okay i need a super fast reply. things have been funny lately and for ther past week ive been burning. i went over burns last ngiht, and held ice on my stomach for 30mins. i woke up this morning and cannot move. its hard to bend over, ive been applying cream all day. its really angry looking, red and raised. my skin like the size of your baby finger nail begain coming off as i was doing martial arts in class leaving small patches of raw skin. my skin is all wrinkly looking and i can feel the heat off it. its kinda bumpy now were small parts of skin have swoll a bit.the whole brun is a bit bigger than the aplm of your hand- it hasnt blistered yet as far as i can see-do you think it will?? what im asking is do you think i should go to my doctor and get something,its so hard to hide as im walking like a penguin. i hope this isnt to graphic and im not condoning anything here-i just need to know what to do. please help fast-its so painful. thanks, xox take care peeps.

Pucca, what are you doing! What is going on with you!

hi-thank you soooo much for replying. i know im sorry-i dont really know what im doing. i started doing more burns and now its the most addictive thing EVER! i decided after that burns id lave it for a while. then today i tried to distract myself for going on a long walk. by the end of it, im home and waiting for my parents to go to bed-i need to do it again. i dont know why but i need the skin to melt away. that may be disgusting to a lot of people, but i need it. i mahy book an app woth my doc for wednesday-i know if i dont ill keep going and going, i think i need her to give me a kick-or at least put something over it, what do you think??? please help, sannah etc. ps-dakota if your on can you please help me, thanks and take care, xox

pucca,

i thought your psych appt is this coming tues???

as for your burns, are they closed enough so you can put some bacitracin on there? it's something used for cuts and burns....(it's more of an antibiotic to prevent wound infection)
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and i'm coming over now, if you keep doing it!

hey dakota-yep my app is on tuesday, thank god! ive been putting antiseptic stuff and all on it, and cooling stuff-but it aint really working very well. lol- when you said youre coming over this image of some random person is spandex bursting through the soor in a bright light cme into my head. :)-it made me smile. thanks for your help guys, xox

LOLOLOL pucca!!!!!!!!!!

me in spandex?????? ????? thanks for the laugh, but try a pair of slacks and a suit jacket, or if it were summer, a skirt and a shirt! those are my "uniforms"....lol

but if you don't quit doing that stuff with ice and salt, lemme tell ya, i CAN come over there, and, and, ..... you ain't gonna do that stuff no more, ok?

now, you say you're doing that stuff to hurt yourself so you don't feel the emotional pain. well, now you're hurting physically. is it worth it???

last night when i recommended for you to buy some bacitracin to put on the skin, it was probably too late there and everything was closed. here, we have pharmacies and stores that are open for 24-hours.

go to a store/pharmacy today and get a tube of that, and if the skin is not open, or broken apply some on it. then, i'd suggest you go to the emergency room. if you have to make up a story as to what happened, do it, since you'll probably be embarrassed to say what you did to yourself, and people won't understand, and you'll be afraid. i'm not at all comfortable with telling you this (to lie) but i feel for you, since you're struggling so damn hard these days, and i don't know why.

and i still think you should tell your parents. you BETTER tell you counselor tomorrow that you didn't tell your parents about any of this!!!

let us know how it goes tomorrow, and PLEASE don't do it anymore!!!!!

sannah??? what else can i tell this woman friend of ours?
maybe you have some more words/ideas, cuz i've ran out!

oh pucca!

Pucca, I am sorry that I couldn't post more these past few days. Been really busy. Pucca, when I asked what is going on with you I meant what are you feeling? Something is going on with you in your head and you are not dealing with it.

hey guys-lol, dakota you make be laugh out loud to myself. i appreciete that you care :)

well, today-after i did it again alst night i was ready to call NHS direct(in the UK-health service) at 1:00 in the morning and ask what the hell i should do. the pain was almost unbearable and i had held the ice on until it melted. so i woke up today the same, my stomach is swollen were it is burnt, it is broken in parts for some reason-but not bleading, there is uneven skin and an almost non-existant blister. its hard to move, the burn is from the top of my ribs to my bellybutton-is that big or to see a doc do you need to have major burns?? please help!

im seeing the counsellor tomorrow and will tell her-what wlls he do?? will she look at it? i also booked an app with my doc, i cant move and relly need something for this-but cant see her untilm wednesday. will she need to have a look at it?? i worried its nothing and im wasting her time.

sannah-i actually have no idea, i cant think what im not dealing with, i think its just a new -hase again. i like taking care of the wounds-gives me something to do. maybe its cos my doc thinks im not trying-which i took as'your problems are stupid and it shouldnt be so damn hard to pull yourself together'-i know logically thats not what she means, i just feel at my wits end and this provides focus.

i texted my martial arts instructor and told him i got burnt with boiling water so go easy and also that i may not make the seminar on wed. was that a bad idea?? i told him not to talk about it infront of my brother-he knows i have depression and anxiety-do you think he has guessed its self harm?? please help guys, xox

can you go to the dr. today--to have your stomach looked at and treated? say it's an emergency. and don't think about what she may think about you. just go!!!
she won't do anything else, but treat your stomach!!!!!

if you tell the counselor tomorrow, she/he won't probably do much, as long as you've gotten yourself some treatment! that would show the counselor that you actually care about yourself enough to get better after hurting yourself. that you've got insight. that you need to work on emotional things that underlie all of this hurting yourself.

you're angry at your doc bec she told you that time that you're not trying hard enough--that's why you say you're doing it. PLEASE discuss this with the counselor tomorrow. PLEASE. if not, i'm def. coming over!!!!!!!

pucca, I'll bet you are right, all this self-harming has something to do with the interactions with your doc. You had basically stopped harming for a long time and this new round here was really punishing! Please, next time instead of hurting yourself, please try to think of what emotions that you are not dealing with instead.