I am at my healthy weight im happy because I do not to gain any more but I do have ugly water retention and it does look like flab which is making me paranoid because I think it is and people are telling lies, I am wondering that when you are in the process of gaining to your naturally healthy weight do you gain more fat than muscles or vice versa? :eek:

It takes awhile to all even out and for your metabolism to kick up again. I had bloating the first 6 months after my initial weight gain which was about the middle of the normal range for my height. Once my body realized I wasn't going to keep starving it and once I was well enough to do just a tiny bit of exercise (walking and not much of it), things seemed to even out. For some parts of my body, it was more like a year before they went back to normal, and my weight finally settled at the low normal range for my height (but I do have a very small frame). I got the muscle tone back once I could exercise just a tiny bit again (but I never have gone back to workouts anywhere near as intense as my ED workouts).

For me, it felt like I was gaining a lot of bloat and flab at the time and I thought it was horrible, but in reality, I have looked at pictures of myself from that time period, and I do not look that bad--yes, I look at bit larger than I do now, but in no way do I look gross or obese or even chubby or overweight. A lot of it has to do with body image, which you just have to accept that your perception is very, very skewed. You will have bloating and water retention but I doubt you are the fattest, grossest person around and probably do not look so bad to others as you perceive yourself to look. I think you do tend to retain water and your body is still uncertain whether it might have to go back into starvation mode, so it holds on to every calorie more, but it does even out over time--time spent eating normal amounts of calories, not exercising much if any in the beginning, not purging or restricting or engaging in other ED behaviors.

You have to be patient; it will work out fine in the end, trust me. :wave: