wannarun
04-21-2007, 02:19 PM
I went to a LOUD music concert last night. I brought ear plugs at the last minute, and they helped some, but not completely. Our seats were in the STEEP balcony, so it looked like I was going to fall off the "mountain" any time if I just moved the right way. Then, there were the lights, and heavy vibrations from the music.
I lasted for about an hour, maybe hour and a half, but didn't even get to see the headliner! I was so mad, not at myself because I knew that I couldn't handle anymore of the pounding beat and visual stimulation, but I was soooo mad at this disorder, disease, illness whatever it may be. It's got to stop!
My poor husband has put up with so much of my anxious, "get me out of here" type crap. I just wanted to get away for one night, have a fun time and relax. And it ended up in the crapper.
Today, I feel off and just like I wanna curl up in the dark with no sound of any kind creeping in. But I sucked it up and walked around the little shops etc. where we were just so it wasn't a total waste of a day. I did OK, but there were definite times when I wanted to scream and stomp my feet that this needs to go away!!!!!!!
I lasted for about an hour, maybe hour and a half, but didn't even get to see the headliner! I was so mad, not at myself because I knew that I couldn't handle anymore of the pounding beat and visual stimulation, but I was soooo mad at this disorder, disease, illness whatever it may be. It's got to stop!
My poor husband has put up with so much of my anxious, "get me out of here" type crap. I just wanted to get away for one night, have a fun time and relax. And it ended up in the crapper.
Today, I feel off and just like I wanna curl up in the dark with no sound of any kind creeping in. But I sucked it up and walked around the little shops etc. where we were just so it wasn't a total waste of a day. I did OK, but there were definite times when I wanted to scream and stomp my feet that this needs to go away!!!!!!!

