Well, they put me on lamictal, wellbutrin, and, if needed, seroquel. In fighting these addictions, has anyone thought "Screw it, I just want my oxys/vics/whatever back" They were illegal, but I felt good on them and it's just not worth all this? I know that's the addict talking, but today it is how I feel.

yes... I did that 4 months too long. I fought for my drugs,I talked myself out of stopping"I have real pain' which I did. I even said " I'm not like normal people-I need this to be normal"! I still belive that! Unfourtunatly that may be my ultimate downfall-even though I still consider myself clean.

oh...btw what is lamical?

mood stabilizer/anti convulsant med....they us it in bipolars and epileptics.

Yes, but I think that about cigarettes a lot. And sometimes I get so depressed I feel that way about life.

Please don't worry about me, I am going to an AA meeting in about 1/2 hour.

Well, they put me on lamictal, wellbutrin, and, if needed, seroquel. In fighting these addictions, has anyone thought "Screw it, I just want my oxys/vics/whatever back" They were illegal, but I felt good on them and it's just not worth all this? I know that's the addict talking, but today it is how I feel.

Mental health and addictions are two worlds apart. They never have been the same issue no matter how much people tell you that. Always take care of your mental health.

You ask has anyone thought Screw it? Well, the most natural thing for us addicts and alcoholics to do is to drink and use. It is unnatural for us to be clean and sober. So we all think that at one time or another, the battle cry of the alcoholic....."Screw it" and then we can either trudge forward or turn and run. Those that turn and run sometimes make it back, sometimes not.

By going to meetings, reading both Big Books, talking to a sponsor, working the steps. I put out insurance on me not thinking that thought. I build an invisible force field around me to help me when I cannot help myself.
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Well, i've read and heard that over 60% of bipolars "self-medicate", and that's what I've been doing up until a month ago. So, does that mean I'm not an addict? Just someone with a mental illness that self-medicated? Honestly, I believe I'm both. But on a positive note, I am 31 DAYS CLEAN!!! And no matter what happens, NO ONE can take that from me....i made that accomplishment....and thanks to all who helped me!!