think that should have been done after the first 3 negatives. If he wont do it or thinks it isnt necessary, we may be looking for another RE.

we are going out of town this weekend (of course) and would not be able to go in for a beta until at least monday if the witch doesnt show up.

*fingers crossed, but starting to slip*

I think an HSG would be an excellent move if this cycle doesn't work. Try to enjoy yourselves this weekend and keep your mind off things as much as you can. I know it is all consuming (it is ALL I think about), but if you can get your minds off it for just a few hours...

I will cross my fingers double for you guys...and my toes and arms and eyes and everything else. I hope the next test is positive. :angel:

Holly

Hey paulie!

I think an HSG is a great idea. My RE had me get one while i was on clomid and trying naturally. he said that was something that needed to be done well before moving on to injectables and before IUI. so i think you are quite smart for wanting one done. my RE even told me he wouldn't do IUI unless I had a lap. he wanted to rule out any possible physical problems before i got more involved.

Go Paulie! Speak your mind!

But of course you won't have to even worry about it because the bfp is coming! oh yes it is!

Paulie I cant understand why they dident do an HSG before starting IUI.My Re refused to do IUI without me doing HSG.I dident want to do it I told him I am fine no blockages but he said I will not do IUI without HSG to make sure we are not wasting our time and money.So I did it.Just for ur FYI.I really think u should demand a HSG.By the way I am in the same boat as u and DW using donor sperm.Good luck to u.

Mapia