Well, I can finally say that with continued encouragement I made the phone call to a clinical psychologist who specializes in the treatment of eating disorders. My appointment is at 6:15 tonight and I am really nervous. I've been in treatment in the past, but my eating disorder is worse now than it has ever been. I'm actually going to admit through typing and to myself for the first time that I'm afraid. I can't believe this. I thought that I was in so much control over various things. I can't control it and I feel like things are falling apart right in front of me. I know that I need this. I'm just really scared.

congratulations on taking the first step. good luck!

Congratulations on taking a big step! Let us know how it turns out! Recovery is scary but you CAN do it! :blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire

Hey there!

This is a big step, and it is perfectly normal to be a little scared when taking a big step. You are most certainly heading in the right direction though. Keep going! You should be very proud of yourself right now. Congrats!!! Let us know how it goes.

TAKE CARE!!!

I think you'll find it wonderful to have somebody to talk to who actually understands. Good luck!