staralfur
05-13-2007, 01:30 PM
Has anybody else experienced this?
My intrusive thoughts occur as opposite, reactionary thoughts to each of my own.
I'd tell myself "This is a good dvd" and I'd hear "No it's not" as part of my internal dialogue.
Or "I like cheese" and I'd hear "No you don't", and it's like that with everything.
Since when I first had it I had no idea what intrusive thoughts were, I got really afraid of it being schizophrenic, and sometimes now my mind will give the thoughts voices, like hearing a song in your head, or singing it in your head, just to mess with me.
I don't seem to have conventional pure O or intrusive thoughts about sex, violence etc.... so it just keeps me questioning what my condition really is, and keeps the fear of it being schizophrenia alive.
What do you guys think?
My intrusive thoughts occur as opposite, reactionary thoughts to each of my own.
I'd tell myself "This is a good dvd" and I'd hear "No it's not" as part of my internal dialogue.
Or "I like cheese" and I'd hear "No you don't", and it's like that with everything.
Since when I first had it I had no idea what intrusive thoughts were, I got really afraid of it being schizophrenic, and sometimes now my mind will give the thoughts voices, like hearing a song in your head, or singing it in your head, just to mess with me.
I don't seem to have conventional pure O or intrusive thoughts about sex, violence etc.... so it just keeps me questioning what my condition really is, and keeps the fear of it being schizophrenia alive.
What do you guys think?
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Robin2007
05-13-2007, 03:32 PM
I do that a lot also. It isn't every little thing like liking cheese but it is a lot to do with my obsessions. I pretty much fight myself over many issues and it is just me fighting with my OCD only in order to understand better my head gives it a voice. So my ocd will make me think the door is unlocked and I will say back that it isnt I just checked and it will tell me I didn't and I just argue with myself over whether I locked the door or not. Do yours have anything that you can see right away that match with your obsessions or is it just everything and you can't see a connection? If your phobia of schizophrenia is really strong it is probably just your brain bringing that obsession out using a voice you have made yourself just like my obsession with the door.
seaturtle
05-13-2007, 10:17 PM
Yes, I have a constant battle in my head going on. It's as if something is always questioning the validity of whatever I am thinking or doing, accusing me of not being sincere when I am, always telling me I'm no good and am just pretending to be a good person when I am a rotten one. Things like that.
staralfur
05-14-2007, 07:20 AM
A good tip I find is to remember that if the thought is intrusive (which is usually completely obvious) then you know the opposite is actually true. Use the intrusive thought as a validator.
I.e...
"I love my girlfriend"
"No you don't"
"I know that thought is intrusive, ergo the opposite is true or it would be a welcomed thought, therefore I can conclude that I do indeed love my girlfriend."
It doesn't work all the time though.
I find I have to switch between an array of exercises from time to time, as the effect of one fades with too much application.
I.e...
"I love my girlfriend"
"No you don't"
"I know that thought is intrusive, ergo the opposite is true or it would be a welcomed thought, therefore I can conclude that I do indeed love my girlfriend."
It doesn't work all the time though.
I find I have to switch between an array of exercises from time to time, as the effect of one fades with too much application.
divalou
05-14-2007, 12:01 PM
hey! i was just about to post about this. i get this thing that i think"im not enjoying this2 when im out with my bf, or (as he's a dj) i'll tell him i loved his set and my head will tell me i never, or im lying. this happens with other things like if im with him and having fun something will say "your not really enjoying this you just faking being happy" is this similar to you?
seaturtle
05-15-2007, 12:14 AM
Divalou -
Just wanted to thank you for posting this. It's exactly what happens to me, the faking part, and you reassured me that at least I am not alone and that it's part of the OCD,not something worse and shameful.
I hope we both get better.
Just wanted to thank you for posting this. It's exactly what happens to me, the faking part, and you reassured me that at least I am not alone and that it's part of the OCD,not something worse and shameful.
I hope we both get better.
lithenblithe
05-17-2007, 04:03 PM
oh my gosh!!! I've had those "opposite thoughts" just about as long as I can remember!
I had an imaginary friend when I was little, but instead of getting along, we just argued. She would always introduce the opposite thoughts, saying "you're not doing that right!" or when I'd get a compliment, she'd oppose it. We would go back and forth and back and forth, and it was exhausting.
And I've totally kept her around in a wierd sort of way. Sometimes, nearly every thought I have is opposed or picked apart, so that it becomes quite hard to dig my true self out of the whole mess. My biggest arguments do center around my obsessions, but they still pop up around just about everything.
But I know there are times when I can ditch this old "friend" and those times are great! Wish I was there right now!
I had an imaginary friend when I was little, but instead of getting along, we just argued. She would always introduce the opposite thoughts, saying "you're not doing that right!" or when I'd get a compliment, she'd oppose it. We would go back and forth and back and forth, and it was exhausting.
And I've totally kept her around in a wierd sort of way. Sometimes, nearly every thought I have is opposed or picked apart, so that it becomes quite hard to dig my true self out of the whole mess. My biggest arguments do center around my obsessions, but they still pop up around just about everything.
But I know there are times when I can ditch this old "friend" and those times are great! Wish I was there right now!
divalou
05-21-2007, 05:21 AM
****** The Doubtin Disease, thats one way OCD has been described