Shawley I know you have been going thru alot and I am getting worried because you have not been on board in awhile. I know you are off meds and probably in alot of pain. I just want to let you know that I care and am pulling for you. You have an appt on the 25th to see a new doctor about the stim inplant if I remember, right??

I pray that you are just reading and not posting because of the pain.

Pepper you said it all. I am worried also. Maybe he had an appointment today. Shawley I am praying for you and hope your pain is manageable

Shawley no word yet now I am getting worried. Hope you are ok. I am praying for you.

Shawley I need a mayor more than ever. Where is my buddy? I hope you are doing something fun and took an exteneded weekend. I could really use your humor right now. Hope all is well thinking of you vette

Okay, we all know that Shawley doesn't usually post on weekends, and sometimes he misses a day here and there, but I just checked and he hasn't been on since last Thursday. This is not like him!

Prayers going up for Shawley!

~Emily

Shawley...where oh where are you tonight? Why did you leave us here all alone? I searched the world over and I thought I 'd found a good friend...you met another and phhh..you was gone. :D Trying to cheer you up Shawley, seriously I hope and pray that you are ok. Post when you feel like it please.....Brenwill

Isn't it sad............I realized when I posted this thread it had last been since last Thursday which was why I was worried....Shawley man...........where are you??? I am having withdrawals.....the back is aching more today......I can't eat.........my stomach is sick with worry....you had better come back or else I will just shrivel up into nothing!!

WE CARE MAN!!

I second Pepper
We love ya man

Hello Shawley

Just popped in to say hello. I have been traveling this past week, and on the way home, I saw something that made me think of you. We were in PA and I saw a sign that said "Pennsylvania/ The Woods." It made me think of you because I remembered that that was your signature address at one time.. In the woods, PA. Smiles.

Shawley, I know you have been going through a lot of difficulties with depression and meds. The depression can so easily make us beat ourselves up and feel like losers and feel self-defeated. Those are depressive thoughts that I have experienced often in my own life's journey. It helped greatly when I recognized them for exactly what they are... thoughts from a depressed brain. The depression will lift at some point and you are going to be okay.

Yes, you are a strong and determined man, but none of us are strong enough to deal with the massive issues that life sometimes throws at us. get back into survival mode, Buddy, and keep doing the things that can be helpful during these times. Things like continuing to talk and write about it with loved ones and family. Okay?

Hugs
reach

Shawley I am getting really worried hope you are ok and you are in my prayers. Sure thought we would hear from you today.

Hope we will have news soon, dear friend we miss you so much...please send news!!!Your friend from the other side of the ocean..pat:angel:

I went back and read several of his threads. I am pretty sure he has an appt tomorrow about the implant. Hopefully he will post then.

I saw that too, Pepper. Hopefully hes just hunkering down until his appt tomorrow, he didnt have many meds left, and may have had a rough last few days. I hope hes ok too:eek: this isnt like Shawley!
Hopefully well hear sometning tomorrow!
xoxoxoxoxoxo,
IZZY'SMOM:wave:

Shawley, I am really worried about you, I hope and pray that everything is ok. We miss you here.

i hope Shawley reads our posts....maybe in the future he can have someone post for him so all of us dont worry... Ive asked my hubby to do the same for me on the other boards if theres any probs and im away for a period of time......ppl really DO care, and its so amazing.
xoxoxoxox,
IZZY'SMOM

Shawley are you abandoning me to??? Is this a government holiday week for the mayor to be gone. Where are you buddy?

Shawley, I am very worried about you. Even when you were in terrible pain you still were here every morning. Are you ok buddy?

I hope all is good, and when I get my computer back in a few days I pray that you are around and all is ok.

I miss my mayor, if you only knew what was going on while you were gone, there's been havok.

vette

Just want to bump this to the top so if Shawley does get on he will see this.

Still worried.

Shawley....I am so sick.....and the only reason I keep getting on today is to check on you man. I love you and am praying for you.

Sorry you are so sick Pepper. I hope his appt goes well. Maybe he will post later. I hope so...
xoxoxoxox,
IZZY'SMOM

Shawley please just say you are ok if you are reading, you dont have to do anthing lengthy, just want to know you are ok. I really miss you alot and we need you,
Rachel:( :(

SHAWLEY DUDE... GIT UR COUNTRY *SS IN HERE & SAY HEY!!!

Seriously... it's been too long now... take care... Dave!

Shawley buddy, I know were on since you replyed to my thread. How are you, are you ok? I miss you!!!!!!! Are you ok?

Hi Guy's :wave: Sorry I haven't been on here for a while, I actually feel alot better health wise since I stopped all my narcotics. Not putting anyone down for taken them because when I was taking them I could do more , but my health wasn't to good , I finally got some color back ,thank's to the nice weather we had. Withdraw's were terrible and I didn't feel like doing anything. My feet and leg's are killing me but I spoke to the new PM Dr. and he is going to do the trial , now I'm just waiting on a date. I won't do the permanent one until my daughter is married on June 9th because I want to be able to enjoy her special day in Ocean City Maryland. We used to go there every summer before I was injured so it will be a special day for all of us.

My wife told me it was good to see me back to the same person , she said them med's really made me wierd. I agree'd and told her they made me depressed and full of anxiety. Did I mention I had to go to the ER and get 4 shot's of whatever it was , but it made me sleep for 10 straight hour's and boy did I need that. I can't sleep at all.

It really made me feel good to see everyone asking about me , kind'a choked me up. I missed comming here talking to you all , I just didn't feel like doing anything . Sorry. Thing's are brighter for me , I got to see my youngest daughter in track the other day , I paid for it , but it was worth every pain to see her . Thank's for asking about me..Your Mayor can't just up and leave , let's just say I was on a little vacation.

Shawley :wave:

So thankful to here from you. I was really worried and needing our mayor. So you quit all meds again? I must have missed something. I knew they were cutting you down...sorry buddy I have so much going on I probably missed somthing along the way. Did you quit the cymbalta and xanax to?

Sounds like you've been gone cause of withdrawal, is that right? And had to go to the ER. Man....I am so sorry to hear all of this. Guess it wasn't the week for either one of us!!!

So...on the positive side..you found someone to do the stimulator? That is awesome...why the long wait? I know the wedding, but is the recovery long from this or something?

Well Mr Mayor your dang vacation is over, you better stay put, even if you are puking you get over here and say I'm alive, even if you have to crawl to the computer. You can't worry us!! Okay that was your lecture buddy!!

Glad you are doing better!!! vette

Thank you JESUS!! You just made my day. I have been checking and checking to see if you popped back on here. Details.....tell us about the new doc. Does he know about all the details of your case?? Not being able to get meds.

Hi Pepper-- I missed all of you guy's too. Sorry I haven't been on here.
My new Dr. Hmmm..he seem's ok. He's from India ,small frame guy with a little scruffy beard. Hard to understand sometimes but he really seem's to thing this is going to help my pain also. He thought he was going to do the permanent stim if it worked. I told him NO my surgeon is doing that because he has plan's to do more than just that. I told him nothing of my pain med's I really don't want them anymore. They just made me feel tired and spaced out and didn't feel like doing or going anywhere. Now I'm just scared to do anything because of the pain..I begged the nurse to do this ASAP because I need relief. I hope the stim gives me some. I can't sleep at night.

I'm worried about infection's from this device. How can it sit in there without deteriating ? ( sorry about the spelling) It's nice to see you all again. I promise not to leave you all without notice next time. Thank's for asking about me.

Shawley :wave:

Shawley, why won't your doctor to the trail one??

Hey Shawley, whew!! (sigh of relief) Good to see you back and know that you are ok. I agree totally, after the meds got out of my system, I felt a lot more like my old self. As far as worrying about infection, etc. from the stimulator, DON'T WORRY, My friend, has had hers for over 10 years with no problems, just like the rods and screws in our backs, they won't rust or anything like that. My friend is pleased with her results, she is not 100% but she is able to function and have a life again. Also, she got her stimulator after a failed fusion. Please put that at the very bottom of your to worry about list. Have a great day and so glad you are back with us. Bren

Pepper that a good question ? I don't know why he won't do the trial.
He wanted one of the Dr.'s near his office to do it , but I told him about the problems with transportation and he understands. I really don't know why he won't do the trial ,maybe because of insurance reason's ?

Shawley

Thanks Bren , that made my day to here your friend is doing great after 10 years with the stim. I will put that on the bottom of my list.

BIG THANK YOU !

Shawley:wave:

Sorry Shawley but that one :dizzy: me.

Pepper-- what made you :dizzy: ? When you ask me why my Dr. won't do the trial , you meant my Surgeon right ?

Yes, I don't understand if he does the final implant why he would not do the trail?? or am I just :dizzy: ??

I have no idea why he didn't want to do it , but then again I would have to travel a long distance so it's better this way cause now I only have to travel to PennState which is only 12 miles from my home. So I'm glad this new Dr. will do it. He said he will document everything he does and send it to my surgeon. He really seem's like a nice Dr.

Shawley :) Yes, I don't understand if he does the final implant why he would not do the trail?? or am I just :dizzy: ??

Hi Shawley, Glad you are doing well. Maybe I missed it, but what are you doing for the pain now since you stopped the Narcotics? Just curious. I would like to get off the Percocet too. I have Ultram ER and Tramadol but neither seems to be as good. I know what you mean about going to the kid's sporting events. My son had a double header baseball game on Sunday. I went late, went home in between and moved around a lot. I was hurting after. I feel like there is so little I can do but it means alot to my son for me to be there. He is 13 and I don't think he really gets how much pain I am in. Oh well. Glad you are feeling better.

Shawley it sure does feel good to know that you are doing much better and I am so glad to hear from you. I was so worried. I am so happy you let us know that you are ok.
Rachel

Shawley, It is great to hear from you and that you are doing better and off the narcotics, sorry to hear you had such a bad time with the withdrawls. But the important thing is you got off them.

~hugs Niki

Hey there...
glad you surfaced! i dont understand, and maybe you can help me out here, but 12 miles how lucky!! IM serious, I will have to travel at LEAST 14 hours round trip for any PM doc to take my case...Why wont you try the trial stim...or why wont they do one? Im trying to be positive, but my dad did the stim, and if hed had someone who whould have given him a trial, it would have been so much less a heartache. Same with him....only he had to drive 16 hours round trip, and being elderly he didnt want to burden my mom to take him for trials, ect, and it was a disaster. IM glad he got it out. is it the distance you would have to travel? Im confused same as pepper.... did they take over your meds, or are you off of all of your meds altogether. sorry to repeat what other posters have asked, but i didnt see what youd replied, and i may have missed something... i just meant id rather try the trial and have to travel a bit more than to do a perm pone, and be stuck....but if you feel thats the right decision...thats your call! I hope it works for you, and i hope you get the relief you need....I wouldnt want to trade you places. Take care Shawley!!
xoxoxox,
IZZY'SMOM

Hi Shawley,
I have been lurking in the background, praying for everyone. But I was worried about you too, it's been a while. I new you didn't give up the ship that easy with no good bye. I'm so glad your feeling better without the meds, I know how they feel, yuck!!! I wish I could stand the pain enough to do as you did and ditch them all. I can't handle missing one dose the nerve damage is too bad I guess.

Well anyway, welcome back!!! buddy. I'm praying for you and that stim, my cousin has had his for many many yrs with out any problems, hope that helps ease the worry a bit. I'm just sittingin limbo right now. I'm not really doing well emotionally, really down, that cymbalta was really helping my mood but it was bad for the BP had to give it up. I'm not any anti-depressant now, it's been rough. I have tried to keep my self involved in things, like feeding our local cops a free lunch with an area group, all 3 shifts, it was fun but I'll pay dearly for it this next few days.

Enough of that, I'm glad your back and I"m gonna be on here more, it always makes me feel better when I can help on here and be helped as well. This really is the only place I feel I fit in anymore, I missed you guys!!!

God Bless

Carol

Geez Shawley,

I haven't been around in awhile, and come back to find an SOS out for you!!! I'm very glad that your okay, and doing better. I do understand the need to get away when things get hard............ HOWEVER, your not aloud to leave and not let anyone know how ur doin.

I can come and go all the time and no one notices because I've always done that, but your a daily ritual and everyones caffine..........YOUR NEEDED AND MISSED WHEN GONE. Okay enough yelling...lol I'm really glad that your feeling better shawley and I sure hope that the spinal stim works wonders for you!!

Take care and hang in there :)

First I just wanna say thank's to you guy's , you make me feel special and wanted . TucsonLady don't think that your not wanted . I like typing to you. lol :)

I'm trying the Trial Stimulator first , sorry I confused anyone. Yes I am off all narcotic's , what am I doing for pain ? Right now I'm doing nothing but Lyrica 150MG twice a day. I make sure not to over do anything , very little walking , no lifting.(found out the hard way) I feel stronger inside than when I was taking my pain med's. I understand why Dr.'s don't like to give out these med's . I had a chance to ask my new PM Dr. for pain med's but I really don't want them again unless it becomes unbarable again . I just have to be careful about what I do.

As soon as the Dr.'s office call's and gives me a date I'll post it. I'm kind of scared and anxious all at once for it. I promise I won't up and leave again. I did think about you all during my recovery and wanted to get on to say hello but I really felt like crap if you know what I mean.

Take care and thank's

Shawley :wave: