I was doing well. Until someone in the office put out a plate of treats. I refused to take one - I'm stronger than that.

But on my second pass I couldn't help it. I'd just eat a small piece and throw the rest in the garbage. That way I won't want to eat it later.

As soon as I swallowed I knew I made a mistake. I have to get rid of it. I feel regretful.

No, wait, that's bad. Think about it for a moment, the feeling will pass. Fill out your impulse log. That will help. I am stronger than this.

But I don't have much time. If I wait too long it will be too late. What if there's something good for dinner? Something better? If I eat now I'll ruin my whole evening.

Too late. It's gone.

I feel regretful. :mad:

Man, bulimia must be hard. I myself suffer from anorexia and SI. It sounds so painful to throw up everything. [removed]

I always feel like that after eating any bad foods

My house is filled with my families biscuits & chocolate :rolleyes:

My habit is to chew the food and spit it out, just so i can get the taste

It's so annoying when you feel ashamed to say no to the fod others are eating :mad:

I wish people understood the situation they put us in, maybe then they wouldn't buy the food or offer it out

I hate me

I think this is really the underlying issue you have to work on to overcome an ED. How can you take care of yourself if you hate yourself?

Going to therapists and dieticians and psychiatrists is all good & fine but if you don't work on the underlying issues for yourself, you will never overcome the ED.

That is what I had to face. The possibility of living the rest of my life that way, dieting all the time, exercising all the time, abusing diet pills, laxatives, just filled me with despair and made me feel very, very tired. I felt I'd rather be dead than continue living that way until I did die.

Do I still have body image isssues? Yes! But I had them when I was super-skinny too and should have been sent away to the nearest hospital. I never felt thin enough.

So, now I'm at a healthy weight and have been for about 5 years now with body image issues but I have energy again, my life isn't consumed by food & exercise (I actually HAVE a life!), my hair is thick & shiny, my skin looks awesome instead of sallow & flaky, and I'm not depressed any more! I have 1-2 bad days each month, but I feel they are hormonal & related to my menstrual cycle. I actually LIKE the person I am now, and now my mentality pretty much is, "I have overcome my ED; now I can do anything!" There is not much that is more difficult than overcoming an ED, and when you do win out over it, you feel confident and strong and like you can do anything.

I hope you will stop hating yourself and work on loving yourself instead. It is not easy but definitely worth it!