reach sorry it is so late but i just got back from a date with pam yup a date with my wife, it was a lot of fun, so much to share with you,i spent some time in jail well a lot of timefor some things i am not proud of but i also had time to do a lot of thinking, i thought that i lost my wife for good and my whole family they said that they would not love me to DEATH, funny i did not love myself at all, any way that was a wake up call i had most importantly lost myself.:eek: well i found myself again:wave: i am proud to say that i have not had any crack coke crank methodone xanax percocet nada for 90 days yeah i have started a new relationship with my parents and my kids my grand kids and i am trying with all my soul to get my wife back i know it will take time to gain her trust but i will, life can and does go on with out drugs and it is BETTER than i ever thought, i had to come off cold turkey from every thing that was so hard which brings me to you reach you can do this i know you can, the things you are going through are normal i still have days like you, i keep myself busy mind body and soul i do know that i am a lot slower than i was but i am an old man ya no he he well reach better get to bed have to work in the am so great to hear from ya and a shout out to izzysmom THANKS for the kind words oh reach my internet will be down by saturday i am having it switched to satellite cable costs going through the roof, well nitie nite all and sweet dreams hpoe to hear from you before sat hugs gwich:cool: :blob_fire

Hello Gwich

Well, Buddy. now that I am over my initial shock...hehe... I can write a bit to you. Smiles.

It truly is wonderful to hear from you and very exciting that you are back on track. The truth is that I wasn't even sure if you were alive still, and here you pop up not only alive, but living!

I am sure a withdrawal in jail was not pleasant, to say the least. However, I think we can agree that it won't be an experience you will ever forget and the jail time probably served as a wonderful time for reflection. I am a firm believer that God sometimes has to allow us to fall hard, really hard, in order to get our attention and finally let Him help us. Sure has happened to me on a few ocassions!

Greg, what are you doing for aftercare now? Are you in counseling, N/A or anything like that? Please tell me you are. It can get so easy sometimes to feel so strong that we can be tempted to try and use that one last time just to prove to ourselves that we are so strong again, you know?

It is great that you are working on your family relationships again. Yesiree, Bob, that is what life is all about. It is the relationships I have with my God, my family and my dear friends that are the core of my joy in life.

Greg... I am going to shoot two things straight from the hip here and hope you know that I shoot from a gun loaded with love and caring.... First, your absolute priority has got to be keeping yourself clean. Second, as much as I know how badly you want to be back with your wife, take it slowly and do not exploit her vunerabilities when it comes to you... give her lots of space and time to rebuild trust in you and do not rush her because of your own needs. Bang! I know how harsh that probably sounds, but sometimes friends need to be brutally honest to really be a friend, okay?

In another direction... you are working again?!! Wow! What are you doing for work? This is great news to hear that you have a job already. What a blessing to know that your time is being filled with employment. Hurray! So many positive things going on for you. Yep, Gwich, life is beautiful and joyous without the drugs, huh?

Okay, I need to go get ready... I am watching my grandbaby for a bit today...ah, he is a bright star in my life. Chuckles. 15 months old, happy as a lark, and just mischievous enough to keep me laughing.

Catch you again on your new SATELLITE set-up! You gotta be a techie junkie for sure. Smiles.

Blessings and peace
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Hey, Satelitte Man-To-Soon-Be

I know you are offline right now, but am posting anyway just to say hi and that I am thinking of you. While I have calmed down a bit since first being blown away from our initial 're-introduction,' I am still so very excited for the changes that have taken place for you inside of yourself. Hot-diggety-dog!

We are all pulling here for you, Gwich. ( Aww, you know that, smiles). Your old friends, the new ones you are going to make, all of us in your corner, Buddy. have a great weekend and don't get so caught up in Satellite TV that you forget to post on your Satellite internet. Chuckles.

Later, alligator
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