coolshine
04-19-2007, 02:43 AM
I had unsafe anal sex with an stanger on Nov 2006 and since the first day I have been afraid of being HIV +. I had a depression that has been almost gone since december and somehow I was stupid and decided until 6 months are gone to finally have the test. I have no had any early symptons and I was almost "happy " until today.
I somehow conviced myself to wait for the worst.
Now the worst has happened but not to me.
I have had protected sex with my long term boyfriend since we decided to have sex with condoms always.
My real problem now is that we have been very distant and have not had sex in a long time and I was blaming myself because I have been trying to protect him. In the other hand, he was also distant and he found out today that he is hiv+ because he had some unprotected sex in August 2006.
Now I am at double risk and also I feel totally upset because I feel life is very ironic.
I somehow conviced myself to wait for the worst.
Now the worst has happened but not to me.
I have had protected sex with my long term boyfriend since we decided to have sex with condoms always.
My real problem now is that we have been very distant and have not had sex in a long time and I was blaming myself because I have been trying to protect him. In the other hand, he was also distant and he found out today that he is hiv+ because he had some unprotected sex in August 2006.
Now I am at double risk and also I feel totally upset because I feel life is very ironic.

