[FONT="Arial"]Hi I have been reading and looking through your posts and learning all I can about how everyone has tried to quit opiates. i have been to a pain specialist about pelvic pain for at least 5 months now, and it's gotten me on Lortab 10mg supposed to be no more than 6 per day but you guys know what happens, the euphoria that i feel when I take them went away, and I found myself taking more and more of them just to get that feeling back. I want to stop the madness. however, i have been doing this a while now, and i'm scared. i have a full time job i can't throw away and I just want to get through this. I feel powerless! I tried to start tapering today and I had the dumb bottle with me so did I taper? No way, it was right there in front of me, so it was like it was not an option, like someone else was making the decision for me, not me. I hate this, and I would rather feel the pain than take the pills. I mean it. I'm ready to quit, and I don't have the money to go buy 40 or 50 different vitamins or the other various detox treatments, such as subuxone or whatever. Do you think you could recommend some kind of a cleansing treatment that would help ease the withdrawal symptoms? I hear of people on here going nuts over their 5 and 7.5 mg, and i'm sitting here scared to death because mine are 10 mg and I take 3 at a time :( at least 3 times a day. What do i do?

Scared, powerless and sick & tired.
onejunebug

the actual amount doesnt usually mean that much.. what others go through on 15 mg a day and what you deal with at 90 are much the same.

if can do a taper (I did one coming of about the same amount of oxycontin during my back surgery) its not bad, the trick is to do it slooooow. like 10 weeks or so. drop by 2 pills per week if you can.

Ive also done a cold turkey from a way higher amount back in the day. I much prefer the taper.

can you find someone to control your pills? or leave them home and just take that part of the days dose with you to work?

youve only been on them for 5 months? thats really not that long, and that should be in your favor.

I did a very fast taper from Norco 30mg and Morphine 60mg a day... I'm not going to lie, it was hell. As of today I am 3 weeks OFF of the opiates, and even though the process was and is incredibly challenging, I can say that it was worth it. I was on all sorts of different opiate combos over the years, all prescribed for legitimate pain.

My pain is still there, but my mind feels clear. Don't get me wrong, I have moments where I feel despair, but seeing life without the haze is so rewarding. I KNOW how hard it is to hate the pills but take them anyway. I KNOW what that initial euphoria feels like, and trying to feel that over again.

I didn't think I could do it; I really didn't. But I sit here today, and I am grateful that I woke up and saw that pills were ruling my life. I know you are probably very scared, but that's why this board is here... Read over the posts-people are inspiring.

You haven't been on them for very long, which is good. Your body hasn't become as reliant as some of ours had. Zeroman had a good suggestion, in having someone keep the pills for you or leaving some at home.

I hope you are doing ok, and I can truly empathize.

In my honest opinon, dont be the least bit concerened with suboxone treatment....you are just going to have to withdrawal off that then. Why prolong the process. One girl on this site told me to take a multi vitamin and a calcium vitamin. Walmart is cheap, im taking old prenatal vitamins 2x a day. Someone else told me to eat bananas, drink lots of water, and try to exercize to release your natural endorphens. You can do it.....i watched my husband detox himself off of 150mg of methadone last year. You can do it, keep telling yourself that its just a little bit of pain for a lifetime of freedom. Good luck and keep posting to help get yourself through it thats what helped me the most, hearing people say dont give up! My prayers are with you, God bless you :)

Don't let the fear of the withdrawl steer you away from your best thinking.Your day is here, you said it, 'you are ready to quit, you want to stop the madness,' don't let any lingering thought from lack of self confidence change your mind. You can do this.!!

We are all creatures of habit, some people take the same drive to work everyday, or some of us like to hold our favorite coffee cup in the morning, or some of us like to carry our purse on our right shoulder, It starts with change, little thing like leaving the pill bottle at home when you go to work.That's a start. Then you can decide how you will taper from your pelvic pain threshold. Monitor yourself very closely and talk to your pain specialist.

If you are brave enough to endure the pain you are strong enough to carry it through. Do not give up on yourself.

to thine own self be true
kadee

Thanks for all the replies, I didn't think I would get that many already. But then again, I'm not alone in this battle. I work at a desk in customer service position at a very fast-paced company, very competitive job, and I just cannot afford a week of downtime, you know? Otherwise, I would consider sticking it out the hard way. But I'm afraid of the way my mind thinks when I'm going through that stuff. It is not good, it's a very dark place, again, all stuff you all know already. But it affects my public relations very negatively and I get questioned about that sometimes. Because after a while, the pills made me snappy too. I have a couple of refills at the pharm, but since my insurance won't pay for that, then the pharm will not allow it to be filled. i said i would pay cash (very cheap drug), but they wouldn't bend. I just want to get them so I can do the 10% taper schedule in order to reduce the "hell" period. I can't do it, because I'll lose everything, I know I will, because I'll literally quit. I'll give it all up, I have done that before when I was on meth and all those other drugs. But life and my family mean more to me now than anything else, so I'm willing to go to any lengths to get through this. I took 3 this morning ( I know, bad, I should hve taken 2 or even 1, but I couldn't, I felt AWFUL when I woke up, so it's what I felt I had to do to get going :(. Then I didn't take any more until 8 p.m. (3). The only good thing about that is that I'm now down to the allowed 6 a day, because hello, it was way over that before, but I still feel like crap because of my failure. My doctor I go see tomorrow will evaluate the situation with me and see what she can do for me, with me, per her note today, so we'll see what happens. I'll keep you all informed. Thank you for your thoughts. I just have to say though that tapering is a good idea, it really is, but I don't have enough pills to do it. I just don't.

Thank you for your kind support.
Still scared and trying.
Onejunebug
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HI! It's Sunday night, and OMG I should be in bed already, but I had some words with some family members (currently working on trying to sleep) but here's the good news. I went to my primary care physician and toldher that I wanted off but couldn't because i had become so dependent that i was taking way more than prescribed, and she is helping me. i'm for whatever reason, following her taper schedule to a T. I'm so excited that she was so willing to help me.. to those out there who are suffering and truly want to get ouf of this, then GO SEE A PHYSICIAN! DO NOT try to do it yourself. We never have to do that, this is not a requirement. I am able to go to work tomorrow morning because I humbled myself into going into the dr.'s office and asking for help. I will be uncomfortable for a few days, but it is nothing near what I was dealing with when i was on those pills the way i was, and it's nothing like cutting off cold turkey. i could have died from that. God is watching over me. I'm an angry mess right now though (other than I'm happy with this), so I'm working the 12 steps with a sponsor in Alcoholics Anonymous program. Just what I need to do for me. God bless you all and write me I would love for you to hear the outcome of all this. I should, if all goes well, be completely opiate free on MAY 18!!!!! Yeehaw! :) Love you guys and it's funny cuz i don't even know you and yet i know somehow i love you.

angela

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hi junebug:)
just wanted to introduce myself... and tell you that I think your doing an absolutely wonderful job! I've been where you are and I'm so proud of you for recognizing your behavior and seeking help. Sometimes it takes a lifetime to learn the humility that it sounds like you have...and you've got the whole rest of your life! cool, right? stay close, you've got friends here.
Wishing you the best, jkm

[FONT="Impact"]Junebug you are awesome GREAT JOB! keep up the good work we are definitely here for you. I love you Too.....

Hi Junebug

Just good wishes on your journey to Cleansville. I think you have taken some brave steps already. Stay strong and steady. Come back often.

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