DeadFish
03-03-2007, 01:30 AM
I'm just 'checking in' (read: crawling out from under a rock) and catching up with all the posts I've missed reading (and gaining from!).
So many determined individuals taking back control of their lives like I'm still trying to do. Oh yeah, I know, we cannot REALLY take control of our lives, but we can those cigarettes!!!
Still battling the side effects of Chantix and my mind.
The worst problems I've had is the interruption of my beauty sleep WAY too early, and the anger that stems from it. I've been fairly high-energy all my life, and it seems this experience seems a little extreme at times.
I gave up sugar back in September, and now 32 days (count 'em!) without a cigarette! :) And getting where I only do a couple of cups of coffee a day.
Heck, I ran most of my adult life on this stuff!
But still no 'natural' help with the sleep. Lack-of-sleep always got me smoking again in the past, but my doctor has been kind to let me try Ambien, Rozeram and Xanix. SO, getting 4-6 hours of sleep, kinda depending but at least I'm sleeping!! I have to admit though that I'm disappointed that I haven't seen Lincoln, a beaver or spacepeople yet. Poor advertising.
And oh yes, the side effect of gas....any suggestions? The last couple of weeks even the DOG leaves the room, it just doesn't stop!
But this stuff is small potatoes! 32 days for me is like 12 more than I've ever done since a teenager! I'll take estranging my friends, strangers and even my dog while this lasts. It is nigh on impossible for me to believe I've gotten this far.
And look at you guys! You are doing it too! Who'da thunk it, once-upon-a-time?!
Really want to thank all you folks for keeping the ball rolling around here. I'm kind of cyclic in my moods and don't even light up the computer sometimes. My big-time hobby is my stereo and I haven't turned it on in a couple of weeks, which is disturbing, but I have hope and faith that once this internal monster having a temper-tantrum inside me is finally put-down for the little thing I'm determined to make it, life will be better. Besides, I have LOTS of tunes in my head!;)
And one last thing: I've gotten to be a big believer in 'synchronicity'. The last couple of days, I've had a couple or 3 times when I REALLY wanted a smoke. Rather than bow to that this evening, I emailed a friend who has been wearing a patch for a while, but still smoking, telling I was pulling for him, if he wants to quit bad enough. Darned if he didn't call me back for a long conversation, and I hoped I helped him think through his quit a little better because he surely helped me think mine through a little more.
"One hand washes the other", I guess.
Thanks one and all for being 'another hand' that has helped my quit stay going. Hang in there folks! Even farting the smell of death itself is better done freely than the stink as a slave to tobacco!
(and please pardon my free use of the language.)
Best Regards,
DeadFish
So many determined individuals taking back control of their lives like I'm still trying to do. Oh yeah, I know, we cannot REALLY take control of our lives, but we can those cigarettes!!!
Still battling the side effects of Chantix and my mind.
The worst problems I've had is the interruption of my beauty sleep WAY too early, and the anger that stems from it. I've been fairly high-energy all my life, and it seems this experience seems a little extreme at times.
I gave up sugar back in September, and now 32 days (count 'em!) without a cigarette! :) And getting where I only do a couple of cups of coffee a day.
Heck, I ran most of my adult life on this stuff!
But still no 'natural' help with the sleep. Lack-of-sleep always got me smoking again in the past, but my doctor has been kind to let me try Ambien, Rozeram and Xanix. SO, getting 4-6 hours of sleep, kinda depending but at least I'm sleeping!! I have to admit though that I'm disappointed that I haven't seen Lincoln, a beaver or spacepeople yet. Poor advertising.
And oh yes, the side effect of gas....any suggestions? The last couple of weeks even the DOG leaves the room, it just doesn't stop!
But this stuff is small potatoes! 32 days for me is like 12 more than I've ever done since a teenager! I'll take estranging my friends, strangers and even my dog while this lasts. It is nigh on impossible for me to believe I've gotten this far.
And look at you guys! You are doing it too! Who'da thunk it, once-upon-a-time?!
Really want to thank all you folks for keeping the ball rolling around here. I'm kind of cyclic in my moods and don't even light up the computer sometimes. My big-time hobby is my stereo and I haven't turned it on in a couple of weeks, which is disturbing, but I have hope and faith that once this internal monster having a temper-tantrum inside me is finally put-down for the little thing I'm determined to make it, life will be better. Besides, I have LOTS of tunes in my head!;)
And one last thing: I've gotten to be a big believer in 'synchronicity'. The last couple of days, I've had a couple or 3 times when I REALLY wanted a smoke. Rather than bow to that this evening, I emailed a friend who has been wearing a patch for a while, but still smoking, telling I was pulling for him, if he wants to quit bad enough. Darned if he didn't call me back for a long conversation, and I hoped I helped him think through his quit a little better because he surely helped me think mine through a little more.
"One hand washes the other", I guess.
Thanks one and all for being 'another hand' that has helped my quit stay going. Hang in there folks! Even farting the smell of death itself is better done freely than the stink as a slave to tobacco!
(and please pardon my free use of the language.)
Best Regards,
DeadFish
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wailana
03-03-2007, 02:12 AM
Thanks for the inspiration. You're doing it! Nice to meet you...I've been coming to the boards for the past month. The folks on the board have been so supportive and inspiring. It's been great. It's still hard for me to believe that I'm smoke free. Thanks again for your post. And...your incredible, too!
Wailana - Free and Healing for Twenty Two Days, 10 Hours and 22 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 18 Hours, by avoiding the use of 224 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $58.15.
Wailana - Free and Healing for Twenty Two Days, 10 Hours and 22 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 18 Hours, by avoiding the use of 224 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $58.15.
Memaw649
03-03-2007, 02:46 AM
Deadfish,
Congratulations on being 32 days smoke free!!
YEA and YEEHAW!!!:blob_fire
About the gas....The Chantix caused me to be able to toot a tune!! It lasted for about 2 months. Gas X helped some.
You need to stop by more often!! We love hearing from successful quitters!! And you do have a way with words!!:wave:
Wailana,
22 days!!! WOOOHOOO!!
Keep it up!! Doing good!!
Memaw:)
Congratulations on being 32 days smoke free!!
YEA and YEEHAW!!!:blob_fire
About the gas....The Chantix caused me to be able to toot a tune!! It lasted for about 2 months. Gas X helped some.
You need to stop by more often!! We love hearing from successful quitters!! And you do have a way with words!!:wave:
Wailana,
22 days!!! WOOOHOOO!!
Keep it up!! Doing good!!
Memaw:)
True Brit
03-03-2007, 07:33 AM
Deadfish
Congrats on 32 days:blob_fire
That feeling of "can't be bothered" should slowly ease a little each day. I think it's a nicotine withdrawal symptom. Renewed enthusiasm for life comes along with an abundance of energy during month 2 in my experience.
Congrats on 32 days:blob_fire
That feeling of "can't be bothered" should slowly ease a little each day. I think it's a nicotine withdrawal symptom. Renewed enthusiasm for life comes along with an abundance of energy during month 2 in my experience.
mangojunky
03-03-2007, 09:12 AM
Hey deadfish - CONGRATS on day 32!!!!! I have been sleep deprived as well, and that is a BAD thing. I keep telling myself that it's only temporary, and that keeps me going. I have a feeling that when I wean myself off the chantix, I'll be dealing with some depression - always happens when I quit, but I'll give myself a few days, and if that doesn't work, I'll call my dr.
Hang in there!
deb
Hang in there!
deb
Skimmer
03-03-2007, 12:44 PM
Deadfish! Congrats on Day 32! I'm only one week into my quit, but I think it was your original post that got me coming to these boards, so "THANK YOU". And I'm so happy that so many new quitters have joined since. Maybe we can get the whole world to quit someday!! I might even think about selling my Altria stock, since nobody will be buying cigs anymore (heehhee).
Good luck and keep up the great work Deadfish - everything will work out in the end, your body is just in shock from detox, it will all get better with time...
:wave:
Good luck and keep up the great work Deadfish - everything will work out in the end, your body is just in shock from detox, it will all get better with time...
:wave:
DeadFish
03-04-2007, 03:36 PM
Thanks again, so much folks for all the encouragement.
I dreamed up a saying long ago that :"Life isn't serious, but it's always personal."
I've taken everyone's words real personal and I am uplifted.
And Hey Deb! I had 8 hours sleep last nite, imagine that!!!
(seems like an unnatural act lately!);) Anything *IS* possible!
I know all of us have our 'cravings' or worse yet the off-times when it is just a rotten feeling that we might think wouldn't be there if we were back to our old poisonous lifestyle. "Depression' can be another word applied here, and I've always thought I had more than my share.
However, in my heart, I believe in dualities of everything. An example could be that the more dark it gets, the easier it is to see the merest glimmer of light.
So too, I think my 'darknesses of spirit' with this quit have set me up for some of the most transformational joys. These too have strengthened me incredibly.
Here, another example: I work a small retail shop several days a week and we get familiar faces from repeat customers. You know that old saw of "How ya doin'?" is passed, heck, I've been smiling broad and saying 'XX days without a smoke!". And you know, I cannot tell you how many people have broken out in a grin and said 'Good for YOU!' and it isn't just passing words.
And things like this fill me up, and make those 'dark hours' have less power.
Yet, I could have never found these moments, without those darknesses....
Catharsis doesn't come cheap.
'Scuse the philosophizing, but I hope someone can remember it when you need it most...
Highest Regards,
DeadFish
I dreamed up a saying long ago that :"Life isn't serious, but it's always personal."
I've taken everyone's words real personal and I am uplifted.
And Hey Deb! I had 8 hours sleep last nite, imagine that!!!
(seems like an unnatural act lately!);) Anything *IS* possible!
I know all of us have our 'cravings' or worse yet the off-times when it is just a rotten feeling that we might think wouldn't be there if we were back to our old poisonous lifestyle. "Depression' can be another word applied here, and I've always thought I had more than my share.
However, in my heart, I believe in dualities of everything. An example could be that the more dark it gets, the easier it is to see the merest glimmer of light.
So too, I think my 'darknesses of spirit' with this quit have set me up for some of the most transformational joys. These too have strengthened me incredibly.
Here, another example: I work a small retail shop several days a week and we get familiar faces from repeat customers. You know that old saw of "How ya doin'?" is passed, heck, I've been smiling broad and saying 'XX days without a smoke!". And you know, I cannot tell you how many people have broken out in a grin and said 'Good for YOU!' and it isn't just passing words.
And things like this fill me up, and make those 'dark hours' have less power.
Yet, I could have never found these moments, without those darknesses....
Catharsis doesn't come cheap.
'Scuse the philosophizing, but I hope someone can remember it when you need it most...
Highest Regards,
DeadFish
SanyBelle
03-04-2007, 04:34 PM
I've been smiling broad and saying 'XX days without a smoke!". And you know, I cannot tell you how many people have broken out in a grin and said 'Good for YOU!' and it isn't just passing words.
Congrats on the quit DeadFish!!! :blob_fire :blob_fire How many days do you have? Keep coming back! :) :blob_fire :angel:
Congrats on the quit DeadFish!!! :blob_fire :blob_fire How many days do you have? Keep coming back! :) :blob_fire :angel:
Marguerite J
03-05-2007, 12:46 AM
Congrats & Way to go on being 34 days smoke free!!! :blob_fire :blob_fire
Marguerite
Marguerite
mangojunky
03-05-2007, 07:18 AM
Congrats on the 8 hours of sleep!!!!!!! :blob_fire
I have cut back to 1 mg/day. 1/2 pill in am, 1/2 pill in afternoon. This has helped a bit, and I feel more rested. I did notice a change in myself after a few days - more tired, more cranky, but I know this is part of the quitting game and I have faith that it will go away. Smoking certainly will not make that better. My attitude is - I can work through this, and the reward will be amazing!
You have made it over a month - that is incredible!!!!!
Great job!
deb
I have cut back to 1 mg/day. 1/2 pill in am, 1/2 pill in afternoon. This has helped a bit, and I feel more rested. I did notice a change in myself after a few days - more tired, more cranky, but I know this is part of the quitting game and I have faith that it will go away. Smoking certainly will not make that better. My attitude is - I can work through this, and the reward will be amazing!
You have made it over a month - that is incredible!!!!!
Great job!
deb
KConnolly
03-05-2007, 06:59 PM
Congratulations DeadFish on 35 days!!!
You and I both quit the same day, so it's real easy for me to remember how long it's been. I have been sitting here laughing for a good solid five minutes about your description of having gas and the DOG leaving the room because it was so bad. :dizzy: Trust me when I say that I can relate. Not sure if it's just me or the improved ability to smell since I quit. (Still laughing here...)
I loved your "philosophizing". It made a lot of sense to me. I guess every black cloud really does have a silver lining. You sure have been a true inspiration to folks on this board. So here's a big pat on the back to you! :wave:
Thank you!!!
Kevin__
You and I both quit the same day, so it's real easy for me to remember how long it's been. I have been sitting here laughing for a good solid five minutes about your description of having gas and the DOG leaving the room because it was so bad. :dizzy: Trust me when I say that I can relate. Not sure if it's just me or the improved ability to smell since I quit. (Still laughing here...)
I loved your "philosophizing". It made a lot of sense to me. I guess every black cloud really does have a silver lining. You sure have been a true inspiration to folks on this board. So here's a big pat on the back to you! :wave:
Thank you!!!
Kevin__
Memaw649
03-06-2007, 01:46 AM
Deadfish,
Congratulations on 35 days!!
I love your posts! Very entertaining and also inspirational!!
Keep us the good work and good luck to you!!:angel:
Memaw:)
Congratulations on 35 days!!
I love your posts! Very entertaining and also inspirational!!
Keep us the good work and good luck to you!!:angel:
Memaw:)