Hi everyone- I posted earlier in the week about falling back into vicodin use. Tues. I refilled the script & took 6. I never got that " good feel " we addicts crave. Right away nausea, headaches, & horrible itching set in. Wed. I took 8 W/ the same terrible physical effects. Thurs. night my addictive mind took over. I kept taking them trying to feel better. I know how crazy this sounds. I took at least 25. I have been in horrible shape since. I don't know what to do. I want to stop this but don't know how. Yesterday I only took 3. I had a horrible night, woke up in a pool of sweat. I have that feeling like I'm going to die or loose what's left of my mind. This site is for those who want to recover. I do. What do I do ? Should I take a few the next few days or stop cold. I'm new to pill addiction but have always had an alcohol problem. Haven't drank in over a year. I took these pills too lightly. I sure would appreciate any advice. Why is my body reacting to these pills this time ? I'm desperate. Thanks, Mike

Mike,

Hugs to you! I know how desperate you feel, I quit c/t 12 days ago from a hydro addiction...I took 3-4 per day for 2 years...While my quantity of pills wasn't very much, my w/d's sucked...But, if you want to change you will have to go through them....I am on day 12 today and I couldn't feel better!! I acutally took my kids (twins that are 4) to the park today and we all played together...It was unreal that I actually had the energy to do that!!!!!! When people say that everyday gets better, IT'S TRUE!! You have to want to do it though and I promise you that I haven't felt this good in over 2 years....I know its still going to be a long road..but what has saved me is going to NA meetings as well and these boards....It's nice to meet people face to face and know you are NOT alone....I will be thinking of you!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

:hugs:
-B

Mike,

Just stop. Don't take anymore...you shouldn't go through withdrawal as it has been a long time since you abused (prior to this one). Just hang on and don't take anymore.

Hi Mike
Just breath in and breath out and don't use anything inbetween.
Thank someone for those gifts
Kadee

Mike, it's a two stage process, 1st you get clean from the drug; that means roughing it out in the chosen way. Then after that you must move quickly onto the process of getting sober or else there's a higher chance that at some point down the road you will relapse! AA has been the godsend for me as Alcohol was my drug of choice, but many of us mix drugs with it to a certain extend, it's very comman; either way you'd be welcome at an AA meeting or NA.

All the best in the meantime.

hi mike.

i see you post is called i'm alone please help

well your not alone m8. there's a lot of people here that can actualy realy help and i mean it.
i came here a few year ago with a codeine addiction. i got over it with subutox and the last year i started a roller coaster ride of my life.
i must say that at this current stage i am lower than ever and realy feel like ending it all BUT DONT.
if it wasnt for some of the people on this board i must certany wouldnt be going through day 2 1/2 being clean
by hell mate its hard but your not alone.
when your feeling down just come here and let some of the people on here talk to you . BUT i must warn you that sometimes the truth hurts and they will tell you because sometimes even you yourself cant see it. listen to them and like me they can help
take care mike i didnt think i could do this but i realy am . so so can you do it.
thanx
davey