Hi Guys,

I just got back from my u/s and b/w and ofcourse more bad news! :mad: I am so angry and frustrated that I wish I could punch something. Please excuse my mood but I will not be myself today. :(

Well today is CD3 and u/s showed that I have two possible new cysts or that I already have two follies at 14!!!! Since I have already been to an RE for the past 10 months I'm already pretty darn sure that my follies are growing too fast b/c this has been my issue in the past. My old RE was already aware of this issue (not that he really did anything that fixed it) but the records indicate this and my new RE still has not bothered to get them. I went CD1 last cycle even though they told be to go CD3, b/c knowing my hx I know my follies grow fast. Well, since last cycle was a flop I thought ok I will do what they say and go CD3 well now they are too big and we will have to cancel this cycle. The NP actually said Oh we probably should have seen you CD1!!! UGH!! I could have decked her!!! No sh** sherlock I have been telling you this and if you bothered to get my records you would KNOW this already w/o making me suffer and have to cancel a cycle!!Ofcourse I did not say this to her in this tone but I did relay how I felt in a nicer tone :rolleyes: . I know they requested the records but they should have gotten them by now!!!

They still say that b/w will have to confirm and we still have "a chance" for this cycle but even if there's cysts they may not do this cycle b/c I also have a cyst close to my R ovary and they may count that as cyst #3 and you son't do IUI with 3 cysts!!! So goodbye 5th IUI this cycle Oh and GREAT :dizzy: I have to wait EVEN LONGER for IVF :mad: !!!!! It will be a miracle if we proceed with this cycle but I don't even think I should if the are already doubting so much. I am just DONE!! I am OVER all of this. When will it all end :( I can't even adopt for another year if I wanted to in the states!! UGH!! No matter how I try to make things better and easier for myself all I do is hit a brick wall!!! Sorry I really had to vent. I don't like being a downer but today was too much!!

Thank you all for reading my long drawn out complaining!!! I hope you are all having a better day than I am.....

Kathy

Hey Kathy. I am so sorry!! I know that nothing I say will make you feel better but I still want to offer my sincerest concern for you. I can't even begin to imagine how you are feeling. I don't understand how the RE could be so laid back about everything, like getting your records. I mean, they should know that everyday counts and is important when dealing with IF. Is there nothing they can do, except to cancel?? What could they have done if they saw you at cd1? Could they have done something to keep your follies from growing so fast? Do you ovulate on your own really early? Can you and DH not just ttc with IUI without the meds?? I know that these questions are probably very irritating to you since you would do all of this if you could, but I am just feeling so desperate for you. I can't stand it when I can't give someone an answer to make them feel better.

I am sorry!! Good luck to you. I pray that something can be done to save this cycle.

Anna Leigh

Oh no kathy! I can't believe it! Those darn cysts are messing you up! How frustrating! I can totally see why you'd be mad. and to think you already knew about the cd1 vs. cd3 thing - why didn't they listen to you? Maybe you can punch a pillow.
I know how much it sucks to have to wait it out, when all you want to do is move forward. i kind of feel that way now - it is going to take me 2 months before i can start my IVF cycle and i just want it to hurry up and be here already. but always a roadblock. rats!
when will you hear from the doc about proceeding or cancelling? i will hold out hope for you that 2 cysts is all you have and you can go on. but if not, and you get bad news, let it all out girl. use this board for venting. we are all here to listen and support you. and we share in your disappointment.
i am so sorry this day had to have such an unexpected turnout.
maybe we should start an IF kickboxing class? and put the nurses pictures on the punching bags :)

Kathy honey I am so sorry to hear this BS.By the way u can vent all u want thats why we are here.Now to understand u a little better the follies measuring 14 are follies or cycsts.I mean 14 mm at 3 days that weird never heard of follies getting so big so fast.Anyway I am just not understading all this.Maybe I am just stupid and sorry for the stupid questions but this seems really crazy to be that u would have a follicle at 14 on day 3.I know this is all bad news and I am not going to try and say something to make u feel better cause there is nothing I could say or do to make u laugh.Unless u see me on a special report peeing on HPTs at the local store?????Would that help I will do it for u.Just say the word.Ok I need to stop I know u are not in the mood.

Anyway hun I am so sorry and u vent all u want I will be here to listen so will the girls I am sure.

Mapia

Oh Kathy, I am so disappointed for you! You have every right to be frustrated, upset, angry, whatever. Let it all out. I remember when I had to switch OBGYN's, it took FOREVER for my records to get transferred from my old dr to the new one. I had to call several times, and it was extremely frustrating But we weren't seeing specialists yet and we had no idea about IF. You must be frustrated 100 times over! :mad: You would really think your RE would not be so laid back about it!

I know you don't want to wait this cycle out. We have all been waiting long enough - too long if you ask me. But if that is what happens, we will be here helping you to get through it and pass the time. I truly hope that won't be the case though. I will say an extra prayer for you that those cysts go away on their own and your cycle can be saved. Sending lots of hugs your way.

Do you have any lemons left or do you need a new shipment?

Holly

Oh, sweetie, I am so sorry :( I can hear the sadness and frustration in your message. I can only imagine how you are feeling. This is so not fair, you deserve to have the perfect cycle with a BFP at the end. I know I can't make you feel better but vent here all you like. I will be here to listen. I am still holding out hope for this cycle though. Maybe you're b/w will come back and you can do an imperfect cycle and get the perfect BFP. In the meantime, I'm sending you lots of lemons to squeeze.

Lori

Kathy,
I'm very sorry to hear your news. However, I will keep up hope that your b/w will bring better news and that hopefully, there is a possibility that they just catch an early ovulation with IUI.
I know that there is nothing that can be said to will make the disappointment any easier, but at least they didn't completely shut the door for this month yet.
Michelle

Hi Guys,

Thanks I would answer you all individually but I just can't today. :( Bascially they don't know if it is a cyst or follies. The b/w will confirm.. but I have a hx of follies growing to fast and if he catch it on CD1 it usually slows down the process by taking Antagon along with the follistim. But if they are follies my lining will not have time to catch up and I would think the eggs will be immature. I always worried this is why I miscarried the 1st time but between me and DH's issues who the heck knows!!! Playing the waiting game now...when the nurse calls I will voice my complaints again. I have a meeting to go to at noon, CST and not sure when I will be back. Thanks agai for letting me vent. This just sucks!!!

Hi Kathy

gosh its been abad day on these boards. I feel like every post is someone losing their minds... rightfully so. I cant even imagine what you are going through and know that nothing any of us say will make you (or anyone else having a day day) feel better.

But know that we are here to listen to you whenever you want to talk (type). Our thoughts are with you!!! Maybe this will be your rockbottom and next month will be your pickmeup!

kathy im soooo sorry!!!! you vent all you need... im so sorry you are dealing with this.. any kind of set back just plain SUCKS!!!! i want to tell you to not give up, but i know thats not going to make you feel any better.. so i just want you to know that im thinking and praying hard for you that things work out !!! hopefully now that this RE has the records that they should have previously had i hope they do a better job then your last re with monitoring you and your fast growing follies.. good luck hun, and dh should def. do something really really really nice for you!! i know it takes some time to get outta these "moods" sometimes because IF is on our minds ALWAYS ;) but i hope you can find something to make you happy and look forward ...
Aimee

Ok I see my girls are in bad moods damn I need to start whipping some bu!!.Can I start with ur RE and nurses Kathy.I dont like to see my girls upset makes me real mad.I get very protective of the people I care about.Who else needs me to whip some bu!! for them just let me know.Kathy I am truely sorry I will be praying that the blood work comes out fine and u can proceed this cycle.I will be thinking of u all day.

Mapia

Thanks Aymie, Aimee,& Mapia,

I can't change it so I guess I have to grunt and bare it!! I am 90% sure this cycle is a no go. I just so desperately wanted to see how I respond to see if I can even be a candidate for IVF. Now I have to wait even longer to find that out!! Life can really be cruel and unffair!!! I sware I feel like some-one put a curse on me sometimes. Mapia- don't worry I am so angry I will do all the kicking but* to that nurse. This is the part that sucks about getting a 2nd opinion you really do start all over b/c they don't know how your body works yet. Even if you try to tell them they think the know better. Anyway thanks again. I am sure I won't get ANY work done today. Not that I do so much other days. At least god blessed me w/ an easy going job and boss.

kathy

Kathy I really wish things were better for u.U dont deserve all this, u are a great person.I will keep praying for u no matter what.

Mapia

Kathy, I hate that this cycle is a possible no go. But please do feel free to vent. You have put all of this IF in perspective for me and I am so sorry. I can't imagine how much longer it will feel to wait one more month before being able to move forward. We are here for you to let all your anger and frustration out.

Anna Leigh

Kathy,
You mentioned something about your lining not being able to "catch up" if you ovulate early. I've had lining issues too - they speculate that might have been the reasons for my last m/c. My RE has had me take an estrogen pill vaginally at night for 4 days before my IUI to increase it and it worked both times. This time because I took 5 days of Follistim (sp?) that wasn't necessary. Just an idea but you might want to check with your RE about it.
Michelle

I'm so sorry to hear that you may have a cyst. It's so frusturating to have to wait!!!! You have every reason to be upset and vent.....Lord knows we all need that every now and then. I will be praying that things turn out better for you!!! Hang in there (as hard as it is to do that!!!:)
Tabaya

Hi Michelle,

Thanks I already take estrace b/c of lining but still have a problem. In this particular case if they are my follies it's way to early and since they would not see me until CD 3 it's probably too late for the lining to catch up and I am afraid the eggs may not be good quality.

Tababya_ thanks for the response. I wish I could sleep through this entire cycle.

For everyone else that responded thanks so much you supoprt means a lot to me.

kathy

Kathy, sweetie - I just got online and got your bad news .... I am so sorry you are dealing with this BS and I hope you feel better!!! I can just imagine how frustrating all this must be.

Just know you're in our thoughts and prayers!!!

-Dana.

Thanks Dana Your always so sweet and supportive!! Eventually I iwll get over it just don't think it will be today. Thanks again :)