HI y'all! I'm back and doing ok, thanks to the grace of God! After my last post on page#12 3/11/07, my daughter had the phone and internet shut off, it was only done to piss me off, since she knew the only social contact I had besides sunday evening church, was on these boards. She didnt worry about needing to use a phone because she went out and bought herself and bfriend cellphones, and she knew I didnt even have the money to use a phonebooth. But all has ended up ok (God makes sure I am taken care of, sometimes I just NEED to remember that and be patient).
Supposedly, if my daughter keeps her word, she should be moving out this weekend, I hope. She had left and went to her dad's 4/1, stayed there the week and returned here on easter sunday night, it was soooo peaceful that week! While she was gone I had to go into her piggy room because she had left an overflowing garbage FULL of dirty diapers in there and it stunk! Well as I was gathering the garbage I found next to the garbage can a half full fifth of whisky, needless to say I took it out of there, and hid it (locked up) for possible future evidence if needed. When she came home and found that gone, she stormed into my room yelling at me, saying I had NO BUSINESS in her room, if she finds out I have gone into her room again and take anything she promises to break my hands, asked me how I would like to have to pay for the booze I took, and threatened to steal my digital safe, where I keep all my narcotic medications locked up, then best thing of all she said she would be moving out in three weeks which should be this weekend! She stopped in Sunday night to get some baby stuff and said she would be gone another day or two but I havent seen nor heard from her since and it has been nice, quiet and clean around here!
Since she has been gone so much I havent gotten a chance to talk to her and tell her about my annual meeting with my housing caseworker. He told me to tell her that SHE is to get him information on a program through her work that she says she is doing to get her GED, and if SHE doesnt get him that information he will be MAKING HER NOT ME PAY $91.00 per month rent! We currently pay nothing but because she HAD to go get a job and quit the homeschooling I had set up for her, he says SHE has to pay the rent since she is the only one with countable income and I am waiting on my SSI. When she hears that she is going to be pissed, but I hope she just gets out, she most likely will go to her dad's or rent a room in a friend's mom's basement. I dont really care, I gave all my worries and grief over her, TO GOD. Besides she doesnt care what she does to destroy me, my therapist tells me I HAVE to take care of myself. I was having panic attacks (real ones! first time in my life!) and nightmares/daydreams that she was trying to kill me andc my therapist says it is just too much for me to handle (all her crap).
Anyway, I just wanted to get back to y'all and let ya know I am doing good and God is blessing me everyday! My boyfriends friend gave us a 1971 Winnebago RV FREE! It runs, looks ok, I cant wait to remodel the inside! I had asked God to make me feel secure somehow, I had been fretting over possibly losing my medical, my home, my only vehicle/transportation basically EVERYTHING! and I couldnt believe it but my friend just gave us this RV, its not perfect but great in my opinion, my boyfriend will have somewhere to stay, so my daughjter cant turn me in for him being here and make me lose my housing benifits (he isnt supposed to be here) it has a dodge engine that everything works and if things need fixing he can do it and parts are cheap and I DONT HAVE TO FEAR BEING HOMELESS !!!!
Well I've been on too long, just wanted to say hey and bless you all have a good night.:angel: :wave: