i tink i m going crzy. but i know better. i have been struggling with anxiety and panic attacks since i was 15.. i was hospitlized for a short time and continued on an out paient basis till i was 18.. i think i no longer has insurance, i dont even remember my diagnosis back then.. when i was 25 i was deemed mildly agorophobic.. by a theripist.. a year a go i went into a new docs office and freeked out.. they told me to go to a psychistrist and get into thearpy.. today i finially made some calls, i have a 1000 deductible.. i fell so helpless.. it like do i pay my mortgage or het the help i *gulp* finially accepted i need..
i rarley leave my house and when i do i run at the first sight of someone who might try and talk to me. i look like a fool. My husband complains all the time how i never want to do anything.. ill take a hike.. wont go to the movies or out to dinner.. going to my inlaws is like pulling teeth.. i am absoultly terrified of them.. some good, some is just me.. but i here i am 28 and my entire life is set up to what i percieve i can nd cn not handle.. the worst part.... my kid is ready to start school and i am too freaked out to take him.. i really feel lost and alone and well just completly nuts..
i cannot afford my mental health coverage, i do not qualigify for any assitiatnce. i am losing control

please excuse my typos, trying this with a splint on.

thanks