I read that somewhere and this person, whoever wrote that quote, described depression as such. I don't know, maybe it is true, but I know I'm feeling very depressed right now.

This is my first posting in here and I don't even know if my post would be appropriate. But I'm so depressed right now after reading and watching and learning about the horrific massacre at Virginia Tech. God bless all of their souls. But I'm so depressed and somewhat angry that something like this can happen to our children. I'm so scared. All of these feelings mixed inside of me, being churned more and more by the media. I don't know if anybody else is feeling similar to what I'm feeling, but I have a son in college right now and all I want to do is wrap my arms around him and take him home and say, no more college, no more big, bad world... you're coming back to the safety of home. But I know I can't. Something I've learned about this kid who did those horrific killings is that his parents were distant and somewhat uncaring to him... I just wish parents would be more responsible and conscientious about their children because my son is out there with their children.

I'm usually not this way, but right now, I just want to hide under a big stack of blankets and never come out. I wish that people would stop the killing. I can't concentrate on anything but this selfish person who did all of those killings at Vermont Tech.

I was depressed too after the Columbine killings. I didn't snap out of my depression for a couple of months and I'm not the type that would take drugs unless it's absolutely necessary.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

Peace
Fabat40

it is sad to hear. and depressing to know that people have died. but hearing this may have possibly convinced someone to be better because of it. it convinced me to try harder in school... its hard to hear that college students think they have no one to turn to...

i agree with you, goosting79: "hearing this may have possibly convinced someone to be better because of it"

i'd hope that hearing and going through this would definitely convice not only parents to care for, and look after their children more, even after they've "grown up" and are college age, but also the "powers that be"--who should've reacted way faster than they did with their "snail-email" for crying out loud, and 2 hours after the first attack happened. this, especially in light of the fact that they had already gone through something like that before, with that guy who escaped and hid on the campus about 2 years ago.... where was the safety system here? they shoud have had something in place just for this type of incident, in case (God forbid) it should happen again--and look, it did....and at what expense!!!!

but like i said before, even if one is in their early 20's, it doesn't mean that they know everything they need to know about the world. this guy was really messed up and his parents probably had no idea about it, because they were busy with their markets. i'm really sorry actually, i'm sorry for all the people who passed, and i'm sorry fir this guy, who must have gone through hell and back to have been able to do something like that. he was definitely mentally ill and absolutely nothing was done about it. i just didn't like people talking about it afterwards, and saying things like, "oh, he had the face of a killer, " or "he was someone who could have easily turned into a gunman" or something to that effect.... it's so easy to look back and say these things... and definitely very easy to blame a dead kid. why not do something about it beforehand? why not be proactive? there should be some sort of univ. laws or something in place about kids like these....i don't know...when you see they definitely need help. but, we're so politically correct, that we can't even talk about these things, let alone do something about it before hand..it's definitely a tragedy waiting to happen.

may God rest them all in peace!:angel:

Hi Fabat, I agree with Dakota, he should have gotten some help before he did this. I just read that professors were concerned about his violent writings. Since this is the second time that a massacre has sent you into a depression for a few months I was wondering what issue it was triggering in you that you could discover and deal with so that you aren't affected so much?

Hello everybody,

Thanks for your posts... I think what triggered it is the feeling of not being in control. By nature, I'm a very controlling person (only at work), when it comes to my personal life, I know where to draw the line... but hearing all those people who'd perished, it just made me so sad. My personality is an extrovert and I tend to try to "smooth" things out with everybody, making sure everybody's okay and harmony is such a big thing in my daily life. I think also the fear of some wing-nut like this guy is around my son and not having any control over it. My son is my world even though he's a grown young man. He'll always be my world and my baby. I feel so sad for the family of the slain victims... it just breaks my heart.

You guys are right, I wish someone could've done more and I hate it when people see things in hindsight. That doesn't to anybody any good.

Talking about it makes me feel a little better too. I went to our temple for service, and went to a candle light vigil for the victims. My heart goes out to the families and I pray for all of their souls.

Thank you again for your posts. Please be careful out there.

Peace
Fabat40