Hello all, today I woke up with a severe hangover, I was dizzy, I was dreaming as If I was falling and rocking back and forth and it seemed real...almost like G force sensations, as I'm typing this post, I feel unbalanced, lightheaded, mouth is dry, I feel like ****. I'm 21 years old, and have had a drinking problem for the past 6 months, drinking a bottle of vodka every night. It got to be routine, at first the hangovers weren't that bad, but the last 2 weeks I have felt like death.

I drink alone and hide everything from my friends and family, I'm not sure if what i experienced today was the "breaking point" but I am actually now scared to drink and quit, all at the same time. I can not believe how my body broke down like that this morning, my mouth was so so dry I thought I was gonna die. Maybe this is a sign from my body/higher being? I really need help, and I'm wiling to get it, I'm just afraid to go to an AA meeting. Any suggestions would be nice, I'm not in denial at this point, and I want to start recovery today! Not tomorrow...so many days I told myself..no wait...I lied to myself, saying this was gonna be the last day drinking, same story so many nights.

Hi liveausberlin, it's wonderful that you want to do something about your alcohol abuse at an early age. An AA meeting would be best, but if you are afraid to go to one, just call a local AA meeting place/chapter office that you can find online or in the phonebook. They will talk to you and not "force" you to go to a meeting. Good Luck!

Realizing and wanting help is the first step in recovery--and it seems that is where you are. Good for you! You must decide to get help ASAP, because if you do not, believe it or not things WILL get much worse. AA is always a good start--remember EVERYONE in AA has had their 1st time. You can look for AA meetings on the internet or even look up the AA Hotline # in the phone book. If you or your parents have health insurance, look into an outpatient or inpatient rehab program. It may seem scarey to take some of these suggestions but believe me it WILL change your life!!! You are so young and have a lifetime of opportunity and happiness ahead of you...You will never experience those things if you continue to drink as you are now... You do need help, deserve help and there are many wonderful people who work in the field of addiction. If there is no health insurance you can always look into Medicaid for help. And, of course, you can always walk into an AA meeting at any time--try a couple of different ones--you will find one that just clicks with you.. Can you talk with anyone about this--parents, close friend??? My thoughts and prayers are with you and please keep us posted with any other concerns or progress you have. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!