Im only 20 and yet for most of my teenage years, ive been depressed. I've been at rock bottom where i found it hard to leave the house, couldnt deal with social situations and cut myself because the pain felt good. But the worst thing, is i was so lonely. There seemed to be no-one to talk too, its not enough to have friends ... you need friends that understand, and very few do.
Im getting to that rock bottom phase again and im scared. I dont get on with my parents so i do not have their support and i am living away at uni at the moment. Everyday is a struggle, its so hard to get out of bed and i just want to stay in bed all day. I dont want to go to lectures, i dont want to be here but i dont know what else to do ... or where to turn.
Ive just lost my grandparents - they died within the space of 6months and its a whole new experience and im missing them so much. Is there anyone who has any advice? Or just reply so i know there is support out there?

salsamagic x

A lot of schools have free counseling services maybe it might be a good idea to look into it. Sometimes all you can do is plow through the hard stuff and hope something better is on the other side.

take care
trg247

Just know that as lousy as you feel right now, you won't always feel like this. I know that right now it seems like you've been feeling like this forever, but you can change this. Talk to your doctor and ask where you can get free or low cost counselling. Maybe depending on your health history, and what you discuss with your doctor, medication is an option.

It doesn't have to be like this forever.

-SS

Hi. I'm really sorry to hear what you are going through. As trg427 was saying have you tried counselling? Otherwise our love is with you. Hugs

Thank you all for your replies, its nice to know there are people out there. I have had counselling already, earlier this year in fact and it didnt help. I dont want to go there again ... and im already on medication too, but that doesnt seem to be working anymore, but my doctor wont do anything.

SalsaMagic

Salsa, I would try couseling again. It took me about 20 visits of on and off counseling over 10 years with a half dozen different therapists and then I worked quite a bit on my own afterwards to deal with all of my issues. The right therapist is very important - they are not all alike - and you need to be in the "right" place in your life also to respond to therapy. Therapy isn't the therapist fixing you. Therapy is you working to fix yourself with the therapist's help. Dealing with social situations was one of the things that I had to overcome. It can be done and you can do it. Normal functioning is all about learning what is bothering you and better learning skills.